just cause i like to photowhore.....

lately ive been waking up later... my reasoning to it is unknown. but like always ive been photowhoring when the light is good. but today i had to leave the beautiful sun in search of my mums friends house all the way..... in some place you wont know called grave's end. weird name yeah? but i must say the place was really prettiful all the houses were like quaint and old fashion and soo cool they were like pretty.... lol like u noe the ivory climbing up the walls with the windows, u noe those white ones with the like metal like criss crossing and like the coloured window patterns. anyways it was really pretty and like a typical town with the "local" pub and stuff it was really cool but took ages to get to. i had a lot of time to day dream. i dont like day dreaming... cause the stuff will never happen. i wanna do blue tips.. real blue tips. anyways when driving home we drove pass like the country side. it was about 4 and the sun was setting the colour was real pretty and now the sky is clear so all the stars are bright and visible. lately ive been asking myself what did i use to do when i was younger. like wat did i use to do for entertainment. what did i do when nothing was on tv? mums reply was i slept. i sue to sleep at like 8-9pm. i cant believe i used to sleep that early. but today my question was what did i use to do on long road trips. memories flooded my mind. memories of the several trips we went on as a family. i remember the car, my car (the red one) wen it was "newer" and i was small i used to lie down next to my mum on the back seat as my bro took the front and my dad drove. i remember eating macoys crisps and yea thats all i could remember. but now im too big for all that stuff. i cant even talk to my mum without the feeling of awkwardness, cause i noe wats going in her head.. the typical "boy" question. back then everything was so much easier, all i needed for entertainment is my mum and a packet of crisps. kids are so spoilt these days. 
the question of this england 09-10 trip:
Which do you like better? Here or Australia?    or    Are you staying?
apparently i have a real good friend, same age as me but a bit younger. She remembers me but i have absolutely no clue who she is except the faint memories carved by old pictures of her in a red dress and me in my pink one. yes i was a child of exquisite taste and pink is an awesomely perfected colour.
Honestly.. yes this is gonna be a tad of dnm on my blog. i really miss hanging out with harps. she has her exams to study for. but yea basically before coming here i was scared that 7 years was too much. 7 years causes differences, change and a uncloseable gap. although the paths we have chosen are different and the way we chose to live our lives are different. there are moments where things just slot together and everything is just how it was left 7 years ago. we act the sme and the connection is as if i never left and we never grew up. those are the days that ive missed since leaving this country. the could haves and should haves cannot be dwelled upon cause it just causes a larger problem.

Back up plans:
-failed offers:
redo year "12" (A  levels) in england. choice of subjects... bio maths and physics.... get As and Bs... get into uni in england... an extra year of schooling.
-failed uni:
tafe hospitality and first aid. air hostess

wouldnt it be lovely if we could all go to oxford.....

hearts, li-ming