i want a puffer fish

The sun rose high in the sky, its glare, although bright, could not prevail against the strong gush of the wind. The dominating wind stormed through, weaving in and out of people. the strong breeze fought effortlessly against the hairs on heads, lifting them, shaking them and letting them go before another breeze stormed through, increasing the chaos that already existed. leaves were tossed and turned, branches, on trees, swayed rhythmically, back and forth, the deep rustle created an air of mystery and anguish. all faces, pointed down, shielding eyes from the intense power of moving air. the bustle and noise of the city could not compete against the wail and howl of the wind. At the water's edge, ripples formed at the sound of every howl. but every 10 minutes, silence. these were the seconds of pure and utter serenity. the calmness of the air allowed the sun to express its full potential, the immense heat penetrating the skin, goosebumps form as it brings an air of uncertainty. the peace is short lived. the heat, although intense, is almost immediately consumed by the never ending wind. and yet the cycle relives. Minds are emptied, left confused and lost to the world unknown.

ok there was my lame story for these 2 weeks.... also as it was long overdue and i was not in the mood for it forgive its endless route to nowhere.
anyways before i collapse from complete drainage. i thought i would express today's findings. TODAY WE WENT TO THE AQUARIUM!!!! wee it was actually really good and i saw sooo many fishess!! it made me happy, but we didnt stay there all day, which was a shame but we went to watch x-men instead, which was pretty good, i think it worked better than Pirates of the Caribbean 4.
ANYWAYS yes the aquarium, i saw so many squishes, dory-s and nemo is the cutest thing ever he is like the size of a 20cent piece i wanted to steal him. WE also saw puffer fish... i think they were one of my favourites along with the penguins, because they were so CUTE i didnt get a picture=[ but they were like furry and CONSTANTLY smiling, and HAD MASSIVE EYES, so cute. but there were a lot of eels, which like snakes i kinda highly dislike, and a lot of kids, which also resulted in awkward encounters where pedophile-ism looked highly plausible. But altogether it was a good experience, although we missed like all the presentations cause we didnt look at the brochure.

i also did a bit of running... need to do more of that ......
but now im stuck feeling a little cold and tired doing some work that i havent done and have been dreading i think a mega tip is to not leave it till the last minute? but when does that ever not occur?
OHH and i'm getting a lot of random calls and messages.... but i only wish i was that popular...
NEXT MEGA TRIP?!! imax=] SOOOO EXCITED

hearts, li-ming

time for some mega happiness

well today was a weird day.. mostly because of the fact i woke up mega late and my mum was disappointed and rage-y and so my dad went out and so did my bro, so therefore i did to.... but i went to buy ingredients for a little project im attempting... anyways when i came back mum wasnt home and the house was kinda quiet again, so i just went about my usual late day process of breakfast-lunch, the shower and the half dead.. I SHOULD SLEEP?? routine. but eventually i came to an agreement to watch movies, which i guess was ok. but my boredom was meant to lead to a clean house to make my mammy happy when she got back from work.. but instead i found myself actually doing my hair and taking photos... LOL yes i agree it wasn't the best alternative, but i haven't photowhored in like over a few months so i think i deserved this day of photo taking.

well i think i shall describe my choice of photo.. ok no i won't be so awkwardly descriptive about myself but basically the reason i chose this one, although highly unnatural, was the EXTREME HAPPINESS it shows, i havent taken a happppy photo in quite a WHILE.
i need a haircut, my "fringe" requires a bobby pin to hold it in place.. which has increased my time and effort in the late morning and early afternoon.

So today i promised myself that i would write a story, you know to get the "ball" rolling but honestly im soooo lazy!! and i want to go back on facebook. WHY ARE THE HOLIDAYS SOOO EMPTY AND WHY AM I SO LAZY.... i need to discover the answer to these questions.......!
maybe i'll write a story tomorrow?

hearts, li-ming

SLEEP ALL DAY AND PARTY ALL NIGHT

HELLO my friends!!! itsss sooo early in the morning and i think that my title is very appropriate in describing the way in which i am living my life right now. LATELY (with the necessary exceptions) i have been staying awake till 5am in the morning, then crashing until 8am and then when i realise that i have nothing to do that day, so i go back to sleep and then what feels like minutes later i'm awake again at 1pm but i'm still drowsy. but too ashamed to sleep more, i'm on my phone for another hour which then after a few minutes of deep consideration i decide to get up as the hunger within grows DEEP. then by the time i shower and EAT its like 4pm!!! and then 5pm then 9pm then 3am and then before i know it its 5am and its HAPPENING ALL OVER AGAIN!!!

but as i think i should blog, i am here to express my empty brain. lately my brain has just been a big pile of mush, i can't even think straight.. or normal for a matter of fact and my dreams have just been getting weirder.
anyways to express thoughts that have just been rampaging through my mind.
Facebook.. its a big topic facebook especially since i banned myself from it, which has surprisingly worked, but i dunno if i should log back in or not.. basically i haven't banned myself for exams, instead i was meant to ban myself for like a whole month and like up until the 5th i was "banned" but i reckon as the holidays seep in closer and become a bigger part of my daily life, i kinda need facebook... like not for the ENDLESS STALKING i used to but for the events, facebook has been such a mega part of everyones lives, everything goes through this one TINY (well in comparison to the internet) social networking, people create live changing event through these things.... WHAT HAPPENED TO THE OLD phone calls or the massive texts to tell people that we are gonna be experiencing each others company!!? WHAT HAPPENED TO THE E-MAILS?? personallly i miss those emails... now lately i've just been receiving junk mail... YES JUNK MAIL IN MY INBOX and before i banned facebook it was NOTIFICATIONS and JUNK MAIL .... WHERES THE SPECIALNESS IN THAT?? they are all programmed, nothing special I MISS MY LETTERSS!!! the excitement i receive when i see my NAME HAND WRITTEN on a letter.... in the last year, all i have received are BILLS SHOWING ME THAT I'VE SPENT MORE THAN I'VE RECEIVED!!!!!! sighs.... also this DEPENDENCY FOR TECHNOLOGY IS INSANE?!!! i mean like theres no need for meeting people anymore.... i bet there are even ONLINE CAFES where you can have a "coffee" and a little "catch up" with your friends. but i'm serious about BOOKS THEY ARE THE WORST!!! who wants a book reader thingo? I MEAN I PREFER HAVING THE BOOK ON MY SHELF and being able to feel the pages through my fingers as i read!! i mean thats just me but technology is reaching its extremes and i'm not liking it.

but yeah a totally different topic, i like curly fries!!! lol i am literally willing to travel kilometres and an HOUR away from where i live to experience its total and utter yumminess. OK WELL THAT WAS A BIT OFF TOPIC.... what i really wanted to say was, is it normal to wanna know more about people? like i mean you can talk to someone days on end... and not really learn much about them, except the little things that you learn on your normal daily life. kinda weird but anyways. QUESTIONS yes questions are a good way to kind out about people... if you cant stalk their blog (not condoning stalking here...) but like a question... questions can be really personal, its hard to tell when a question is stepping the line, or pushing it tooo far in the "Friendship" department but i think more or less its the nature of the question, the "why" factor.. like WHY ARE YOU ASKING??? ( i always use that one) but like for me if i was to ask a question... apart from the occasional shiftiness i must play for parties... most of the reasoning to my question asking is just curiosity? but curiosity can be interpreted as something much more if your searching for it, or your just curious about it yourself. when is it appropriate to ask a question that seems so inappropriate in your mind?

hearts, li-ming

7:30am!!! DURING THE HOLIDAYSSS?

i've only had like 3 hours of sleep wait.. maybe 2 i don't actually remember, all i know is that i was RUDELY awoken at 7:30am cause some guy was here to fix my doors... and so as i moved out in my half awake state... i must have looked awkward.. BUT THIS WAS THE FIRST TIME i got out of bed without thinking bout how COLD IT WAS, it was pretty cool actually, if only i cold do that every day then i would never be late again. anyways now that the guys gone, my dads in my room "attempting" to fix a lock, i guess thats good cause you know gives him something to do.. but considering the minimal amount of sleep i had last night i don't i'll be very pleasant if he asks for my help.. I JUST WANNA DWELL IN MY MUSIC ALONE UNTIL IM AWAKEEEEE.. but until then i shall ramble on life's givings.
Well i guess the biggest of all news is that EXAMS are over and OMGSH is it a relief, although we have to start thinking bout next semester and the troubling subjects that await.. its still good. The last exam i had was french and i'm pretty happy with how it turned out.. although as predicted i hated having my exams so spread out:| I LOST INTEREST HALF WAY THROUGH and kinda slacked off thinking it was my holidays, but nonetheless i attempted everything so we'll have to wait and see. BUT every exam period i have an OBSESSIVE food-related craving, this semester i think it was over indulging in sugary coffee with its sugary goodness, providing many minutes of uncontrollable movement, but since exams are over i think i should lay off that stuff.. i don't wanna be an insane person... well no more than i already am...
so now we have arrived at what i will call my "freedom" period, although i'm highly free... i still don't know what to do and i still have other NON-UNI related stuff to take care of, slightly annoying but thats only cause i'm lazy and its kinda tedious
SO these holidays... I HAVE SO MANY THINGS I REALLY REALLY want to do, so many things, but if i count the amount of time i have... i have NO TIME TO DO IT which is a tad depressing. but TOP OF MY LIST WAS... TO DYE MY HAIR AGAIN so here are the two photos expressing my hair, my face and my eye bags:

wee i look kinda dead... to tell you the truth my face right now is like... stoned and expressionless.

TODAY hOWEVER.... I'm off to shoppo to do a bit of browsing with my limited money and to attempt to buy a few need items, such as face wash... and dry shampoo, which all costs so much i may also go myers and use up my gift voucher  cause i'm a poor little girl living off my parents...

ooo and ICE SKATING i really have the need to go now since im free i wanna practice my skating, i wanna get better... I WAAN BE ABLE TO DO CROSS OVERRs but all this costs money too, and its not helping that im splurging on items i dont need.. LIKE HEELSSSS WHY DID I BUY HEEELSSS? DUDE i DONT WEAR HEELS.... well i guess sit can joining my collection of shoes in my wardrobe. I NEED TO GO SPOTLIGHT... i have soo many craft ideas these holidays.. i guess it would be good to give my brain a break and push it further in the creative department. SPEAKING of creative department, GAMSAT round two next year, and i've decided to start studying now as i need TO ACE IT so for the "essay" bit (lol im doing more work than in vce, which is stupid cause if i tried this hard in vce i could have probs gotten into science straight and wouldn't be paying an extra $2000) im gonna write a short story or an essay-related piece atleast 2 times a month... LET THE CREATIVE JUICES FLOW!!! ok not now im just way too dead anyways WAY PAST 9 i should be in shoppo... walking there=] cause i have walked anywhere in a while, but this song is good... so 3 minutes then i'm going to go

REFLECTION IS A GOOD SONG.. people should sing it on a regular basis...

hearts, li-ming

le musée

today was the painful day of the biochemistry exam WHICH bought along with it a lot of pain but also HAPPINESS because BIOCHEM HARD CORE IS ALLL OVER!! so to celebrate, in the morning i was like lets do some french study cause french is a "relaxing" subject but instead we ended up going to the melbourne museum!!!! i was sooo excited!!! i havent been t melbourne museum before and since its free for concessions! it was a must. it was really fun i went through the rainforest and WOW saw FISHES UNDERWATER, although since they popped up from nowhere and my face was like RIGHT at the window it did give me a BIG MASSIVE FRIGHT  then we saw this BIRD that collected blue things. WE THEN WENT TO THE PSYCHOLOGY section of the museum, which was highly interesting, i dont like psychology but the stuff we saw was highly entertaining!!

well ok i went with doug to the museum and WE FOUND THIS SECTION where its like a memory game (you know the one where you flip the pictures around and like match pairs?) but with musical notes!!! and i was like OMGSH SOOO COOL so doug being a musically talented person suggested we try it and well i got like 16 flips with his help and he got like 13 SO I WAS LIKE NOOOO ILL TAKE YOU ON!!!! and then on my second turn i got 12 aND HE GOT 13!!! I BEAT A MUSICALLY TALENTED PERSON it was like the biggest achievement of the day!! lol but it was funny watching doug play the game cause he did so many SIMPLE mistakes..... lol BUT STILL I WON!!!

me:

doug: (to come)

who knew i could be so pro=]
anyways WE ALSO did this like picture thing where we had to guess the expression of the person by distinguishing their eyes only. the choices were happiness, disgust, anger, sadness and surprised!!
and there was one where i was like WHAT IS IT and doug was like its disgust and i was like NO its not!! and then he did the EXPRESSION AND MAN DID HE LOOK LIKE THE PICTURE!!! they should hire him to do the facial expressionssss. in the psychology section we also laid down on bed things and watched this dream (dream representation video thing) anyways it was pretty cool, it was sooo simple but i was soo excited i was like smiling all the way through it instead of relaxing!!! anyways after it i got up and like i knew doug hadn't slept well that night lol so when he didnt get up instantaneously i was like.. maybe he's asleep? so i did one of those slowwwww peeps into the "bed" thing, but he was awake... MAN WOULD IT BE AWKWARD IF HE FELL ASLEEP. by that time like after psychology there was like a museum announcement like saying the museum was closing soon so we did a SPEEED TOUR OF THE DINOSAURS AND the like world stuff AND THE SEA stuff!!! but WE didnt get to finish looking through the museum, which was kinda sad... maybe next time!

BUT ON OTHER NEWSSSS
I GOT MY keyboard cover!!! im excited... using it right now but i must say its gonna take some getting use to, lol im like touching silicon slippery but sticky keys instead of the normal plastic ones

hearts, li-ming

1 day till...

ok my exams in a days time and i dunno but among all these mixed thoughts of failure... "possible" failure... i know that I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!!!! except the fact that im mega drained and awoke at like 12:30pm today and sat on my cold chair in my cold room attempting to study but instead i watched some stand up comedy.. WHY DO I LIKE TO WASTE SO MUCH OF MY TIME?? sighs anyways
since like 3pm I've been learning and memorising glycolysis, which has now ended up with me just splurging information out with no real thought its just like BLAHHHH and there you see the glycolysis cycle. now i am currently attempting the kerbs cycle and then the electron transport stuff but man this stuff is soo killling my brain in but!! there are still good times in just finding moments, with a song and just belting out (quietly in my room) out of tune notes... normally i chose not to study with music but like i dunno haven't really listened to music in a while..

i really want to do an exam paper today.. but considering its already tomorrow i highly doubt it.

anyways enough about the troubles of studying, in 8 days i'll be sooo freee its gonna make me the happiest girl in the world.. i just hope i can take it like a normal human being and not a rampaging child!
the other day my friend and i walked into the royal melbourne dental "place" lol i forgot what its actually called but its right opposite the university and its where you go if you want to study dentistry in melbourne university. it all seem so real... seeing the direction signs, pointing to the dental school and all. we walked into the museum area, and there were lockers, and lecture theatres. they were small lecture theatres but they has names of the "lecturer" on them. it was so weird. once i turned around and saw two students dressed in their white "robes" walk into a room. I dunno that place kinda made me really want dentistry, so much more. but it also made it look like a dream and not a reality.
it also brings me to the sadness i have realised... so many smart people who are aiming for something in med are like "hey i'll do dentistry, less competition" and i dunno like IN ME, i want dentistry so bad... like it's not like i want it cause its something that looks plausible but its something that i'm really interested in, and (i dont wanna use the word passion) i think that if i dont get in because of smarter more intelligent students who have the opportunity to do what ever they want, and pick dentistry because its "less competitive" man it would suck....

a song:

hearts, li-ming

biochimie

Bonjour, c'est un vendredi et je n'ai pas etudier, mais j'ai besoin d'etudier. ok basically thats all i can say in french.. haven't practiced in like AGES and now my mac has changed its dictionary to french AFTER ONE SENTENCE OF FRENCH??!! but anyways to blog about the recent dwellings in mon life. OMGSH this neighbourhood is seriously scary! there was someone going round with a megaphone saying something... i dunno what but all i got was "stay in your house". this isn't very comforting as i walked home in the dark yesterday... i guess it was technically my fault. i was meant to get home at like 8 but i was still in the city until 9 so when dad called i gave some random answer to why i wasn't home cause i wasnt studying.. so that couldnt be my excuse. it was like "where are you?.. it's past 8!" me: "i'm.... out??? yeah.. its 8 im sorry DON'T worry THOUGH i'm leaving soon like after this call soon.....?" *hangs up* ok so i didnt leave straight away but i was already in trouble yeah? so when i reach box hill i saw a starburst on the seat opposite me and was like AHH! need to buy my bro sweets!! so i ran to safeway before it closed, and bought like SUGAR.. in this process i missed my bus by like 2 mins and the next one was in 30 mins cause it was already past 9... i called my dad and was like i missed my bus and he was like soo...? and i was like can you please pick me up and he was like take a bus... in my brain i was like WHAT?!!! youll leave me in box hill?! to sit with strangers for 30min??!! and like he was behaving like my bro... so i know where my bro got it from. a rash decision resulted in me deciding to walk home. (all mental thoughts) i was like well if he wants me to stay in boxhill i might as well throw myself out there to experience the true box hill at 9:30pm. also cause i reckoned i could beat the bus home... so the late night walk started.. lucky i wore my adidas shoes... there are soo many parks on the way home, looking through them i was like people get raped in parks... strange thought anyways! yeah i reached home when the bus reach box hill.. I WAS soo HAPPY=] but then dad was all like *grunting* so i just showered and ignore him.. lucky he opened the door though.

anyways had my anatomy exam!! wasnt too hard but we'll see theres a lot riding one this i want a 79=], but now i should be focusing on biochemistry, but its soo hard, looking at it puts me off soo much. anyways i have too think and use my time wisely.

hearts, li-ming

on a break

i just finished my course for anatomy!!!! WEEE ok well i don't remember anything but its all there in my little noggin ready to FIRE AT WILL... well i hope so anyways so i slept at 5am and awoke at 9 but slept in till 10:30 AND HERE I AM LIVING OFFF A HIGH....

also i have OBSERVED that i have been bloging more and more!! and i think its this NO FACEBOOK THING WHERE I MUST SCREAM MY LIFE TOO THE WORLD THEEEE WORLD!!! ok

no this blog is to express something im very proud of....

yes it is true i spent most of my "study" time drawing

BUT LOOK AT IT so intense..

MUSIC BREAK then moreee studyyyy

hearts, li-ming

some more procrastination

i know i should be studying especially since i woke up at 12 and my exam is on wednesday and i haven't technically finished the course. but MAN it's so cold....
I think my room is a refrigerator, as soon as i step outside my room WARMTH flows all over and my once tense, tight muscles relax to allow this air in. but now i've moved to the kitchen, above the air vents and now i am currently waiting for the burst of warm air to start flowing. It's gotten so bad in my room, that my fingers, already of poor blood circulation, are unable to trigger the mac trackpad and my phone, resulting in me to exhale my warmness onto my fingers for a quick brief movement of the mouse, continuing this process until i reach my destination.
i think i need a video to cheer up his dull painful time of study...



WARM AIR

hearts, li-ming

Tale as old as time, song as old as rhyme....

BEAUTY AND THE BEAST

ok there is a slight obsession going on with that song, but in all honesty i think i deserve to have an obsession with SUCH A GOOD SONG!!! loved the movie tooooooo. apparently the beast had a name but like they never used it cause he was known as the beast...
ANYWAYS just as sotvac ends, i shall conclude on the little amounts of study that i have done, and the large amounts of procrastination that has taken place this week. even french provided a failure, as looking at the first page of my textbook brought along an instant need to close my eyes and sleep, but considering the amounts of  sleep i've had over this week has dwindled, sleepiness this afternoon was expected.

ok i think a bit of background info and clearing up is required on a few, well two small things. the first i think i'll go through quickly is the countdown in my previous blog. YES lol it's a countdown for douglas, but only because i was bullying him in the library BECAUSE THE DAY BEFORE, i was intently bullied by two boys, one of which was doug over feeble matters involving a name and their need to be first, IN EVERYTHING. so instead i thought ill expose something "LOL" worthy that doug is looking forward too. Now to talk about the facebook matter, well only those who have me on facebook will know that i'm now properly fasting facebook for one month, this is not for exams, because as some may know i really dislike it when people get rid of facebook for exams but its for me, like personally me.  Like lately its just been eating away at me, making me obsessed and wasting valuable hours DOING NOTHING but stalking people.
side note: THERES A PIECE OF GLITTER STUCK IN MY MAC's SPEAKERS!!!
talking about stalking people.. reading blogs are the best way to learn more about their writer, lately.. well no just today i started reading someone else's blog and discover HOW UNACCOMPLISHED i am as a person of the age of 19 years, i have done nothing except eat chocolate and attempt at some fail studying abilities. where as other people out there can sing, compose songs and can play a musical instrument EXCEPTIONALLY WELL, or can just play it in GENERAL. me and my viola are mega fails in the playing a musical instrument department.

ALSO last thing i want to say before i return to the realms of study (or merlin). the whole relationship "thought" lol yes talking blogs.. everyone talks about relationships in their blogs, well of their existing ones. and as i see it WOW the gifts people RECEIVE ARE AMAZING... like if that was me i would have to be forever grateful for the rest of my life but then i think bout the work and effort it takes and then i'm like nah i'm fine without anyone... but its also brings in the realisation that i am surrounded by couples!!! but its ok as long as i don't dragged in with any of their couple-ly needs=] merlin ended=[ TIME TO STUDY

hearts, li-ming

LOL

  

hearts, li-ming

just to prove that im "studying"

dem bones dem bones, dem dancing bones!!

hearts, li-ming

etes-vous etudier?

it has reached a point where saying "i should be studying" is just not enough, because even though it's been repetitively said, there has been no action. maybe i should try saying it in french...

j'ai besoin d'etudier

ok no, no difference there, ANYWAYS bonsoir! yes it is that time of the year again, the period of time when stress is not a feeling but a disease, and where pimples become the new accessory, to an otherwise flawless face, IT IS EXAM TIME. and you may ask what am i doing blogging during my EXAM time? SHOULDN'T I BE STUDYING, but the truth there is I've tried studying for like 4 days now and yet i haven't gotten very far.. 7 lectures is NO WHERE NEAR ENOUGH to the supposedly 14 i'm meant to have done by the end of today. But leaving all pain and fear behind I shall soldier on to give you a blog of utter randomness and random thoughts.
lately, due to a certain friend of cool proportions, i've had a particular song of high addictiveness stuck in my little brain, and the song goes like this....

in the jungle, the mighty jungle, the lion sleeps tonight...
in the jungle, the mighty jungle, the lion sleeps tonight...



yes it is the infamous lion king song, so as you can see the addictiveness of this song, i think you can imagine the high incapabilities i have of studying. also that skype has become my new best friend.

but yes my first exam is next week wednesday and it is anatomy, the eternal fun of dead bodies and the constant linger of formaldehyde, I JUST CANT WAIT FOR ANATOMY

but on another subject, totally not related cause unrelated subjects are the best, i got my skates, i've mentioned this in an earlier post but it was on tuesday i got them back sharpened, and tested them out. AND BOY do they hurt! they fit but they are MEGA too tight, i mean they have to be tight, but the tightness experience was to the MEGA extreme, but if i loosened them my foot would move, which felt just as weird so as a "fighter" i soldiered on and put up with the pain as i practiced skating, slowly getting used to the idea of being taller and more uncoordinated! but still it feels good to have my own skates. when uni finishes WE SHALL ALL GO SKATING!!

looks pro, doesn't it?

too bad i'm not

hearts, li-ming