i havent blogged in ages, i guess i could blame my busy life, but technically i just think it is my inability to organise my time wisely. but yeah apart from that, i've just ben so drained, coming home around 10 each day and just studying last minutely. but this week im so glad THAT I HAVE ONE LESS PRAC REPORT WRITE UP!! its so worthy of a celebration...
anyways since this semester has started, i havent really said much about what i'm doing etc. so here goes...
this semester im taking 2 practical components of gay subjects (biochemistry and research), 3rd year anatomy and french. the practicals are kinda easy.. i'm actually hoping for 2 easy h1s but at this rate its like giving up sleep fro marks.... is it really worth it? i dunno but who knows? its the futures problem i just need to set it up ... LIKE A RELAY race thing.. its just my part of the race and i need to give the future me the best chance possible in obtaining the GOAL. so this semester, two of my friends are going on exchange... to canada, which i must say is highly interesting, but i guess thinking about it its so not hitting me, personally it just feels normal, maybe cause i dont really see them. ones already there, and i kinda feel bad cause its a hard transition living by yourself in a french speaking area. but im sure it will be fun and a great experience for each and every one of them.
theres nothing in life to report about, i guess the glam of everything has just been smothered by this thick cloud of university. I CAN'T WAIT TILL THE HOLIDAYS!!! yes i have already started to count ten days and organise event, and think of plausible events.
lately i think ive been more empathic than normal me, i dunno why, but i have been feeling like EMOTION for other people's situation i dunno how it started but its sooo weird, normally im so cold.. lol yeah if you have a problem, its like whatever... i cant help, normally cause i cant. but lately its like WHAT DO I DO??!!!!! and then you feel helpless. so stupid. anyways jealousy... hmm a worthy topic of conversation i think. there are moments in everyones life where they do get jealous, there are just moments in life where you just feel crummy, and even a person with something as small as a cool bag, or cool item of clothing makes you jealous. but i think what is the worse is feeling jealous over someones intelligence. i know a lot of smart people, im surrounded by them daily, most of them are aiming high, medicine high, and you know out of the 330 students accepted, they are gonna get it, leaving you far behind. but i think you can also be jealous about how accomplish people are, its only been this year where ive been surround by so many accomplished people, and here i am still living off my parents money, trying to make 50 bucks last 2 weeks, but instead im forced to eat away into my savings, the savings that im meant to keep for future life.
but theres always those little joys in life, where everything implodes on itself, like a crumbling building, that finally falls, yes there is residue but now at least you can enjoy the scenery without obstruction.. if only all days could be like that, care free and open. a fresh mind to a fresh day, no continuous pain no reminder of what's currently happening in life. well thats until you have you clean up the mess that building made, but just think about that new building you can create... a 3 story mansion?
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hearts, li-ming
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