is something the matter?

you know somethings wrong when even your mum, who you haven't properly spent time with over 6 months, notices your not yourself....

anyways, i dunno... life can be a sham. it has its ups and downs, just like a roller coaster. except i hate rollercoasters. i like stable, normal paced ground. it's too fast, and it's so costly. wow this analogy is just like real life, more so than i was originally expecting. (i'll just leave you to figure, it out for a bit)

roller coasternounan amusement park attraction that consists of a light railroad trackwith many tight turns and steep slopes, on which people ride in smallfast open cars.• figurative a thing that contains or goes through wild andunpredictable changes : a terrific roller coaster of a book.verb ( roller-coaster) (also roller-coast) [ intrans. ]move, change, or occur in the dramatically changeable manner of aroller coaster : the twentieth century fades behind us and history roller-coasters on.
~courtesy of apple dictionary app.


When its all said and done, what are we left with? normal people are left with a sense of exhilaration, excitement, a continuous adrenaline rush. "let's do that again!!" , but what about those people that just cant handle it? It's like that game, roller coaster tycoon, some people just can't handle the thrill, they come off upset groggy and green in the face, RUINING your perfect theme park with the contents of their stomach. It's so hard to build the perfect theme park, i remember just failing over and over again, so how can it be so easy to have life behave as a roller coaster? I dunno these questions will forever remind unanswered. So what can i answer for you today? i think the bigger question what do i actually know?
no much sadly, theres are so many phrases going through my head, none of which are very helpful to this situation in which i'm currently facing. but truth be told i don't actually know what is the situation i'm currently facing.

its just times where your can be idiots in the snow that i miss....

happy idiots.... (actually if she knew i posted this she'll hate me) 

i hate how i look in this photo, but its rare to find a photo of pure happiness and joy.... joy comes when vanity doesn't barge its way through.

anyways ill end with me...

lol no wet hair for me

just accidentally deleted all my iphone notes... AHHH

song courtesy of Doug

hearts, li-ming