SNOOOOOOZE
SHEEARRRING=O
dan and jz may look hardworking but they fails........
jz= french
dan=swearing
constructing=boring
hearts, li-ming
Thursday, April 29, 2010
CONSTRUCTING boredom
SHEEARRRING=O
dan and jz may look hardworking but they fails........
jz= french
dan=swearing
constructing=boring
Monday, April 26, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
CHOP CHOP
knowing danger and entering danger r two different things. but u can know and enter danger at the same time making u a stupid fool. even when inside u noe that stuff screws up other people leer u into a false sense of BEING =O. and in the end u grr them and the things they do. but u cant say anything cause ur tat fat whinny child in the corner sulking over everything and nothing. the only people u want to talk to r outsiders cause they understand. but yet u grin and bear it but people NOE =O stufffffffff. people should noe or care but ur such an attention seeker it doesnt take long for the loooook to travel. but yea one word STUPIDITY.
mood music??? a tad everywhere.
u dont miss anything except the sanity in minds and physical talking bout normal stuff without the awkward pauses. causes:s? unknown. plausibility.... questioning
entering life affairs? left behind
secretive-ity? increased anyways dwelling on past should be eliminated.
from qi:
q= wheres the best place to look into the future?
questionable answer= ...look backwards, cause history teaches us the future... as doctor Phil has said time and time again, the greatest indicator of future behaviour is past behaviour.
ok not the best example/quote cause the etc after was LOL worthy but if u think bout it its semi true apart from the fact no one actually takes it seriously....
addicted to the song "the man who cant be moved"
electronics hate me.
spent 3 hours trying to get an iphone to recognise my voice... resulted in 10 phone calls 10 wrong songs 20 unrecognised voice commands.
maybe i cant speak properly..but.... at least i can say "three"
presentising ideas:S?
week ahead painfulll
wednesday 7 hours straight...
hw + assignments:
virtual:S?
constructing-bridge
natural-site stuff and test
bio-library assignment
niceeeeeeeeeee
ice coffee on friday... cant wait til friday
feeling destructive:
been feeling destructive for soo long=the WANT to dye my hair pink but cause i care bout wat people think i havent done it yet... but i think i may have hit the ice berg and WAT PERFECT TIMING its ANZAC day a public holiday and nothing but hw to do i can redye and hopefully maybe recut my hair...
potato
mood music??? a tad everywhere.
u dont miss anything except the sanity in minds and physical talking bout normal stuff without the awkward pauses. causes:s? unknown. plausibility.... questioning
entering life affairs? left behind
secretive-ity? increased anyways dwelling on past should be eliminated.
from qi:
q= wheres the best place to look into the future?
questionable answer= ...look backwards, cause history teaches us the future... as doctor Phil has said time and time again, the greatest indicator of future behaviour is past behaviour.
ok not the best example/quote cause the etc after was LOL worthy but if u think bout it its semi true apart from the fact no one actually takes it seriously....
addicted to the song "the man who cant be moved"
electronics hate me.
spent 3 hours trying to get an iphone to recognise my voice... resulted in 10 phone calls 10 wrong songs 20 unrecognised voice commands.
maybe i cant speak properly..but.... at least i can say "three"
presentising ideas:S?
week ahead painfulll
wednesday 7 hours straight...
hw + assignments:
virtual:S?
constructing-bridge
natural-site stuff and test
bio-library assignment
niceeeeeeeeeee
feeling destructive:
been feeling destructive for soo long=the WANT to dye my hair pink but cause i care bout wat people think i havent done it yet... but i think i may have hit the ice berg and WAT PERFECT TIMING its ANZAC day a public holiday and nothing but hw to do i can redye and hopefully maybe recut my hair...
potato
LOL smiling=]
fails
well ive rawred my rawring and well if people want more rawr just wait til i get rawred and ill RAWR u tooohearts, li-ming
Saturday, April 24, 2010
BOO--YA
A friend is one who's always there to lend a helping hand.
Who guides me when i've lost my way, who simply understands
~ tatty bear
this week has been a crazy frenzy for me with ultimate number of coffees and minute amounts of sleep. but as i slowly recover i will have to revisit it again in the week to come.
the suns out and the rooms kinda semi clean. i just re-stuff stuff back into boxes and taped them up again. if i dont see it i dont need it.
im kinda really bored. but i cant complain cause i chose to stay home and clean, which i guess its kinda good.
i swear a fires gonna start soon. i keep hearing like "sparky" like sound coming from the powerpoint, but im always to scared to check and see wat it is, well i guess its more like i alway miss the "event". we have a story bout babies=]
today people r meant to come over thats y i woke up so early, so that i can clean. but they r coming at two so now im just like half dead and all bored. but yesterday was pretty good except the BOOOOOOOOOM CRASHHHH of yesterday and the coffees.
yesterday:
1 hour of sleep maybe 2
3 coffees
1 real high
bio-LOL at his sex based jokes
2 awake and happiesssssss
1 walk to malvern
1 bad tram ride
1 walk in the heavy rain
1 drainage
1 + a lot of realisations
we saw victor lol and his coffee making skills!! which honestly r really pretty good me and jz were like MORE but when school ended a lot of kids came in and he was REAL busy but we have some awsomely cool videosssssssss anyways i think i may change
ive had no coffee today.. maybe tats y im soo dead lol but i MUST remove my DEPENDANCE on coffee cause i dont wanna be tat freaky drug addicted to coffee person cause tats just reallllllllllllllly freaky. i havent eaten yet... maybe i should instead of wasting away on my comp.. or maybe i should do my hair?
30mins later
I DID MY HAIR
hearts, li-ming
Monday, April 19, 2010
things fail
uni is sooo intense!!!!!!
so many assignments 3 due this week one test and one journal
RESULT???!!!!!
i fail...
in response to JZZZZ she cant be herself other wise there wouldnt be a story..
all this story writing is reminding me of yr 12 english and its FAILLLLS
but nonetheless i will continue to write cause its better than virtual and my fails in virtual
the trees were spinning, she couldnt stand straight, nor could she concentrate. everything around her became a blur. everything she once knew was not there anymore. things were predicted to change and things had. her eyes hurt. she couldnt take it anymore. maybe it was just a phase? maybe it was a small period of time where everything was to change, change to test and annoy her. she hated it. she hated change, she felt as if everything was against her. a burden filled her heart. she felt a deep sinking feeling from within. a sharp pain caused her to jolt unexpectedly. the pain lingered, slowly bringing her to the hard ground on which she stood. she looked down at herself, her pathetic self. the hem of her dress was tattered from constant contact with sharp branches. her pale white skin was scarred with deep red gashes, where her clothes could not protect. blood oozed out of the multiple long marks that covered her body. the scarlet red against her porcelain white. her bear feet were a deep grey-brown, a bruise had formed from when she tripped over a sharp solid rock, on her endless run to nowhere. she observed the blood spreading across her skin. her hands trembled as she slowly touched the swollen marks that scarred her body. she needed to leave the past, the wants and the wishes behind. she couldnt keep running, hoping things were going to be the same, cause it wasnt and would never be. she knew what she had to do. there was no point holding on to the past, the past was moving forward in a different direction to her future. she had to let it go.
---------last "story"----------
i should really do virtual but like RAWR stuffy gaynessssssssss
HATE
i wish uni could be fun. what happened? to the imagery of a delightful uni? one where everything is suited to us and we r suited it?
ARENT WE MEANT TO BE DOING THINGS WE LIKE??
ive figured that no matter if i was doing science or environments i would still hate uni and its GRRRRRRR-nesss
ok hw time-----hopefully
so many assignments 3 due this week one test and one journal
RESULT???!!!!!
i fail...
in response to JZZZZ she cant be herself other wise there wouldnt be a story..
all this story writing is reminding me of yr 12 english and its FAILLLLS
but nonetheless i will continue to write cause its better than virtual and my fails in virtual
the trees were spinning, she couldnt stand straight, nor could she concentrate. everything around her became a blur. everything she once knew was not there anymore. things were predicted to change and things had. her eyes hurt. she couldnt take it anymore. maybe it was just a phase? maybe it was a small period of time where everything was to change, change to test and annoy her. she hated it. she hated change, she felt as if everything was against her. a burden filled her heart. she felt a deep sinking feeling from within. a sharp pain caused her to jolt unexpectedly. the pain lingered, slowly bringing her to the hard ground on which she stood. she looked down at herself, her pathetic self. the hem of her dress was tattered from constant contact with sharp branches. her pale white skin was scarred with deep red gashes, where her clothes could not protect. blood oozed out of the multiple long marks that covered her body. the scarlet red against her porcelain white. her bear feet were a deep grey-brown, a bruise had formed from when she tripped over a sharp solid rock, on her endless run to nowhere. she observed the blood spreading across her skin. her hands trembled as she slowly touched the swollen marks that scarred her body. she needed to leave the past, the wants and the wishes behind. she couldnt keep running, hoping things were going to be the same, cause it wasnt and would never be. she knew what she had to do. there was no point holding on to the past, the past was moving forward in a different direction to her future. she had to let it go.
---------last "story"----------
i should really do virtual but like RAWR stuffy gaynessssssssss
HATE
i wish uni could be fun. what happened? to the imagery of a delightful uni? one where everything is suited to us and we r suited it?
ARENT WE MEANT TO BE DOING THINGS WE LIKE??
ive figured that no matter if i was doing science or environments i would still hate uni and its GRRRRRRR-nesss
ok hw time-----hopefully
hearts, li-ming
Friday, April 16, 2010
biology lecture 17 16/04/10
RAWR....
G= zzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ....
ZZZZZZZzzzzzzz
zzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZ
ZZZZZzzz
zzzZZZZZZ
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hearts, li-ming
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
i should be hcing...
we were the weirdos at the back
i had an orthodontist appointment today but i arrived an hour early which was stupid cause i had to wait 30min so that they can attempt to do my teeth, but i was engross in my music and magazine so didnt seem too bad.
im really tired but i should study cause i have a lot of work due/assessments and stuff but laziness has caused defeat again.
Her heart sank. she knew she was being an idiot, but she just couldnt help herself. maybe that was just a part of her uncovered personality. a part of her that had not been discovered for so long, but was now longing to express itself. she hated the feeling, she hated the way it was causing change, she just hated the way it made her act. the world around her just kept spinning, everyday would pass and things would only get worse. she knew what she had to do, she knew, but her body wouldnt do it. her body resisted her mind, rejecting it as its ruler. her heart just sank deeper with every thought. the heaviness in her heart only got worse as she dwelled in her thoughts. she should have just accepted it for wat it was, she should have just let it be and be merry just like everyone else. but she just had to be stupid. she had to be that stupid girl that brought more to the situation then there actually was. now she was forced to carry a burden of guilt and humiliation. she was emotional and physical worn out. her face was a clear indicator of sleep deprivation. her eyes were empty and surrounded by dark hollows. her face was pale and pasty and her almost black hair, which was once neat, now laid as a frizzy mess on her head. stray hairs stuck out in odd places. all she wanted to do was say sorry, but her body refused to compromise. internally her mind screamed over and over again, "sorry!", it yelled, but no one apart herself heard it. her face was still but yet tears rolled down her cheeks. the empty eyes became glassy and the still face became lost. she just wanted to be herself, once more.
BIO TIME then virtual.. must do well=]
although i fell asleep for like 30 mins just then...
NEED LAB COAT
SUGAR SHOTS
reminder: mocha no sugar
lol
realisation: havent photowhored with contacts....
you could just imagine that my eyes are purple???
hearts, li-ming
Monday, April 12, 2010
i can be such an attention seeker...
for jz:
the sun was setting, it was another end to another day. the days seemed to come and go so quickly. the deep blue engulfed the reds and oranges expelled from the sun, but the battle was lost. the deep blue surrounded all and the little flickers of stars lit up the sky. the dominating moon shone in all this glory. the air was cool and icy. the light breeze pierced my skin, causing chills to run up my spin. i jolted at the sensation. the hard concrete floor, on which i sat, did not support my sudden movements. my fingers were a pale white with a blueish tinge, the feeling in my fingertips almost completely gone. the numbness did not bother me, for i was lost in a world that was surreal. slowly i looked up, till i was faced with the stars, a blanket of stars that shone. their glow provided a sense of hope and knowing, that there was still something with a natural glitter, a natural sense of happiness. a warm sensation filled me, for an instant second it felt like there was a fire burning deep within, that no wind, no person could ever remove, apart from myself. I closed my eyes just in time to hear the distant chime of the clock. it was twelve midnight, and i was alone. the freedom felt so real, but it couldnt last forever. i sighed, exhaling the warm from my body, leaving it cold and empty once again. slowly i arose to face the clock. far off into the distance was a bright shining face, almost as beautiful as the moon, i paused. my empty mind just accepted the image and nothing more. the dead silence of the night consumed me pulling me deeper with it allowing me to follow it on a path to nowhere.
i should be studying but i dunno i feel like a little kid search for some attention and its stupid *smacks self* RAWR
OK STUDY TIME
the sun was setting, it was another end to another day. the days seemed to come and go so quickly. the deep blue engulfed the reds and oranges expelled from the sun, but the battle was lost. the deep blue surrounded all and the little flickers of stars lit up the sky. the dominating moon shone in all this glory. the air was cool and icy. the light breeze pierced my skin, causing chills to run up my spin. i jolted at the sensation. the hard concrete floor, on which i sat, did not support my sudden movements. my fingers were a pale white with a blueish tinge, the feeling in my fingertips almost completely gone. the numbness did not bother me, for i was lost in a world that was surreal. slowly i looked up, till i was faced with the stars, a blanket of stars that shone. their glow provided a sense of hope and knowing, that there was still something with a natural glitter, a natural sense of happiness. a warm sensation filled me, for an instant second it felt like there was a fire burning deep within, that no wind, no person could ever remove, apart from myself. I closed my eyes just in time to hear the distant chime of the clock. it was twelve midnight, and i was alone. the freedom felt so real, but it couldnt last forever. i sighed, exhaling the warm from my body, leaving it cold and empty once again. slowly i arose to face the clock. far off into the distance was a bright shining face, almost as beautiful as the moon, i paused. my empty mind just accepted the image and nothing more. the dead silence of the night consumed me pulling me deeper with it allowing me to follow it on a path to nowhere.
i should be studying but i dunno i feel like a little kid search for some attention and its stupid *smacks self* RAWR
OK STUDY TIME
hearts, li-ming
Saturday, April 10, 2010
today
ermmm
where to start... theres a mixture of emotions and its resulting in dehydration.
anyways... NEWS
CONGRATULATIONS G AND AMANDA... finally worked after 6 months and a lot of stuff lol
ok today was a craze
just a story(ill write a pro one...one day=]):
it was the middle of march the sun was high up in the sky and the wind was blowing. although it was autumn it felt like a colder spring. goosebumps formed on her arms, prickling every time the wind blew. her long brown hair rustled like the leaves in the trees that surrounded her. with her eyes closed she breathed in the fresh air that flowed around her. she had no purpose to be here, she had no reason to feel like this, but she needed a break, she needed to get away from everything she knew back home. her heart beat had slowed to a steady, constant pulse. thoughts left her mind, every time she inhaled the enticingly fresh air. she smiled. her smile was not one of happiness but one of mockery and was of false pretences. she cared and she understood, but she just couldn't accept. finally her mind became blank. as the last image left her hollowing mind she collapsed onto the soft green grass that laid beneath her bare feet. the sun penetrated through her eye lids. she frowned but quickly retreated. slowly, she opened her eyes to reveal the deep brown that were hidden. as she opened her eyes she gave a sigh, a sigh of the unknown and the not knowing. she knew she couldn't get rid of her thoughts but this came close. her heart picked up its pace. she was over thinking. her mind went into a frenzy again. she slapped her self, and the thoughts stop, the heart beat slowed and the eyelids closed. slowly those images that formed in her head dissolved. the last image took longer, lingering in her head until she fell in to a deep slumber.
anyways...
i needed camp it refreshed some stuff and got me to prioritise things straightly and i noe wat i have to do now.
i feel gd
and i would just like to thank Yen, Emilie, Lincoln, G, Rebecca, Janney, Dan, Calvin, Joole, Michael and Matt for my presents ill do my nails one day when my head isnt killing me..
camps gone and now im forced to stuff hc-ingly 2morrow i promise
need to do:
BIO
VIRTUAL DIARY
CONSTRUCTING DIARY
CONSTRUCTING ASSIGNMENT
FIND LABCOAT
cover up the hole in the backyard
apply for transfer
clean/ unpack (if i have time)
and thank my mammy.
DE-JUDGING people
where to start... theres a mixture of emotions and its resulting in dehydration.
anyways... NEWS
CONGRATULATIONS G AND AMANDA... finally worked after 6 months and a lot of stuff lol
ok today was a craze
just a story(ill write a pro one...one day=]):
it was the middle of march the sun was high up in the sky and the wind was blowing. although it was autumn it felt like a colder spring. goosebumps formed on her arms, prickling every time the wind blew. her long brown hair rustled like the leaves in the trees that surrounded her. with her eyes closed she breathed in the fresh air that flowed around her. she had no purpose to be here, she had no reason to feel like this, but she needed a break, she needed to get away from everything she knew back home. her heart beat had slowed to a steady, constant pulse. thoughts left her mind, every time she inhaled the enticingly fresh air. she smiled. her smile was not one of happiness but one of mockery and was of false pretences. she cared and she understood, but she just couldn't accept. finally her mind became blank. as the last image left her hollowing mind she collapsed onto the soft green grass that laid beneath her bare feet. the sun penetrated through her eye lids. she frowned but quickly retreated. slowly, she opened her eyes to reveal the deep brown that were hidden. as she opened her eyes she gave a sigh, a sigh of the unknown and the not knowing. she knew she couldn't get rid of her thoughts but this came close. her heart picked up its pace. she was over thinking. her mind went into a frenzy again. she slapped her self, and the thoughts stop, the heart beat slowed and the eyelids closed. slowly those images that formed in her head dissolved. the last image took longer, lingering in her head until she fell in to a deep slumber.
anyways...
i needed camp it refreshed some stuff and got me to prioritise things straightly and i noe wat i have to do now.
i feel gd
and i would just like to thank Yen, Emilie, Lincoln, G, Rebecca, Janney, Dan, Calvin, Joole, Michael and Matt for my presents ill do my nails one day when my head isnt killing me..
camps gone and now im forced to stuff hc-ingly 2morrow i promise
need to do:
BIO
VIRTUAL DIARY
CONSTRUCTING DIARY
CONSTRUCTING ASSIGNMENT
FIND LABCOAT
cover up the hole in the backyard
apply for transfer
clean/ unpack (if i have time)
and thank my mammy.
DE-JUDGING people
hearts, li-ming
ello
blogs are a tad retarded...
unless they r filled with randomness
people think too much. life shouldnt be bout thinking but doing.
people are also being a tad gay aswell as msn is joining in and so is my net
RAWR and STUFF omgsh
party in and hour....still havent showered..... how lovely
NEED TO FIND CABLESSSSSSS
be back soon-ish
unless they r filled with randomness
people think too much. life shouldnt be bout thinking but doing.
people are also being a tad gay aswell as msn is joining in and so is my net
RAWR and STUFF omgsh
party in and hour....still havent showered..... how lovely
NEED TO FIND CABLESSSSSSS
be back soon-ish
hearts, li-ming
Monday, April 5, 2010
amused
its 3am im tired but lazy my rooms...... a tad clearer but not cleaner.
i have one failed drawing and a mind tats empty but filled with stuff
but its light therefore SMILES
craze
POtATOES
packing=havent started
2omorrow? easter monday need to do assignment CAMERA time
miss writing stories of random-nesss
i think ur special=]
i have one failed drawing and a mind tats empty but filled with stuff
but its light therefore SMILES
craze
POtATOES
packing=havent started
2omorrow? easter monday need to do assignment CAMERA time
miss writing stories of random-nesss
i think ur special=]
hearts, li-ming
Sunday, April 4, 2010
it's been a while hasnt it...
Life is like a beautiful melody, only the lyrics are messed up
~Author Unknown
uni is gay tough and hard. my holiday is not a holiday. my holiday is more like 2 days of RAWR 4 days of camp and three days of stuff. the other day was a lost day.
i need to do something. but i just cant cause i dunno wat i need/want to do
time moves way to fast.
just wait... 2 months.... i promise.
Sometimes there are days where u cannot verbal-ise what your feeling on the inside. especially if your mind is a massive painting on a once blank canvas. where do you start? not blogging has caused a collecting of the important and non-important stuff to mush together and make a ball of nothingness. but yea...
i will write as of now:
I feel better. yesterday well i dunno i feel like i was the most annoying attention seeker ever, and i would just like to say sorry to everyone who was round me yesterday. but i would like to thank JZ for her house. and sorry G.
i feel ever so slightly pathetic right now. and no amount of verbal talking will take it away cause everything i say reduces me to an empty shell of a hypocrite. and thinking and talking just reduces me further.
i need a job. money is like, no one can live in this world without money.
mum threw out 50 dollars worth of hair dye... 50 dollars of my money. and the only reason y it matters so much to me right now is cause i dont have money to re buy it all.
uni is gay tough and hard. my holiday is not a holiday. my holiday is more like 2 days of RAWR 4 days of camp and three days of stuff. the other day was a lost day.
i need to do something. but i just cant cause i dunno wat i need/want to do
time moves way to fast.
just wait... 2 months.... i promise.
hearts, li-ming
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