there a point in everyones life where a slap to the face is required...

today was a good day. LOL yes yes it was li-ming

but this is not about today in general i would just like to rant.. yes another one of my infamous rants about everything and literally nothing.
have you ever felt yourself doing something stupid? something you know you shouldnt but you are doing it and you know its stupid but you just cant help yourself? acting like a teenager with no life? and trying to hid the residues of your obsession? hmm yes a little insight a little peep through the key hole. well yes thats what im like now. its like SOO STUPID and i know it is and i feel like the biggest dumbest child yes a child in the whole entire world.. and that is just cause i cannot clear my mind like i once use to. over analysing, i think is a megaly large CHUNK of what is the cause of this constant battering of thoughts cascading through my mind, staining the once clean blank sheet of my subconscious. it cannot be cleaned, because just seconds later like paint balls flying, it just scatters and splatters, coating it in a thick layer of unwantedness. yes that is the current unravelling of li-ming's life. maybe i should go and chase some birds. i remember i had a weird dream last night.. dont remember what it was about but i remember just the usual. you know the weird entirety of it all and i remember trying to charge my phone in my sleep but i didnt cause i couldnt find the power point hole thingos in the dark.. hummmmm one mega awkward dream, but luckily my daily battle hasnt interfered with my night time of peace. anyways new stuff involves the several mid semesters that are slowly arising to come and give me a pie to the face, and all i want to say to them is, i dont like pies. but potatoes are in a whole world of their own. but yes as everyone crams i find myself looking at my mac and violating it with back to the future games, i sorry my dear but i need fun. OH and vegetarian week has reappear with more sugar than i could ever imagine in my whole entire life, i wonder what the world would be like without the sweet calories of sugar? would we be sticks? forced to distinguish our selves from having the same appearance as a twig? but yes as destructiveness settles in with idioticity, i find the deep undying urge to dye my hair, but the figurative view of killing it slowly is weighing out the odds. but well see by the end of the week what will truly happen to the wonders of my hair...
i think thats it for today i must at least attempt to study
ETUDIER cause je suis une etudiante

heart, li-ming