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its been a while

2011-11-29T01:46:00.001+11:00

well ok i have no good excuse for not blogging cause i finished my exams a little less than a week ago and so i should have been mega free but all that week i spent day after day, night after night working hard on decorations for fungus (my youth group) big event, "the golden mushroom". This involved a lot of painting and drawing...

anyways i just thought i would sum up the last weeks in a series of photos and items and thoughts.
well lately, well occurred during my exam period, I've been running a lot like just with vicky and my brother, i guess it was good, even though i couldn't run properly, but as soon as exams ended i've just been binge eating, so swear I've gained a lot of weight but its the holidays now so i should be able to exercise more. anyways today!! i woke up early to drive my brother to work (trying to increase my hours) and i ran home. i specifically told my dad ill be back within the hour, cause i didn't wanna carry my keys. so when i got home i grabbed a bottle of water and sculled it, stretched and then rang the door bell, no answer. i called the home phone, no answer, i called my dad's phone, no answer i banged the door, no answer. i repeated these steps three times, then called my brother, he told me to go to the bedroom window and knock it. i went to the bedroom window, IT WAS HIGHER UP THAN ME.. so i broke a stick and threw it, no answer, called my brother again and he had to DRIVE ALL THE WAY home again to let me into the house, such a waste of effort=[ anyways while waiting for him i just sat outside on the roadside like an awkward lost child.

talking about runs, during the exam period, vicky and i decided to treat ourselves to some macrons and OMGSH they are the best ever, the shop is so nice and quaint too, its french, its called La Belle Miette, translated to mean "the beautiful crumb"

YUM YUM they were absolutely delicious, way better than i could ever make them. i hope, one day to become friends with the owner and have a french conversations with him.

after my exams i was to help with decorations for my youth groups big finale night, and so i made twin mushrooms... they were about 1.3 metres high. one took 90 minutes to draw and 2 full days of painting, i didn't get home until 2am. they are my pride and joy, and i would like to show and share them with you =].

also yesterday i was looking through photos of me from like after year 12 when my hair was at its most normal-est (except from my blond/blue streak) and i was like i miss it, the length, the way it fell nicely the natural colour.. so i decided to get off my lazy butt and dye it dark brown.. but it came out black and its still as dry as it was when i started... so not much of a success but at least its all one colour, and on its way to being normal. but i bet before it gets a chance to be normal there will be some random colour among it.
anyways i have my first driving lesson tomorrow morning and i have to awake really early so that i make be awake and alert. also I have a very busy schedule tomorrow.. YAY NO MORE BOREDOM
until then,

hearts, li-ming

the calm before the storm

2011-11-10T01:00:00.000+11:00

well exams are starting on friday and i must say in these two weeks i have been the least productive person ever known to man and now I'm just sitting here in the semi dark, attempting to finish my anatomy notes so that i can have a little cry tomorrow when i go back to revise them. to add to this lost being i am i haven't even tried to study for physiology or biochemistry so therefore I'm more screwed than i expected. and i have the urge to attend a nike sale on friday, after my anatomy practical exam. what do i do to myself. i have no one else to blame but me if i fail this semester.

but on other news... lol theres nothing else, just the usual annoyance and anger and hate and bitterness which i must be rid of. but then there are also the moments where your like DUDE WHY????!!!

now a picture on my attempts to scare a friend...

i was attempting to squeeze under the desk... but failure took place

hearts, li-ming

How a fairy is born.....

2011-10-31T21:30:00.000+11:00

talents....
fairies are born with talents, something that makes them special, something that makes them stand out from the crow. Tinkerbell was a fairy with a talent so strong, a talent that defined her.... why can't we all find our talents so easily? why must we keep continuously searching for something that makes us special?
anyways tonight is interesting...

hearts, li-ming

feeling like a crumb

2011-10-30T02:07:00.002+11:00

crumb |krəm|noun1 a small fragment of bread, cake, or cracker.• a very small amount of something: the budget provided few crumbs of comfort.• the soft inner part of a loaf of bread.• a dessert topping made of brown sugar, butter, flour, and spices and crumbled over a pie or cake: [ as modifier ] : apple crumb pie.• (usu. crumb rubber )granulated rubber, made fromrecycled tires.
a crumb, to me, is a small insignificant piece of nothing. never in your life have you ever dropped a crumb and picked it back up, and saved it. A crumb is always eaten by scavenger animals, birds and mice. Crumbs are minute pieces that add up to a messy collection of rubbish, scooped together and thrown away.
sometimes its not life that gets too much but the people around you, its like sometimes you look at someone's life and then you realised how unaccomplished you are. you try to reason to yourself why they are so accomplish, but it never works, you are the same as them just with nothing. you're the crumb while they are the cake. people oo and ahhh at their taste and appeal, while they just wipe you away. sometimes i wonder how awesome would it been if i could do things... if had a talent that could get me far, if i had the abilities to be more than just a student. to have more in life than just being a student, something that only i can possess, something that would amaze others. something to call my own, something i will not get judged at. sometimes its just the tick of approval, just a simple acknowledgement. Something where someone can stand there and be like i wish i could do that, or something that would obtain an "I'm proud".
but that will never be me, i have nothing to be proud of, or for anyone else to be proud of, i do what i need to and thats all. i don't juggle between areas of my life, cause it's just categorised as one big life, a university student. i do what i have to, to get through. theres nothing else to it...

talking bout crumbs there's this good french macron place called la belle miette, meaning, the beautiful crumb...
if only i was a beautiful crumb, kept and savoured

hearts, li-ming

meant to be written 2 days ago

2011-10-22T02:47:00.000+11:00

this week has been a crazy one.. really intense with my last biochemistry practical report due, the final draft of my physiology, french test and anatomy test all in one tiny week that just finished within a few seconds. Now it's a saturday morning and I've decided that my life was worthy of a blog, filled with random ranting proportions. Although it all happened in the past, it's still worthy of ranting.

so we shall start with a picture that defines my study session on wednesday, preparing for the anatomy test, while still remembering my french oral.

yes it has been hot here but it only lasted two days, I'm not complaining that it's gone or that it was short, I'm just stating a fact that the weather is stupid. anyways as this intense crazy week progressed, i was placed under a lot of stress and craziness, which rendered me with a failing grade and caused me to end up in colouring eeyore when in the anatomy museum. but over all after two days of mundane happiness i am feeling a whole lot better.
but i think i observe too much, i think way too much for my brain to even comprehend. it even renders me with dreams of scary proportions. the other day i dreamt of two of my friends whispering and talking bout me behind my back, sometimes these things make me insanely crazy. rage is often the way i deal with issues like these, it was on tuesday where my friends indicated that i was deeply wounded, not just by the presence of friends but the fear of "intimacy" from some past encounter. i dunno i can't really think right now, a mushy brain isn't always the best way to blog, so ill attempt to blog again tomorrow .
ice skating tomorrow 8am wake up

hearts, li-ming

i have a new iphone case=]

2011-10-04T03:15:00.000+11:00

last night and today was a real big eye opener for me, ive just noticed that despite the small quiet exterior of my science group of friends, deep within are big secrets and massive scandals. everyone has their part to play, whether you're the Blair Waldorf or the Jenny Humphrey, you may even be Dan, innocent yet devious. but don't forget there's always at least one gossip girl in the group. You never know until you dig deep, the stuff that is known is actually spreading, even your secrets are spreading. but you dont known until you reveal a little for you to truly discover something totally unexpected. Today was a real insider to what is beneath the perfect exterior. and im ashamed to say i am a part of this circling information and gossip. but it just makes you wonder who else knows about your secrets when you start to know about other peoples. theres no such thing as the cone of silence or the circle of truth its just small words whispered to one person which in turn gets stored in a centre base where all who find it will discover the secrets within. no matter about the rumours and gossip that goes round i don't care how i'm perceived as long as im happy. i just dont wanna be seen as that pathetic little wimp.
has anyone else noticed that halifies are pretty good looking? today i mentioned it, i dunno if i would want to be with a halfie or marry someone western so that my kids would be hot... such a hard decision, especially when you were bullied as a child for not looking a certain way.

Lately ive just started watching a new tv series which im probably gonna follow now called "new girl" i must say its really good i just love the whole aspect of it. and since watching it i have been constantly wishing i had guy friends like her. guy friends that really truly cared. but it was today that i realised, i really do have "guy" friends like her, ones that care about me so much and my well being they ask each other to watch out for me. i sometimes feel so special and so loved. Jaka is pretty cool although half way round the world he's still my bro watching everything i do, trying his hardest to make sure im me and im happy. Andy is lol there kinda like a netting.. lol sounds weird but kinda catches you when you fall? providing comfort and entertainment. he's like always there even when he's bummed to make me happy. i guess i dont appreciate him enough but hes really caring. VICKY although not a guy is one of my closest bros and she is just amazing. she gets me like no one else she understands my stupidity and she understands everything I do we talk not girly conversations but we are always on the same level. and shes doesnt just sit there and listen to me and my rage but she rages back and it just feels good to know that im not the only one out there feeling the way i do. shes not bias but shes fair and we can laugh endlessly. Ive discovered that these are my caring "guy" friends, equal to the ones from the tv series "new girl"

also i dunno lately ive been feeling a tad honest resulting in real mean abilites. i try my hardest to suppress them but its been to long. Resulting from this was an idea fit for a king, a music jam session, im actually really excited although i might be the only one playing, it would be so cool and fun just to sit there and jam and listen to those try and learn my viola. i cant wait for friday.
anyways i should be sleeping early lol so as it is 3:14am i shall say my farewells with a song

hearts, li-ming

one good night=]

2011-09-25T01:52:00.000+10:00

tonight was my friends 21st... she was soo tiny even in her heels.. it was so cute. anyways i was quite lazy in the morning still bummed but slowly the day passed without me actually doing anything. just repeats of one song and me singing like crazy lol... the joys of being home alone.
anyways i got ready about 5pm put on my killer shoes (killer as in feet death) and black tank, black jeans and my blazer with my "face" on.. and dont forget my little golden bow... yes im still obsessed with my bows, i felt tall and dressed but not formal=] kinda in my comfort zone. and then as i walked i realised why i dont wear heels.... ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO WALK!!!! why do girls DO IT???!!! why the pain of it all?
but the place was really nice.. it was a chilled cafe with lots of delicious canapés and good people. i felt sooo much like myself. i was loud and crazy enough though my feet hurt it was good=]. there were people i had never met before but yet i was able to maintain a healthy conversation. people i hadnt seen in ages to which i was like OMGSH YOU!!!!! and just the usual which were like=]. i dunno sometimes i fit in sometimes i dont. theres always a sense that im an outsider but today it didnt really bother me. who cares about their inside jokes? but yes it was a good night, but it did get me thinking about my 21st.. lol yes i know its in like 3 years. but im thinking bout speeches and what amazing friends she had.... friends that actually cared for her and wrote her songs and like were so nervous they spent the whole beginning of the party just freaking out. it just left me thinking who do i want to speak at my 21. a couple names came to mind. i really want harps to speak at my 21st no one would know her but it would mean so much to me. i was considering having my 21st in england but then figured i have no friends there....
but yes i had a coffee like at 11pm so im still highly awake considering i have church tomorrow i wont be able to sleep... lets just hope ill wake up on time.
so when i got home... before i showered.. a little high from the caffeine fix i took a photo...

i call it the after shot

NO FRINGEEEE!!!.. lol yeah i still have my "face" on

TIME FOR SOME TV!!!!

hearts, li-ming

Make me your radio, turn me up when you feel low

2011-09-24T10:56:00.000+10:00

Yesterday was a semi good day... I spent most the time just going spastic but I guess it was a form of anger release. Also I was given tons of "useful" advice and realised I'm really stupid or my brain isn't screwed on properly. There are things that just annoy. I'm talking about away from the situation, your all good but once it's placed in your face, or you go looking you go rage crazy, but there's no reason to. It's just the idea, the presence that makes you crazy. And yet again I will return to the thought of pettiness, you don't want to be so petty but it just cannot be helped. It's just this instant feeling you get as soon as you see the situation. I hate the fact that you search for it for some "reassurance" but all you get is disappointment. It's so hard to just not bother anymore. You can never depend on people, no one's trustworthy no matter how much you've trusted them before. Cause things change and soon you'll go rage crazy. Everything that you considered fun once before is no longer the same. There are plans... I guess but these plans must be shifted just to squeeze into the changing times.
No one reads my blog anymore, so basically I could expel everything I want here, but that just results in you actually facing your problems head on. I normally write stories to release everything but today... This time... I just can't be bothered I just have no energy to keep the creative need in me up.
Anyways more about the joys of yesterday... We met steeplejacks:) yes they aren't famous but their music was really good and their bass guitarist was pretty cool, it was a good night, sometimes being a leader has it's perks. Anyways it's about time I do something productive...

hearts, li-ming

"....From London, United Kingdom"

2011-09-23T01:27:00.000+10:00

hearts, li-ming

when things render you speechless

2011-09-22T23:39:00.003+10:00

mmmm
today i dunno what to say.. i just have a mountain of anger, well its not anger it just me wanting to throw something... which was close to being my phone.. lucky i kept it in my bag most of the day.
today i went to ballarat....
sovereign hill... yeah it wasnt the trip i imagined it to be honestly... but you know i made the most of it
anyways i really wanted to blog properly but im feeling a bit touchy and lazy
maybe next time

its the end of an era...

maybe isolation is the key, nothing is worth thought, effort or even tears

hearts, li-ming

tunnel vision

2011-09-10T18:32:00.000+10:00

we've always been told to look outside the box, explore and think, not only on the obvious but on whats lurking within the shadows. its been ingrained in our minds from an early age, and since then we do it without thought. nothing is as simple as it seems anymore, especially for those who's brains just wont stop circulating in continuous thoughts. Sometimes we need to stop thinking and just do. Do not step back and observe. But step in and get lost with it all. things are simpler than they seem.
The bigger picture, has extra minute details, details that are not required, details that causes a person to over think. Its hard to block them out, hard to focus on what we need to know, but instead, as we've been taught there is more than meets the eye, and we must analyse this. Tunnelling our vision, if only this was easy, life would be so much better.. there would no complications to life.

I need to stop thinking, I need to stop observing, I need to stop stalking....

Today instead of doing my practical report, i'm watching top gear, in my sausage smelling clothes and track pants. I'm dreading the last bit of work i need to do before my anatomy study... one more week of uni, I'm actually over the moon, OVEREXCITED to say the least. But things are just travelling through my mind every second, and blocking them out has been getting harder and harder every moment. I need to change some stuff, but without changing me. So this has resulted in me drawing. something i haven't done in ages.... but instead of releasing the thoughts within its just causing more to build. I wanna do something more creative... maybe more destructive... i dunno i don't really wanna cut my hair anymore, there is no need and hair dying? i still wanna dye it back to a purple black, but i was thinking if i ever want to return to my original colour. before this whole purple black obsession, i remember walking into the shops with my friend about to by my hair colour (in a bottle), but to be peer pressured and influenced into my current colour, which i must say i really do like. but its hard to maintain. My roots, are showing through.. and my hair is a lot lighter that i remember... has it come to this, where i don't even remember the original colour of my hair? I really want that blonde streak to disappear. Lately i've been talking bout going all blonde, apart from killing my hair, i don't think i'm brave enough to do it... nor am i destructive enough. also it will go orange and not blonde due to my current red purple dye. i have no destructive ness in me anymore. i just feel defeated. maybe i should just resort to tunnel vision...

what's wrong?
for some unknown reason i feel like i'm annoying, and people are "hating" me. I can smile and say hi to someone, just to realise that they are more interested in someone else... there thats all i must do my soap for the day...

hearts, li-ming

is something the matter?

2011-09-08T16:50:00.003+10:00

you know somethings wrong when even your mum, who you haven't properly spent time with over 6 months, notices your not yourself....

anyways, i dunno... life can be a sham. it has its ups and downs, just like a roller coaster. except i hate rollercoasters. i like stable, normal paced ground. it's too fast, and it's so costly. wow this analogy is just like real life, more so than i was originally expecting. (i'll just leave you to figure, it out for a bit)

roller coasternounan amusement park attraction that consists of a light railroad trackwith many tight turns and steep slopes, on which people ride in smallfast open cars.• figurative a thing that contains or goes through wild andunpredictable changes : a terrific roller coaster of a book.verb ( roller-coaster) (also roller-coast) [ intrans. ]move, change, or occur in the dramatically changeable manner of aroller coaster : the twentieth century fades behind us and history roller-coasters on.
~courtesy of apple dictionary app.

When its all said and done, what are we left with? normal people are left with a sense of exhilaration, excitement, a continuous adrenaline rush. "let's do that again!!" , but what about those people that just cant handle it? It's like that game, roller coaster tycoon, some people just can't handle the thrill, they come off upset groggy and green in the face, RUINING your perfect theme park with the contents of their stomach. It's so hard to build the perfect theme park, i remember just failing over and over again, so how can it be so easy to have life behave as a roller coaster? I dunno these questions will forever remind unanswered. So what can i answer for you today? i think the bigger question what do i actually know?
no much sadly, theres are so many phrases going through my head, none of which are very helpful to this situation in which i'm currently facing. but truth be told i don't actually know what is the situation i'm currently facing.

its just times where your can be idiots in the snow that i miss....

happy idiots.... (actually if she knew i posted this she'll hate me)

i hate how i look in this photo, but its rare to find a photo of pure happiness and joy.... joy comes when vanity doesn't barge its way through.

anyways ill end with me...

lol no wet hair for me

just accidentally deleted all my iphone notes... AHHH

song courtesy of Doug

hearts, li-ming

realisation

2011-09-03T22:15:00.000+10:00

i should stop my spastic need to study... and enjoy what i do... i cant not do the best i can when im insanely thinking bout everything i need to do. take things easier, i think=] stop thinking bout the past and keep heading forwards. stop being so cocky=], i don't know everything. Be who i am because that is who i'm meant to be.

the sun came out today, it was soo yummy, but instead of basking in its glory, i spent the whole morning indoors at ice house... it was fun, very tiring... KILLING my ankles, but i taught someone how to skate, and i learnt that i can actually do cross overs... WHILE MOVING, feeling ever so more accomplished. instead of going home and "relaxing" i went to vic market and bought some lamb hearts, when i received my change i didn't really want it cause the lady, although very nice, touched the heart with her bare hands... and then gave me the change with her HANDS... i gave the change to my brother=]. then we went for some of the infamous churros, OMGSH THEY SMELT SOOOO GOOOD but cause of the sugar bannnnnn i couldnt eat any... it was sooo sad cause i had to hold them, to allow my brother and his friend to eat it=[. one day.....

anyways i found this girl on xfactor... and her voice is sooooo different in a REALLL good way, i like it.. you should listen... shes soo cute

hearts, li-ming

3/08/11

2011-09-03T20:52:00.000+10:00

ok well i havent done it for thursday friday or saturday....

but as a whole, i consumed:
- peanut butter
- yogurt
- strawberries
- hotdog
- pasta
- dumplings
- almond nuts
- boost.. berry berry light....

and for my exerciseeeeee i did 30mins=] today!!!

now im tired and tooo lazy to study

hearts, li-ming

31/08/11

2011-09-01T02:08:00.000+10:00

amanda left today=[

food consumption:

- yogurt

- one water bottle

- two cups of tea

- one chicken sandwich

- one fillet o'fish

- rice, egg, lamb and salad

- crackers

- cherries and strawberries

EXERCISE....... none.... zero... nothing

hearts, li-ming

30/08/11

2011-08-31T08:52:00.000+10:00

My consumption for yesterday, the date of 30/08/11 consumed of

- two teas
- one extra yummy yogurt
- a large tub (yes a tub) of cous cous
- fish and chips
- WATER!!!!!!

Exercise..... Non existent

hearts, li-ming

sometimes i just put my foot in it.....

2011-08-30T01:57:00.002+10:00

i feel soo crummy lol...
i really need to think before i speak, and learn to stop while im ahead..... kinda like driving?
feeling stupid...
"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you." (Matthew 7:1, 2 NIV)

Bring on the awkward silence....!!!

hearts, li-ming

29/08/11

2011-08-29T20:44:00.001+10:00

today I HAVE CONSUMED:
- 2 teas (no sugar)
- an apple
- ham and cheese croissant
- water bottle
- a handful of red rock deli chips
- chicken, potato and broccoli
- yogurt and crackers

EXERCISE IS ZILCH!!!!!!

hearts, li-ming

a promise set in stone

2011-08-29T20:34:00.001+10:00

ok as DOUGLAS doesn't believe me.......
WE ARE HAVING A BLOGGGED AGREEMENT....

I Li-Ming PROMISE DOUGLAS, that THIS week (starting from 29th AUGUST up and until the 4th SEPTEMBER 2011) WILL NOT CONSUME ANY OF THE sugary goodness listed in the blog below....
but i may consume endless amounts of boost until i am satisfied OK REPLACINGGG THISSSSS:
I AM ONLY ALLOWED COPIOUS AMOUNTS OF LOW FAT low sugar boost....
consumable boost products are boxed in red=[

i may not consume juice, cordial if given ice cream (namely ben and jerrys) I SHALL REJECT
i will not be lead in to temptation by people possessing sugary goodness
NO ENERGY DRINKS
any sugar consumption should be informed directly to douglas
any possession of sugar can be given to douglas for him to swell!!
doug is not allowed to buy me any forms of "illegal" sugary goodness

im allowed MOCHAAAAAAA!!! no sugar=] YESSS... WIN

according to doug i must walk for at least an hour this week

this is the agreement....

hearts, li-ming

1:44 am on a monday

2011-08-29T02:20:00.000+10:00

bonsoir!!

i think blogging has started to become a bit more of a chore than any kind of fun, but i shall solider on without my glasses and in the dark to rant about stuff that not many people will care about.

well today i must say was a highly productive day, i did one hour of driving, bringing my hours to 91, and as calculated by me, if i keep driving at 2 hours a week ill be getting my Ps by December (adding an extra 10 hours just encase..) im actually really excited, like there is no real need for me to get my Ps, cause there isnt a car to drive but the idea that ive come sooo far after just a long drag of driving, makes me feel oh sooo slightly accomplished...

as well on this productive day, i consumed highly fat building amounts of chocolate. but i just couldn't help myself it was just so addictive, especially when your mums like EAT THEM lets get rid of the chocolate contents of this house, so inside your like OK but DEEEP WITHIN your like fatty STOP!!! but this week im going on a sugar BANNNNNNNN just for i think my body to regather itself and re establish a blood sugar base line. I think i should state the guidelines of this ban before i contradict myself....

ALLOWED:

BOOST

CREPES without yummmmmmmmmmmmminesssss offfffff nuteellllaaaa =[

NOT ALLOWED:

CHOCOLATE

LOLLIES

SUGARRRRRRRR

NUTELLA

ICE CREAM

SWEET YUMMY PIES

CAKES

MACARONSSSS

anything that makes me high.... i think thats a good standard...

dont worry ill be able to do it.. SHEER WILL POWER OF A MANNN HERE I COME!!!!!!!

i like songs today though i "found" ( i always had it) this song about DENTAL CARE soooo RANDOM i am so playing it at my clinic when i become a dentist. ALSO i realised that I NEED to start gaining some muscles to DEFEAT teeth and AIM FOR HARD CORE EXTRACTIONSSSSS

i think i'd be a crazy dentist... especially cause i can talk heaps, and my biggest annoyance is how mych my orthodontist talks to me when im in the chair.... I'LL be just like him but minus the dancing.

also today i CLEANED MY ROOM like a mega thorough CLEANING. like i mopped my floor and CHANGED my bed covers.... i DUSTED EVERYTHING

hovered twice and put all the bits and bobs away!!!! soooo abnormally clean.

but it wont last long.

i also FINISHED A PRACTICAL report like THE WHOLE THING!!! i was sooo amazed with myself i smiled (well considering i just finished im SMILING) and unlike VCE i even managed to play music... im such a rubbish musician but i wanna buy like music books and maybe teach myself a few songs.... problem is i need a piano to help be regaining my tuning abilities... my fingers are so gay they just cannot stay in tune.

mmmm i think that was all i did on my mega productive day, but i was feeling a bit artsy before so here are 2 pictures.. then a rant

STARSSS

belonging cannot be bought or given, its a feeling that people surrounding you influences you in. sometimes you can feel like you belong but other times you can feel like a bystander, trying to get a word in but it just seems like no ones interested in what you have to say anymore. can make you feel a bit lonely. then you re evaluate yourself and your thought to why and how did this "exclusion" begin, maybe its something you said or did or maybe its just an unlikable personalty? or you feel intimidated by the crowd that surrounds, so you spend your time just outside, wondering if its worth the trip back, just to experience this intimidation again. maybe its not you but the people? is there a line where knowing stuff beyond this point effects how you see someone? mmmm maybe thats whats happened... you've started to be yourself and show your "true colours" but arent they beautiful like a rainbow???

I DONT KNOW=]

but i do know its bed time

hearts, li-ming

just another tedious day

2011-08-22T23:30:00.000+10:00

at least today i had a good 3 hour rest in bed just watching aimless amounts of tv, killing my bandwidth and being merry.
i havent blogged in ages, i guess i could blame my busy life, but technically i just think it is my inability to organise my time wisely. but yeah apart from that, i've just ben so drained, coming home around 10 each day and just studying last minutely. but this week im so glad THAT I HAVE ONE LESS PRAC REPORT WRITE UP!! its so worthy of a celebration...
anyways since this semester has started, i havent really said much about what i'm doing etc. so here goes...
this semester im taking 2 practical components of gay subjects (biochemistry and research), 3rd year anatomy and french. the practicals are kinda easy.. i'm actually hoping for 2 easy h1s but at this rate its like giving up sleep fro marks.... is it really worth it? i dunno but who knows? its the futures problem i just need to set it up ... LIKE A RELAY race thing.. its just my part of the race and i need to give the future me the best chance possible in obtaining the GOAL. so this semester, two of my friends are going on exchange... to canada, which i must say is highly interesting, but i guess thinking about it its so not hitting me, personally it just feels normal, maybe cause i dont really see them. ones already there, and i kinda feel bad cause its a hard transition living by yourself in a french speaking area. but im sure it will be fun and a great experience for each and every one of them.

theres nothing in life to report about, i guess the glam of everything has just been smothered by this thick cloud of university. I CAN'T WAIT TILL THE HOLIDAYS!!! yes i have already started to count ten days and organise event, and think of plausible events.

lately i think ive been more empathic than normal me, i dunno why, but i have been feeling like EMOTION for other people's situation i dunno how it started but its sooo weird, normally im so cold.. lol yeah if you have a problem, its like whatever... i cant help, normally cause i cant. but lately its like WHAT DO I DO??!!!!! and then you feel helpless. so stupid. anyways jealousy... hmm a worthy topic of conversation i think. there are moments in everyones life where they do get jealous, there are just moments in life where you just feel crummy, and even a person with something as small as a cool bag, or cool item of clothing makes you jealous. but i think what is the worse is feeling jealous over someones intelligence. i know a lot of smart people, im surrounded by them daily, most of them are aiming high, medicine high, and you know out of the 330 students accepted, they are gonna get it, leaving you far behind. but i think you can also be jealous about how accomplish people are, its only been this year where ive been surround by so many accomplished people, and here i am still living off my parents money, trying to make 50 bucks last 2 weeks, but instead im forced to eat away into my savings, the savings that im meant to keep for future life.

but theres always those little joys in life, where everything implodes on itself, like a crumbling building, that finally falls, yes there is residue but now at least you can enjoy the scenery without obstruction.. if only all days could be like that, care free and open. a fresh mind to a fresh day, no continuous pain no reminder of what's currently happening in life. well thats until you have you clean up the mess that building made, but just think about that new building you can create... a 3 story mansion?
=]

hearts, li-ming

we dream so long...

2011-08-04T01:21:00.002+10:00

the clouds hung low and thick in the sky, the feeling of entrapment was growing deeper and deeper within, causing a tingling sensation to run frequently along my spine. the comfort came from the glistening sun, who's radiance and power seeped through the clouds, providing a little glow among the sky. it was not night, nor was it day. it was just a time frame that I was stuck in. everyday was a cloudy dilemma, providing a sense of insecurity and a band of confusion. it started off slow and as the chill increased so did its speed. at first it felt like rain, felt as if the clouds had just let go of the heavy weight it had burdened for so long and just released it in to the atmosphere. but slowly as it fell, the scene became clearer. as it fell it started to pave the streets. as it fell a strange emotion, a feeling of curiosity washed over removing the insecurity from within. white specks scattered everywhere, dusting the roads, the housing, everything and anything that was exposed to its touch. the street was quiet. the window was my barrier from the winter wonderland that was to unfold before my eyes. a thin blanket soon covered the world as i knew it, the once harsh exterior now became one fluffy blanket, which continued to increase in size as the seconds passed. raising my hand, i slowly pressed it against the window, my view into the outside world, chills ran through my ghostly white fingertips, shivers ran through my spine as the icy window touched my almost transparent skin. although almost bloodless, heat radiated from my hand, slowly fogging up the glass, blurring the vision into the world outside. eyes closed, i exhale, my body was feeling weak once again, my arm was a toothpick and my hand was a bowling ball, but i was determined. one more breath. my hand was slipping as my arm started to buckle under the weight, but i was determined. hand like a claw, i tried to grab the glass. body still, one more breath. knees buckle, body falling. a handprint still remains.

i think im way out of my league when it comes to uni, but if i try my hardest, everything should work out in the end...

if only dreams came true today=]

is there ever a moment when knowing a person too much can be toxic?... can you ever be too comfortable around a person that rules fly out the window, and what was once awkward seems normal?

but anyways today, after a long tiresome day, i was thinking to myself, and mum kinda influenced this, but its been a while since i was crazy weight conscious, and winter and leggings, said by mum makes me fat cause they expand so ill never know when i gain weight.. but i personally was like im kinda like ok... but to stand the true test of time i decided to put all my dresses on, because i bought most of them ages ago and if they still fit me.. then i must be ok.. LOL MY LOGIC.. but anyways!!! i forgot how many unusedd dressses i own!!! i felt so girly!!! it was mega strange... but yes they still all fit me!!!! but now my bed is a mess that requires immediate attention...

anyways that was a bit of pointless information....(might need to find somewhere where i can wear a dress?)

but yeah

CADAVERSSSS scare me

hearts, li-ming

I slept all day

2011-07-30T19:13:00.004+10:00

well basically this morning i awoke.. kinda a early for a good fun time at iceskating... but instead i was forced to eat breakfast.. BUT EITHER WAY i drove=] 72 HOURS!!!! wee sooo close im like waiting for the moment when i hit the triple digits.. anyways OFF TOPIC i went iceskating, which was actually really good i think I've improved heaps.. apart from the fact i cant do my tricks but like i can at least kinda make my mistakes look kinda pro, even though i throw a fit when i miss... but we met the pro guy again today and he was giving me advice, cause my figure skates are like MASSIVE WEIGHTS that kill my feet so i can't do tricks for long cause my legs get tooo tired. so he was like you just need to build up your calf muscles HOW BIG DO YOU WANT THEM?? they are already out of proportion.. stupidity.
anyways my driving was pretty ok got lost cause my bro was on my phone instead of directing me and my parking, as per usual was TERRIBLE but we "watched" funny youtube clips while driving.. don't worry guys I'm a safe driver....

after ice skating we came home for lunch then i was like SLEEPY so i laid in bed with my babies and fell asleep probably for like 3 hours on and off. BUT MAN IM SO LAZY i have so much work i need to do like TONS of uni and outside uni work (stupid diploma). but instead i decided to show you MR PENGUIN!!!!!

im having a bow obsession...

oh how feminine.

Mr penguin is my best friend... HE'S SO FLUFFFFFFY!!!!!!! and soft and ediblee

THOUGHT OF THE DAY!!!!!!
actually this was said yesterday and i thought it should be kept as something i said that was mega COOL and oh so poetic...
(i think ill just copy and paste it)

"LIKE

A JIGSAW PUZZLE

you maybe a BLUE BIT OF SKY

but yet the puzzle isnt complete without you"

NOW THE THOUGHT!!!! things seem different when not everyones there.... everyone plays a part in a group of friends, then why is it easy to forget some, dislike others and find new ones?

also i need to shower.. LOL THE THOUGHTS OF MY BRAIN
I WANT TO HAVE A SNOW FIGHT
A SONG

hearts, li-ming

so much stuff

2011-07-21T00:54:00.004+10:00

ok its been a long long while since i last blogged and since then a lot of stuff has happened, mainly result in me being DRAINED by the end of the day

ok well as laziness sets in im gonna upload a whole bunch of photos with mini descriptions...

firstly i think we should talk about the bet which resulted in a short haired amanda

well its been like 2 or 3 months since the bet ended and it was about time i collected the "prize" so we went to biba academy and amanda got a mature but asymmetric haircut, i must say though... it looks really different. personally i prefer the long hair, but she suggested the bet even though i was so confident i was going to win. but on this day i think i officially killed amanda with chocolate (lindt) which i thought would be impossible... BUT IT WAS A GOOD DAY

NOW to HARRY POTTER the final chapter... the end to a another childhood, IMAX it was really exciting, ive never been to imax before so the whole experience was crazy and like the screen, but i must say the 3D ness of it all was slightly ruined by my need to watch movies with my head on a tilt. but it was a good movie.. there were a bit of disappointment in characters and the death of characters, but all in all it was good until the end... NO COMMENT. but after the movie we went to the museum, and well jaka and i wanted to play hide and seek, but we totally lost the group, so rendered our game as mega fail. BUT PROFITEROLES!!!!! yeah i had a competition with doug on our profiterole skills.. his were soo PRETTY like girly pretty, i was actually really jealous, but either way they all tasted yummy.

AMAZING RACE!! my youth group organised an amazing race, and naturally i had an awesome team! it was actually really intense and really hard, we didnt win but it was still fun. Although it drained me, im proud of my team. we should have so won, but a few faults that needed ironing out would have perfected us in anyway possible. But the eureka tower sky box, just topped it for me.. THANK YOU AWESOME TEAM!!! (brian doug and VICKY)

lastly i thought i would attempt to sew something cool.... aLTHOUGH A MEGA FAIL!!! I was still pretty happy with it. it was gold and blue and i was surprised that i could even make stars, but besides the point, mum still questioned my sewing abilities.. i wish i sewed more, and maybe even perfect a skill... anyways I COMPLETED IT IN TWO DAYS=] WEEEE

(ps doug is in the back of this photo because i was trying to take a photo of the stars, but yeah i took a photo to annoy him also he drove me to buy the material.. thank you doug=])

ok now uni, is starting very soon but we still have like 4 days SO HOPEFULLY I BECOME LESS LAZY, take more photos and BLOG LIKE CRAZY, until then....

hearts, li-ming

hi

2011-07-10T12:43:00.000+10:00

well the post below was written at 6:30am and types at 4am so please forgive the spelling mistakes and the randomnesss

mmm today i feel kinda weird and empty... something terrible happened this morning at 3 and i dunno if everything is ok or not.. i see the scars of it but internal, im not so sure.. it did though hurt me deep inside.. (im talking bout my first baby)

cleaning my room...

hearts, li-ming

"This is love!!..."

2011-07-09T04:18:00.000+10:00

This is gonna be long....

Well these pass few days i've been at camp, and well it's been AWESOME.
I was in charge of this camp, but I think without my helpers it could not be possible. My dorm is really good and really chilled, I've always been placed with more senior members but this year I was with Linda and my junior cell members. I've gotten to know them a lot more and I think it's good to discover all parts of someones personality, not only does this increase the bond but it also decreases your ability to judge.

Okay i think to start I must talk abut why I'm "blogging" from camp (yes I wrote this on a piece of paper at camp) but I think camp reveals stuff that you couldn't do alone, I mean you know about it but you don;t know what to do with it. The main reason I'm blogging is about for elephants (metaphorically speaking, about sin) and that an elephant cannot be kept for too long before it becomes too costly. There are secrets in my life, like not everyone is perfect, but I know like I've done a fair share in my days, most of them of course small but still full of guilt and the only way to let them go is to tell someone. Although I've mentioned that I mainly have just small sins, I do also have one large one, like this has been the regret of my life up to date. It was so huge, and to most people of my age group, it seems so harmless, but it, personally, ruined my life (harshly put but I've touched on this before). I was so angry with myself, sometimes I still am, but it took me at least 2 years to actually sort myself out so that when I look back on my life I can actually look at it without cringing. I've actually never told anyone the full story and maybe I never will. There will only ever be two sides to this story, Well that was my thought before this camp, but after the discussion about showing your elephants to someone, it is, I guess, a sigh of relief. It may seem stupid for mr to share it with someone considering I'm kinda already over it and it's impact on my life, but the way it impacted my life was so great.
I always feel judged by the people around me, that is why I always have a certain facade od how i want people to see me. I always act smarter than I actually am because I want people to view me as smart and not this stupid girl. I think, from personal experience, girls are more judging than guys, answering why I hang around guys more than girls, Ever since that time in my life, I instantly felt a bit more vulnerable and naturally (as the laws of physics states) to counter act this I harden myself ti the world, I find it harder to truthfully open up. And some of you may feel special cause you think I've opened up to you, but basically, it was just small pieces of a much larger picture, and it was probably dressed up to make me seem like the hero and not the victim, or that I was the one in charged. Before the elephant, I was so much more open, I was willing yo hug people, even guys, just to day hi, I was one of the people that influenced other people to hug. But now I feel as if it's not right, like as if it's unnecessary touching, I guess it's just the hardness that comes along with the vulnerability. Then comes the use of the word "love" I cannot use it on people the phrase "I love you" cannot be exist seriously. In my vocab this phase is only used in return for something or when abnormally high. If I was to sit here and say it, really meaning it, to anyone, even my parents or friends, or just anyone, I cannot do it, even if I do care about them a lot. I think it's just another resultant of the 'elephant'. One day I will find someone to tell, one day when I'm ready to be judged.
I always place myself as this innocent girl, but I'm probably 100% less innocent than I make myself out to be, but yet again this is to regain somethIng I lost, a facade to replace something that happened, to which I felt that I lost a lot of my innocence too. But yeah it was this one event that changed me, making me the girl I am today. And if you ever do find out bout my elephant, I think you should feel special, but it will only be told to those I really do trust, but don't go searching for it, please?

Next business, I guess is being reminded of someone. Sometimes there are things in life that just naturally reminds you of someone. Depending on the item or object determines if this memory is good or bad. But i guess in general being reminded of someone is just not right, or maybe thats just my harden self talking (most of the time I like my life just being me and me, and I think my facebook fast helped clean up these reminders) I think the worse kind of reminder of someone us when you are reminded of them through anything musical. Music is a mega part of peoples lives, and everywhere you hear notes, sounds and music. These notes and musical abilities constantly around us would cause this person to live in the fore part of our brains, continously.
But iI don't know if it's normal or if it's just me.. I still haven't decided yet, whether it is normal or not....

hearts, li-ming

i want a puffer fish

2011-06-30T00:25:00.000+10:00

The sun rose high in the sky, its glare, although bright, could not prevail against the strong gush of the wind. The dominating wind stormed through, weaving in and out of people. the strong breeze fought effortlessly against the hairs on heads, lifting them, shaking them and letting them go before another breeze stormed through, increasing the chaos that already existed. leaves were tossed and turned, branches, on trees, swayed rhythmically, back and forth, the deep rustle created an air of mystery and anguish. all faces, pointed down, shielding eyes from the intense power of moving air. the bustle and noise of the city could not compete against the wail and howl of the wind. At the water's edge, ripples formed at the sound of every howl. but every 10 minutes, silence. these were the seconds of pure and utter serenity. the calmness of the air allowed the sun to express its full potential, the immense heat penetrating the skin, goosebumps form as it brings an air of uncertainty. the peace is short lived. the heat, although intense, is almost immediately consumed by the never ending wind. and yet the cycle relives. Minds are emptied, left confused and lost to the world unknown.

ok there was my lame story for these 2 weeks.... also as it was long overdue and i was not in the mood for it forgive its endless route to nowhere.
anyways before i collapse from complete drainage. i thought i would express today's findings. TODAY WE WENT TO THE AQUARIUM!!!! wee it was actually really good and i saw sooo many fishess!! it made me happy, but we didnt stay there all day, which was a shame but we went to watch x-men instead, which was pretty good, i think it worked better than Pirates of the Caribbean 4.
ANYWAYS yes the aquarium, i saw so many squishes, dory-s and nemo is the cutest thing ever he is like the size of a 20cent piece i wanted to steal him. WE also saw puffer fish... i think they were one of my favourites along with the penguins, because they were so CUTE i didnt get a picture=[ but they were like furry and CONSTANTLY smiling, and HAD MASSIVE EYES, so cute. but there were a lot of eels, which like snakes i kinda highly dislike, and a lot of kids, which also resulted in awkward encounters where pedophile-ism looked highly plausible. But altogether it was a good experience, although we missed like all the presentations cause we didnt look at the brochure.

i also did a bit of running... need to do more of that ......
but now im stuck feeling a little cold and tired doing some work that i havent done and have been dreading i think a mega tip is to not leave it till the last minute? but when does that ever not occur?
OHH and i'm getting a lot of random calls and messages.... but i only wish i was that popular...
NEXT MEGA TRIP?!! imax=] SOOOO EXCITED

hearts, li-ming

time for some mega happiness

2011-06-26T22:31:00.000+10:00

well today was a weird day.. mostly because of the fact i woke up mega late and my mum was disappointed and rage-y and so my dad went out and so did my bro, so therefore i did to.... but i went to buy ingredients for a little project im attempting... anyways when i came back mum wasnt home and the house was kinda quiet again, so i just went about my usual late day process of breakfast-lunch, the shower and the half dead.. I SHOULD SLEEP?? routine. but eventually i came to an agreement to watch movies, which i guess was ok. but my boredom was meant to lead to a clean house to make my mammy happy when she got back from work.. but instead i found myself actually doing my hair and taking photos... LOL yes i agree it wasn't the best alternative, but i haven't photowhored in like over a few months so i think i deserved this day of photo taking.

well i think i shall describe my choice of photo.. ok no i won't be so awkwardly descriptive about myself but basically the reason i chose this one, although highly unnatural, was the EXTREME HAPPINESS it shows, i havent taken a happppy photo in quite a WHILE.
i need a haircut, my "fringe" requires a bobby pin to hold it in place.. which has increased my time and effort in the late morning and early afternoon.

So today i promised myself that i would write a story, you know to get the "ball" rolling but honestly im soooo lazy!! and i want to go back on facebook. WHY ARE THE HOLIDAYS SOOO EMPTY AND WHY AM I SO LAZY.... i need to discover the answer to these questions.......!
maybe i'll write a story tomorrow?

hearts, li-ming

SLEEP ALL DAY AND PARTY ALL NIGHT

2011-06-25T03:30:00.000+10:00

HELLO my friends!!! itsss sooo early in the morning and i think that my title is very appropriate in describing the way in which i am living my life right now. LATELY (with the necessary exceptions) i have been staying awake till 5am in the morning, then crashing until 8am and then when i realise that i have nothing to do that day, so i go back to sleep and then what feels like minutes later i'm awake again at 1pm but i'm still drowsy. but too ashamed to sleep more, i'm on my phone for another hour which then after a few minutes of deep consideration i decide to get up as the hunger within grows DEEP. then by the time i shower and EAT its like 4pm!!! and then 5pm then 9pm then 3am and then before i know it its 5am and its HAPPENING ALL OVER AGAIN!!!

but as i think i should blog, i am here to express my empty brain. lately my brain has just been a big pile of mush, i can't even think straight.. or normal for a matter of fact and my dreams have just been getting weirder.
anyways to express thoughts that have just been rampaging through my mind.
Facebook.. its a big topic facebook especially since i banned myself from it, which has surprisingly worked, but i dunno if i should log back in or not.. basically i haven't banned myself for exams, instead i was meant to ban myself for like a whole month and like up until the 5th i was "banned" but i reckon as the holidays seep in closer and become a bigger part of my daily life, i kinda need facebook... like not for the ENDLESS STALKING i used to but for the events, facebook has been such a mega part of everyones lives, everything goes through this one TINY (well in comparison to the internet) social networking, people create live changing event through these things.... WHAT HAPPENED TO THE OLD phone calls or the massive texts to tell people that we are gonna be experiencing each others company!!? WHAT HAPPENED TO THE E-MAILS?? personallly i miss those emails... now lately i've just been receiving junk mail... YES JUNK MAIL IN MY INBOX and before i banned facebook it was NOTIFICATIONS and JUNK MAIL .... WHERES THE SPECIALNESS IN THAT?? they are all programmed, nothing special I MISS MY LETTERSS!!! the excitement i receive when i see my NAME HAND WRITTEN on a letter.... in the last year, all i have received are BILLS SHOWING ME THAT I'VE SPENT MORE THAN I'VE RECEIVED!!!!!! sighs.... also this DEPENDENCY FOR TECHNOLOGY IS INSANE?!!! i mean like theres no need for meeting people anymore.... i bet there are even ONLINE CAFES where you can have a "coffee" and a little "catch up" with your friends. but i'm serious about BOOKS THEY ARE THE WORST!!! who wants a book reader thingo? I MEAN I PREFER HAVING THE BOOK ON MY SHELF and being able to feel the pages through my fingers as i read!! i mean thats just me but technology is reaching its extremes and i'm not liking it.

but yeah a totally different topic, i like curly fries!!! lol i am literally willing to travel kilometres and an HOUR away from where i live to experience its total and utter yumminess. OK WELL THAT WAS A BIT OFF TOPIC.... what i really wanted to say was, is it normal to wanna know more about people? like i mean you can talk to someone days on end... and not really learn much about them, except the little things that you learn on your normal daily life. kinda weird but anyways. QUESTIONS yes questions are a good way to kind out about people... if you cant stalk their blog (not condoning stalking here...) but like a question... questions can be really personal, its hard to tell when a question is stepping the line, or pushing it tooo far in the "Friendship" department but i think more or less its the nature of the question, the "why" factor.. like WHY ARE YOU ASKING??? ( i always use that one) but like for me if i was to ask a question... apart from the occasional shiftiness i must play for parties... most of the reasoning to my question asking is just curiosity? but curiosity can be interpreted as something much more if your searching for it, or your just curious about it yourself. when is it appropriate to ask a question that seems so inappropriate in your mind?

hearts, li-ming

7:30am!!! DURING THE HOLIDAYSSS?

2011-06-23T09:19:00.002+10:00

i've only had like 3 hours of sleep wait.. maybe 2 i don't actually remember, all i know is that i was RUDELY awoken at 7:30am cause some guy was here to fix my doors... and so as i moved out in my half awake state... i must have looked awkward.. BUT THIS WAS THE FIRST TIME i got out of bed without thinking bout how COLD IT WAS, it was pretty cool actually, if only i cold do that every day then i would never be late again. anyways now that the guys gone, my dads in my room "attempting" to fix a lock, i guess thats good cause you know gives him something to do.. but considering the minimal amount of sleep i had last night i don't i'll be very pleasant if he asks for my help.. I JUST WANNA DWELL IN MY MUSIC ALONE UNTIL IM AWAKEEEEE.. but until then i shall ramble on life's givings.
Well i guess the biggest of all news is that EXAMS are over and OMGSH is it a relief, although we have to start thinking bout next semester and the troubling subjects that await.. its still good. The last exam i had was french and i'm pretty happy with how it turned out.. although as predicted i hated having my exams so spread out:| I LOST INTEREST HALF WAY THROUGH and kinda slacked off thinking it was my holidays, but nonetheless i attempted everything so we'll have to wait and see. BUT every exam period i have an OBSESSIVE food-related craving, this semester i think it was over indulging in sugary coffee with its sugary goodness, providing many minutes of uncontrollable movement, but since exams are over i think i should lay off that stuff.. i don't wanna be an insane person... well no more than i already am...
so now we have arrived at what i will call my "freedom" period, although i'm highly free... i still don't know what to do and i still have other NON-UNI related stuff to take care of, slightly annoying but thats only cause i'm lazy and its kinda tedious
SO these holidays... I HAVE SO MANY THINGS I REALLY REALLY want to do, so many things, but if i count the amount of time i have... i have NO TIME TO DO IT which is a tad depressing. but TOP OF MY LIST WAS... TO DYE MY HAIR AGAIN so here are the two photos expressing my hair, my face and my eye bags:

wee i look kinda dead... to tell you the truth my face right now is like... stoned and expressionless.

TODAY hOWEVER.... I'm off to shoppo to do a bit of browsing with my limited money and to attempt to buy a few need items, such as face wash... and dry shampoo, which all costs so much i may also go myers and use up my gift voucher cause i'm a poor little girl living off my parents...

ooo and ICE SKATING i really have the need to go now since im free i wanna practice my skating, i wanna get better... I WAAN BE ABLE TO DO CROSS OVERRs but all this costs money too, and its not helping that im splurging on items i dont need.. LIKE HEELSSSS WHY DID I BUY HEEELSSS? DUDE i DONT WEAR HEELS.... well i guess sit can joining my collection of shoes in my wardrobe. I NEED TO GO SPOTLIGHT... i have soo many craft ideas these holidays.. i guess it would be good to give my brain a break and push it further in the creative department. SPEAKING of creative department, GAMSAT round two next year, and i've decided to start studying now as i need TO ACE IT so for the "essay" bit (lol im doing more work than in vce, which is stupid cause if i tried this hard in vce i could have probs gotten into science straight and wouldn't be paying an extra $2000) im gonna write a short story or an essay-related piece atleast 2 times a month... LET THE CREATIVE JUICES FLOW!!! ok not now im just way too dead anyways WAY PAST 9 i should be in shoppo... walking there=] cause i have walked anywhere in a while, but this song is good... so 3 minutes then i'm going to go

REFLECTION IS A GOOD SONG.. people should sing it on a regular basis...

hearts, li-ming

le musée

2011-06-16T01:23:00.005+10:00

today was the painful day of the biochemistry exam WHICH bought along with it a lot of pain but also HAPPINESS because BIOCHEM HARD CORE IS ALLL OVER!! so to celebrate, in the morning i was like lets do some french study cause french is a "relaxing" subject but instead we ended up going to the melbourne museum!!!! i was sooo excited!!! i havent been t melbourne museum before and since its free for concessions! it was a must. it was really fun i went through the rainforest and WOW saw FISHES UNDERWATER, although since they popped up from nowhere and my face was like RIGHT at the window it did give me a BIG MASSIVE FRIGHT then we saw this BIRD that collected blue things. WE THEN WENT TO THE PSYCHOLOGY section of the museum, which was highly interesting, i dont like psychology but the stuff we saw was highly entertaining!!

well ok i went with doug to the museum and WE FOUND THIS SECTION where its like a memory game (you know the one where you flip the pictures around and like match pairs?) but with musical notes!!! and i was like OMGSH SOOO COOL so doug being a musically talented person suggested we try it and well i got like 16 flips with his help and he got like 13 SO I WAS LIKE NOOOO ILL TAKE YOU ON!!!! and then on my second turn i got 12 aND HE GOT 13!!! I BEAT A MUSICALLY TALENTED PERSON it was like the biggest achievement of the day!! lol but it was funny watching doug play the game cause he did so many SIMPLE mistakes..... lol BUT STILL I WON!!!

me:

doug: (to come)

who knew i could be so pro=]
anyways WE ALSO did this like picture thing where we had to guess the expression of the person by distinguishing their eyes only. the choices were happiness, disgust, anger, sadness and surprised!!
and there was one where i was like WHAT IS IT and doug was like its disgust and i was like NO its not!! and then he did the EXPRESSION AND MAN DID HE LOOK LIKE THE PICTURE!!! they should hire him to do the facial expressionssss. in the psychology section we also laid down on bed things and watched this dream (dream representation video thing) anyways it was pretty cool, it was sooo simple but i was soo excited i was like smiling all the way through it instead of relaxing!!! anyways after it i got up and like i knew doug hadn't slept well that night lol so when he didnt get up instantaneously i was like.. maybe he's asleep? so i did one of those slowwwww peeps into the "bed" thing, but he was awake... MAN WOULD IT BE AWKWARD IF HE FELL ASLEEP. by that time like after psychology there was like a museum announcement like saying the museum was closing soon so we did a SPEEED TOUR OF THE DINOSAURS AND the like world stuff AND THE SEA stuff!!! but WE didnt get to finish looking through the museum, which was kinda sad... maybe next time!

BUT ON OTHER NEWSSSS
I GOT MY keyboard cover!!! im excited... using it right now but i must say its gonna take some getting use to, lol im like touching silicon slippery but sticky keys instead of the normal plastic ones

hearts, li-ming

1 day till...

2011-06-14T00:40:00.001+10:00

ok my exams in a days time and i dunno but among all these mixed thoughts of failure... "possible" failure... i know that I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!!!! except the fact that im mega drained and awoke at like 12:30pm today and sat on my cold chair in my cold room attempting to study but instead i watched some stand up comedy.. WHY DO I LIKE TO WASTE SO MUCH OF MY TIME?? sighs anyways
since like 3pm I've been learning and memorising glycolysis, which has now ended up with me just splurging information out with no real thought its just like BLAHHHH and there you see the glycolysis cycle. now i am currently attempting the kerbs cycle and then the electron transport stuff but man this stuff is soo killling my brain in but!! there are still good times in just finding moments, with a song and just belting out (quietly in my room) out of tune notes... normally i chose not to study with music but like i dunno haven't really listened to music in a while..

i really want to do an exam paper today.. but considering its already tomorrow i highly doubt it.

anyways enough about the troubles of studying, in 8 days i'll be sooo freee its gonna make me the happiest girl in the world.. i just hope i can take it like a normal human being and not a rampaging child!
the other day my friend and i walked into the royal melbourne dental "place" lol i forgot what its actually called but its right opposite the university and its where you go if you want to study dentistry in melbourne university. it all seem so real... seeing the direction signs, pointing to the dental school and all. we walked into the museum area, and there were lockers, and lecture theatres. they were small lecture theatres but they has names of the "lecturer" on them. it was so weird. once i turned around and saw two students dressed in their white "robes" walk into a room. I dunno that place kinda made me really want dentistry, so much more. but it also made it look like a dream and not a reality.
it also brings me to the sadness i have realised... so many smart people who are aiming for something in med are like "hey i'll do dentistry, less competition" and i dunno like IN ME, i want dentistry so bad... like it's not like i want it cause its something that looks plausible but its something that i'm really interested in, and (i dont wanna use the word passion) i think that if i dont get in because of smarter more intelligent students who have the opportunity to do what ever they want, and pick dentistry because its "less competitive" man it would suck....

a song:

hearts, li-ming

biochimie

2011-06-10T13:36:00.002+10:00

Bonjour, c'est un vendredi et je n'ai pas etudier, mais j'ai besoin d'etudier. ok basically thats all i can say in french.. haven't practiced in like AGES and now my mac has changed its dictionary to french AFTER ONE SENTENCE OF FRENCH??!! but anyways to blog about the recent dwellings in mon life. OMGSH this neighbourhood is seriously scary! there was someone going round with a megaphone saying something... i dunno what but all i got was "stay in your house". this isn't very comforting as i walked home in the dark yesterday... i guess it was technically my fault. i was meant to get home at like 8 but i was still in the city until 9 so when dad called i gave some random answer to why i wasn't home cause i wasnt studying.. so that couldnt be my excuse. it was like "where are you?.. it's past 8!" me: "i'm.... out??? yeah.. its 8 im sorry DON'T worry THOUGH i'm leaving soon like after this call soon.....?" *hangs up* ok so i didnt leave straight away but i was already in trouble yeah? so when i reach box hill i saw a starburst on the seat opposite me and was like AHH! need to buy my bro sweets!! so i ran to safeway before it closed, and bought like SUGAR.. in this process i missed my bus by like 2 mins and the next one was in 30 mins cause it was already past 9... i called my dad and was like i missed my bus and he was like soo...? and i was like can you please pick me up and he was like take a bus... in my brain i was like WHAT?!!! youll leave me in box hill?! to sit with strangers for 30min??!! and like he was behaving like my bro... so i know where my bro got it from. a rash decision resulted in me deciding to walk home. (all mental thoughts) i was like well if he wants me to stay in boxhill i might as well throw myself out there to experience the true box hill at 9:30pm. also cause i reckoned i could beat the bus home... so the late night walk started.. lucky i wore my adidas shoes... there are soo many parks on the way home, looking through them i was like people get raped in parks... strange thought anyways! yeah i reached home when the bus reach box hill.. I WAS soo HAPPY=] but then dad was all like *grunting* so i just showered and ignore him.. lucky he opened the door though.

anyways had my anatomy exam!! wasnt too hard but we'll see theres a lot riding one this i want a 79=], but now i should be focusing on biochemistry, but its soo hard, looking at it puts me off soo much. anyways i have too think and use my time wisely.

hearts, li-ming

on a break

2011-06-07T12:48:00.000+10:00

i just finished my course for anatomy!!!! WEEE ok well i don't remember anything but its all there in my little noggin ready to FIRE AT WILL... well i hope so anyways so i slept at 5am and awoke at 9 but slept in till 10:30 AND HERE I AM LIVING OFFF A HIGH....

also i have OBSERVED that i have been bloging more and more!! and i think its this NO FACEBOOK THING WHERE I MUST SCREAM MY LIFE TOO THE WORLD THEEEE WORLD!!! ok

no this blog is to express something im very proud of....

yes it is true i spent most of my "study" time drawing

BUT LOOK AT IT so intense..

MUSIC BREAK then moreee studyyyy

hearts, li-ming

some more procrastination

2011-06-06T13:44:00.000+10:00

i know i should be studying especially since i woke up at 12 and my exam is on wednesday and i haven't technically finished the course. but MAN it's so cold....
I think my room is a refrigerator, as soon as i step outside my room WARMTH flows all over and my once tense, tight muscles relax to allow this air in. but now i've moved to the kitchen, above the air vents and now i am currently waiting for the burst of warm air to start flowing. It's gotten so bad in my room, that my fingers, already of poor blood circulation, are unable to trigger the mac trackpad and my phone, resulting in me to exhale my warmness onto my fingers for a quick brief movement of the mouse, continuing this process until i reach my destination.
i think i need a video to cheer up his dull painful time of study...

WARM AIR

hearts, li-ming

Tale as old as time, song as old as rhyme....

2011-06-05T19:29:00.000+10:00

BEAUTY AND THE BEAST

ok there is a slight obsession going on with that song, but in all honesty i think i deserve to have an obsession with SUCH A GOOD SONG!!! loved the movie tooooooo. apparently the beast had a name but like they never used it cause he was known as the beast...
ANYWAYS just as sotvac ends, i shall conclude on the little amounts of study that i have done, and the large amounts of procrastination that has taken place this week. even french provided a failure, as looking at the first page of my textbook brought along an instant need to close my eyes and sleep, but considering the amounts of sleep i've had over this week has dwindled, sleepiness this afternoon was expected.

ok i think a bit of background info and clearing up is required on a few, well two small things. the first i think i'll go through quickly is the countdown in my previous blog. YES lol it's a countdown for douglas, but only because i was bullying him in the library BECAUSE THE DAY BEFORE, i was intently bullied by two boys, one of which was doug over feeble matters involving a name and their need to be first, IN EVERYTHING. so instead i thought ill expose something "LOL" worthy that doug is looking forward too. Now to talk about the facebook matter, well only those who have me on facebook will know that i'm now properly fasting facebook for one month, this is not for exams, because as some may know i really dislike it when people get rid of facebook for exams but its for me, like personally me. Like lately its just been eating away at me, making me obsessed and wasting valuable hours DOING NOTHING but stalking people.
side note: THERES A PIECE OF GLITTER STUCK IN MY MAC's SPEAKERS!!!
talking about stalking people.. reading blogs are the best way to learn more about their writer, lately.. well no just today i started reading someone else's blog and discover HOW UNACCOMPLISHED i am as a person of the age of 19 years, i have done nothing except eat chocolate and attempt at some fail studying abilities. where as other people out there can sing, compose songs and can play a musical instrument EXCEPTIONALLY WELL, or can just play it in GENERAL. me and my viola are mega fails in the playing a musical instrument department.

ALSO last thing i want to say before i return to the realms of study (or merlin). the whole relationship "thought" lol yes talking blogs.. everyone talks about relationships in their blogs, well of their existing ones. and as i see it WOW the gifts people RECEIVE ARE AMAZING... like if that was me i would have to be forever grateful for the rest of my life but then i think bout the work and effort it takes and then i'm like nah i'm fine without anyone... but its also brings in the realisation that i am surrounded by couples!!! but its ok as long as i don't dragged in with any of their couple-ly needs=] merlin ended=[ TIME TO STUDY

hearts, li-ming

LOL

2011-06-03T14:13:00.001+10:00

hearts, li-ming

just to prove that im "studying"

2011-06-03T12:51:00.002+10:00

dem bones dem bones, dem dancing bones!!

hearts, li-ming

etes-vous etudier?

2011-06-02T20:17:00.000+10:00

it has reached a point where saying "i should be studying" is just not enough, because even though it's been repetitively said, there has been no action. maybe i should try saying it in french...

j'ai besoin d'etudier

ok no, no difference there, ANYWAYS bonsoir! yes it is that time of the year again, the period of time when stress is not a feeling but a disease, and where pimples become the new accessory, to an otherwise flawless face, IT IS EXAM TIME. and you may ask what am i doing blogging during my EXAM time? SHOULDN'T I BE STUDYING, but the truth there is I've tried studying for like 4 days now and yet i haven't gotten very far.. 7 lectures is NO WHERE NEAR ENOUGH to the supposedly 14 i'm meant to have done by the end of today. But leaving all pain and fear behind I shall soldier on to give you a blog of utter randomness and random thoughts.
lately, due to a certain friend of cool proportions, i've had a particular song of high addictiveness stuck in my little brain, and the song goes like this....

in the jungle, the mighty jungle, the lion sleeps tonight...
in the jungle, the mighty jungle, the lion sleeps tonight...

yes it is the infamous lion king song, so as you can see the addictiveness of this song, i think you can imagine the high incapabilities i have of studying. also that skype has become my new best friend.

but yes my first exam is next week wednesday and it is anatomy, the eternal fun of dead bodies and the constant linger of formaldehyde, I JUST CANT WAIT FOR ANATOMY

but on another subject, totally not related cause unrelated subjects are the best, i got my skates, i've mentioned this in an earlier post but it was on tuesday i got them back sharpened, and tested them out. AND BOY do they hurt! they fit but they are MEGA too tight, i mean they have to be tight, but the tightness experience was to the MEGA extreme, but if i loosened them my foot would move, which felt just as weird so as a "fighter" i soldiered on and put up with the pain as i practiced skating, slowly getting used to the idea of being taller and more uncoordinated! but still it feels good to have my own skates. when uni finishes WE SHALL ALL GO SKATING!!

looks pro, doesn't it?

too bad i'm not

hearts, li-ming

THANK YOU DOUG!

2011-05-30T03:12:00.000+10:00

the day started with little sleep and a long journey to docklands to do a bit of fail skating and to take part in a fail skating class BUT in all happiness I GOT MY SKATES!!! YAY anyways got them sharpened. but this is not a blog about the dwelling of the early morning events but a blog of the afternoon apple experience!

DOUG IS SOOOO COOL

ok so basically i was going to chadstone to get my iphone fixed, as on the thursday the glass started to fall off, making my iphone not only ugly but highly dangerous! so i had to get it fix. my friend DOUG was like (on friday) come with me on saturday, im getting my macbook fixed too so i was like... might as well go with a friend than to go by myself. so on saturday i left my house at 1pm with 275 dollars in my card ready for this apple visit. i must say that CHADSTONE LOOKS SOO DIFFERENT, i kinda didnt know where the apple store was, but with a bit of blind walking i saw the SHINY white apple and walked briskly towards it's glow=]

entering the store kinda was overwhelming! it was so packed! i couldnt even find DOUG i squeezed and pushed and in the corner i saw a dude with glasses and a melbourne uni jumper BINGO it was DOUG!!! anyways long story short i lined up and the apple dude was like "i need to assess your iphone, what's wrong with it?" *takes phone out* SELF EXPLANATORY! and they were like "this is not under warranty" and i was like i know.... so i got my wallet out and they got a new phone out and they were doing some like "paper" work on their touch and my french iphone then i was like "how much will it cost" and their were like its free and i was like :| pure shock.... anyways cutting the story short again it was basically my friend DOUG that paid for it:| well he didnt really but he did? complicated story but OMGSH!! I OWE HIM SO MUCH i mean omgsh i didnt know i actually thought it was free... well i dunno if it is still but from what i've worked out, in my mind HE PAID!! but he didnt drop IT.. he's such a nice person and i feel bad.. soooooo I OWE HIM and im forever thankful!!! i cannot drop it again and i must protect it, more so now cause of this whole situation! anyways i walked out the store stroking it and so happy (this was before i found out) and well im still happy and still stroking it, its a bittersweet story=]

THANK YOU DOUG

now a few pictures?

a new case?

and did i add he drove like 20 minutes out of the way!! to drive me HOME! dude man..... cant thank him enough!!

also we played starwars!!! while waiting for his macbook

DOUG IS SUPER COOL

hearts, li-ming

first impressions?

2011-05-27T01:01:00.001+10:00

everyday we meet new people, we don't know it when we step out of the house but we do, whether it be an introduction or a casual talk with someone in the same lecture or even just people walking pass, we are constantly judged by anyone and everyone, even though we may have not formally met them. this is the first impression. people say first impressions are important, important in setting the tone and the level of the "to be" relationship. But for most of us a first impression requires only a glance. this glance can be undertaken by anyone, even by a person just casually walking by. I mean in all honesty we've all walked past someone and stared at their outrageous hairdo or their "incompetent" dress sense. I guess this is the reason that so many people spend hours upon hours in the bathroom getting ready, dressing and redressing just to find that perfect outfit for the day to show others, those that see them, who they would like to be perceived as. this includes the large topic: make up. some take it to the extreme, completely changing their normal self to a "better" version where as others just puts in that little more effort early in the morning to make all the difference during the day.

personally i think last impressions are more important than first impressions. don't get me wrong first impressions are "important" but its so hard to please everyone every day, showing everyone who you want to be and what you can be if you spend the effort and time. but last impressions is for a particular group and you have the set time, everything is set, all you need to do is prepare yourself once. Last impressions are also the one, i think, you would remember the most. Some people do remember the first time they meet someone, but i think the last image you see of a person is most likely to be the one that sticks in your head the longest. and as we are humans the last image we want anyone to have of us is a good one, no matter how fake it may be, just as long as it portrays the image that we are pursuing for our selves. but last impressions also results in, as the name states, impressing someone. we would not go through the effort of a good last impression if there was no one we were aiming to impress. but sometimes its just a way of saying good bye to something that just may not be the same again.

My last impression to you today?

Hakuna Matata=]

hearts, li-ming

the aftermath

2011-05-26T02:16:00.000+10:00

well yeah i got home with my phone and my mum and bro like well laugh... ished and kept telling me that i couldnt touch anything incase i break it, THEY DONT KNOW HOW MUCH IT ACTUALLY HURT. but yeah made me WORSE... thank you very much. but when everything slowed down mum told me i cant get it fixed until next month, so THEREFORE i have a month to find a case that would reduce the chances of its death for when i get it repaired...
anyways today was a big bummer i think it was one of those days where EVERYTHING JUST COLLAPSED AND WENT WRONG and something i just wish never happened!! after nab bank (where the incident occurred) i just wanted to scream and PUNCH ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING but instead i had random fits of screaming, and CALLS to anyone who could help... but now yeah coming to terms with it i should actually spend this blog on other things

it was victoria's birthday today=] YAY early morning i awoke and headed to the city to order her a last minute cake OF LOVE and edible yumness.. but yeah, i think from 9 onwards nothing was feeling right, i was sleepy and tired but yeah... it got worse about 2-5 then at like 5:30 my friends and i played tetris for 30mins, kinda fun.. i suck but you know
ITS STILL FUN. then at 6 we went off to get the cake we ordered for victoria. victoria's dinner was SO MUCH FUN, it was kinda weird, cause i guess everyone at the table had their troubles, and needed to study for assignments and tests, but yet we still came out to celebrate, the conversations started off a bit dry and depressing but it was like releasing a load on to the table and like the dinner became a place of fun and enjoyment=] AND VICTORIA WAS SOOO excited and happy=] made everyone else HAVE A SMILE ON THEIR DIAL, but yeah it was what i needed.. but then the train home RAWR to play music you need to look at the stupid SCREEN i hate it so much, i didnt even learn a lesson, sighs material possessions are so bad

anyways last 2 things before i snooze, firstly i cant say to much, but lol yeah AWKWARD STORIES so annoying, brain dead. you see even though im like only 19 i feel like compared to others im older, i dunno why and sometimes i feel like this age makes me not belong:S hmmm, and that im the laughing stock of immature beings.. but then again, im a laughing stock to myself, because i can be pretty immature... too bad i think people are something they are not. and SECONDLY french oral tomorrow... so scared im so tired and i only know like 4 descriptive words... maybe i should etudier in the morning? yeah on the "bus" im suppose to take. THE TRAINS ARE SO PACKED NOWADAYS i hate it oh so very much
sleepyyyy

hearts, li-ming

victoria's birthday

2011-05-25T22:06:00.001+10:00

i dont think words can explain how i feel

but on the other hand.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY VICTORIA!!! took my mind off it

hearts, li-ming

"Change will come, CHANGE.. WILL.. COME.."

2011-05-23T00:07:00.004+10:00

officially moved house, and since moving house and THE CRAZY mess, I've had 2 tests and received one test result.
i thought this would be a good time to express a photo or two of the new house.. but all i could find was this photo of me attempting to study for my physiology test..

dont i look so studious? lol my attempt of 18 lectures in one night, and i finished all of them 10 minutes before my test=] i think that was quite an accomplishment.. maybe one day i shall not try it again?

in my mind things happen so easily!!! im so jealous of my imagination i wish i could be as WEE as my imagination then i would be oh sooo totally UNSTOPPABLE, but unfortunately my imagination is far too advance compare to me

PARANOIA!!!!

anyways moving on I GOT MY VIOLA OUT TODAY for like the first time in 2 YEARS!!! it was so awkward i thought it would be out of tune and like my ability to remember how to play would have DISSIPATED but no surprisingly it was pretty in tune, with a few sharp strings... (i downloaded an iphone app to tune my viola) and then i tested my fingering with the app and i was like WOW ITS IN TUNE. but then i was like ULTIMATE TEST!!!! and i played a bit of pirates and some other song i remembered on my viola and i was MEGA SURPRISED!!! looking at this new found information, i got out my music sheets and played can you feel the love tonight and pirates and MINUET, apart from a few like sharps and flats missing it was pretty impressive! im soo proud of myself!! i wished i took it more seriously when i was learning then i could have me so mega GOOD

but bringing it out brought back many good memories and many funny ones, so i'll end on this picture and a memory

"what's rest position?"

~Li-Ming

hearts, li-ming

sleep?

2011-05-17T01:43:00.000+10:00

this week is kinda CRAZY so much stuff needs to be done, which includes the procrastination i'm currently participating in instead of studying or for a matter of fact sleeping. i also wasted quite a large amount of my time watching the kings speech=] i liked it a lot. it was kinda sweet in a weird way and OMGSH helena bonham carter looked sooo different but they were all MASSIVELY GOOD ACTORS but colin firth... good actor but he looked too old for his role. and OMGSH ANOTHER HARRY POTTER REUNION!!!! bellatrix lestrange and wormtail and DUMBLEDORE, another one since sweeny todd...

anyways this blog was just meant to highlight the REALISATION i have just had...
skype.... lol i remember lol like 2 years ago i was forced to get skype by one little boy and i only possessed one contact. but now I HAVE HEAPS!!!! and i wonder why i dont use it =S, but harps uses it more then msn SOO GUESS WHO'S GONNA BE THE NEXT SKYPE junkie!!!! yay i'm excited, building up on my skype list!
but now i think sleep is a true possibility!!!!

hearts, li-ming

another day of intense cleaning

2011-05-15T23:14:00.000+10:00

ok so this weekend was wasted on cleaning/moving house, which in anyones opinion, isnt good considering i have two tests this week but I CANNOT BE SELFISH AND tell my parents to do it them selves, cause then i wouldn't be the best daughter ever=] OMGSH im so up myself... there was a split moment in my life where i was once humble and "cute" not that i ever was... but i blame the group of people that told me to accept compliments, cause now i embrace them and FUEL THEM, anyways TOTALLY OFF TOPIC. yeah today i had to pack and move AGAIN and now my shelf and dresser are bare, a good thing, and my desk just has all my study junk on it, but i think my stupidest move in the "packing" and "moving" department, was packing away all my trousers and my power point board thingo, cause now i can either chose to use a lamp or to charge my laptop, so not helpful when it come to the studying option. but like always today i found more stuff, some of it were pretty cool. i was looking through my box of stuff that i have no place for but i didnt wanna throw out but its like that box where you keep the special stuff?? or in my case the place where i keep all my used metcards and clothing tags (yes i keep all my tags). but it was also the place where i kept all my england keep safes from the trip last year. i found my souvenir collection, including like you know the typically BRITISH gifts like rubbers and guitar picks, and dont forget all those coins that you accumulate. I also found my sim card and my oyster card.. i cant believe its been a year, plus, since i went back, feels so strange, i also found a whole bunch of photos, including my year 5 photos. man was i one manly fat child lol!!! but harps still looks as stick as ever.. i can't believe so much has changed... like physically but mentally we are still like 10. in this box of stuff i also found my student cards from year 10 and 11... i dunno where my 12 went but man i looked different and i think my year 11 photo was during the period of time where i was the skinniest... LOL YES IVE GAIN WEIGHT... stupid tempting chocolate and stressful happiness that chocolate provides. but its so weird to see you grow up. i looked so middle eastern when i was a baby but then i became an asian looking toddler, and now I'm a freaky looking halfie=] LOL. oh the joys of baby photos and puppy fat.

moving away from the whole moving fiasco... i've been in a lost dilemma for quite a few days now, but i think i kinda have it sorted, like its not an ideal situation, but its a realistic one. its a weird situation, i mean like one where you are put in one mega awkward spot and you are forced to pick between friends, its like saying which friend you you like better, and i know some people are like WELL DUH ITS "blah blah" but i have a heart =] and i dont think its right to pick between friends. but since i cant do anything about it i must...CHOOSE... happiness=] this whole dilemma leads me nicely on to...

c'est le dimanche 15th mai, il y a six jours gauche=]
je vais etre le gagnant
OUI

lol my beautiful french input considering im so far behind and its getting so hard and complicated now=[
off to paint my nails a shade of pink, considering all the other colours are in the other house.. normality...

should be studying

hearts, li-ming

moving house

2011-05-15T01:51:00.000+10:00

i think moving house is one of the most annoying and tedious processes in life. the cleaning the packing, the throwing, the keeping and the discoveries.
Well as no one knows, ill make it public here, but yes YET AGAIN WE ARE MOVING HOUSE, back to a cold wooden floorboard house with limited heating and awkward curtains. BUT as i ran for first pick for bedrooms, i think i personally won, with the only bedroom with 2 POWERPOINT, 2!!! two is a big number. it also has a HUGE wardrobe!!! so its all good for all my junk, that i like to collect over time. well i think thats all the good stuff thats to come out of moving to a new house, (as we are renting, and its not permanent, i think i can have this many complaints) WELL the bad? lol well today we found out that 3 doesnt like our house, my bro has like NO reception in the house, so if your thinking of calling my bro i think it would be better to call me first, you know just incase you catch him when hes totally out of reception. at first i must admit, this was HILARIOUS, but then it dawned on me, my bro will not have reception in the house for a WHOLE YEAR!!! so for a whole year, he practically cannot use his phone... strange yeah? kinda sad as well, kinda felt sorry for him. hmm what else did i dislike... i think the bathroom was a bit... and the smell was a bit.. but all in all i shouldnt complain too much but to be grateful..
anyways i think the worse thing about moving is the packing. packing is not as easy as it sounds, packing to you might mean like just emptying draws into boxes then driving them over and placing them back into those draws... but NO packing is about so much more. packing is an art, an art i dont think my family posses the necessary skills for. When packing its not about transporting everything you own, but its about clearing some of your accumulated junk from your wardrobes and giving it away or throwing it away. I must say its very hard to throw stuff away, especially if your a sentimental person like me. i LOVE to keep things that have a background memory to them, so as you can imagine my collection of stuff is PRETTY HUGE, today i threw out like ALL the clothes that were just sitting in my wardrobe, waiting for some well deserved attention, normally i would look at them and say "maybe one day ill wear you" BUT NOT TODAY, today i looked at them and said NO MORE and out they went, tons of it OUT OF MY LIFE for good. i was so energised by this that i attempted to do the same thing for my jewellery collection, but man i WEAR none of my jewellery, so as i filtered through, i found one piece i almost totally forgot about, this friendship necklace my best friend and i shared...
WEIRD FEELINGS!!! you find a lot of things when you move....

hearts, li-ming

subscapularis, supraspinatus and infraspinatus are all fixators

2011-05-11T20:37:00.002+10:00

anatomy, oh anatomy,
why do you want to hurt me?
what have I ever done to you?
you just took me like a fool.
you are so mean,
my face doesn't want to gleam
anatomy, oh anatomy,
why do you want to hurt me?

ok i realised that "you" doesn't rhyme with "fool", BUT WHO SAID A POEM needed to rhyme? it just needs to portray my feelings, my feelings of hate and BETRAYAL by a subject that goes by the name "anatomy". anyways if the poem doesn't do its job, a pictures speaks a thousand words.. so here's 2 =]

in my pj's warmnesssss

hearts, li-ming

ARE YOU SERIOUS?!

2011-05-08T18:58:00.001+10:00

well it's official my nail polish obsession just got INSANE
today i went to kmart and OBSERVED THEIR SALE ON NAIL POLISHES!!! resulting in me spending $40 on a variety of colours, stretching my collection from the original 10 to 18! yes i bought 8 more today. AND TO SHOW MY EXCITEMENT AND LOVE for them i thought i would blog them.
as you may see most of them are RIMMEL london, ok all of them except one is rimmel, its not just patriotic but its cause they are good and CHEAP and one of the best types of nail polishes out there!!

maybe a mini history?
i dunno i guess it started in year seven, P.E class, we had to do some sort of self evaluation thing, and i remember putting down "i hate my hands". i think since then ive always had some form of polish on my nails... i think its my equivalent of make up but for the nails? anyways then it just became an obsession. It not cause i hate my hands anymore its cause i find it fun SOOTHING and quirky... its just another thing that makes me, me=]

COLOURS (in order):

old:
clear (not pictured)
pompous (not pictured)
azure
hot shot
grass green
your majesty
exotica
london clouds
redcurrent jelly

new:

sunshine

double decker red
london clouds

grey matter

black out

portobello pink

deliciously dark

purple reign

together:

ok i might look weird... two pinks that are exactly the same?!

but no! the new one has a gold pearly shine=]

ok i grant you that its impossible to tell the difference BUT TRUST ME ITS THERE

NO not two greys! one sliver and one grey=]

why do i want grey?... cause grey is COOL

DOUBLE reds? SAME brand?

NEVER the new one is a bright vibrant red without the shine!

double whites=] (love the name... the patriotic li-ming)

white is a staple colour=]

two blacks? with different names?! NOOO the new one is (actually dunno) a deep redy purple colour? maybe?

yes i agree they both look black

now i have so many colours=] TO FREE MY BOREDOM

I'M SOO EXCITED!

PYRAMID

hearts, li-ming

counting down

2011-05-07T21:49:00.000+10:00

i've been feeling really tired lately, i dunno know why but i'm assuming Chuck has something to do with it.

ok I havent blogged in a while BUT WE SHALL START.... RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW!!!

theres a boredom that comes along with long bus rides and sleepless nights, and normally this boredom is simply and EASILY fixed with a short trip to the app store on my phone, BUT LATELY, i've been noticing the games listed under "top 25" ARE RETARDED!!!! theres nothing there that would heal my BOREDOM and it's not fair. Je suis tres disappointed with the whole system. WHAT HAPPENED TO AWESOME FREE GAMES?!! anyways lately i've not been relying on the entertainment value of games, instead I've been placing chuck in front of my OWN two eyes to HEAL the desire i have for my beloved TV, apart from the several days of crashing, and the one i'm currently about to have, i think went pretty well. i finished it=] ALL IN TIME FOR MY MID SEMESTER TESTS, round 2 *ding ding* BOOF

today was a magnificently average day=]! as per usual i awoke late and groggy from my overkill of chuck watching and got into a car half dead to drive to docklands, which caused me to attempt at my RUBBISH parking skills, lets just say its getting better?=], anyways ice skating was a pain BUT AT LEAST IM NOT THE WORST IN MY GROUP ANYMORE!!! WEEEE omgsh feels so good not to be the worst in a group of people, and i think its a GREAT accomplishment that i didn't fall over. on the drive home today, i did something MEGA STUPID... i rubbed my eye AND BOOOOM my contact became folded and LOST in my EYE and as i was driving i couldn't do much to fix it, well except from TEARING and CRYING SO MUCH from that one eye that my cheek was all WET AND TEARY. but i think the worse thing was that not only was i BLIND but EVERYTHING WAS BLURRY FROM THE TEARS. but I SOLIDERed ON BRAVING THE STORM and DRIVING INTO THE UNKNOWN!!! until i had to park in the shopping center... but because i was so rushed I PARKED ABNORMALLY WELL!!! i was so proud of my self=] half blind with an AWESOME PARK, i think that made my day...either that or the cookies and cream chocolate YUM YUM

BUT the main reason i wanted to blog was for the thing that made my day YESTERDAY. it was a dreary day filled with stress, sleepiness and CHUCK BARTOWSKI. but as the day got later the energy fizzled out, i became an empty smiling shell of li-ming. but i MAN-ed UP AND went to my youth group, WHERE I WAS OFFERED ENERGY IN THE FORM OF CHOCOLATE and where i offered up a helping hand. to which we replaced the table lamp with AWESOME PHONES, lighting the sound desk=] we are soo cool at my church=]

le samedi sept mai

hearts, li-ming

with boredom comes great photo taking abilities

2011-04-24T23:32:00.000+10:00

day 4 of my holidays and i still have not attempted anything productive.. i've thought about it but the action part has not actually happened....
but this has suddenly reminded me of something that NEEDS TO BE DONE...
anyways to overcome my boredom i decided to muck around with the neglected make up. i rarely use the toxic substance, but today i was like hmm if i don't use it, just like food, it will get spoilt. so i PLASTERED that stuff on.. ok not plastered but applied and well cause i'm terrified of breakouts, i CLEANSED my face beforehand removing EVERY TRACE OF BACTERIA AND DIRT preventing the ability for a pimple to pop up and say hello. and then the usual photowhoring took place....

then i ran into the SHOWER TO relieve my skin from the possibility of pimplising.
but the camera washed me out so i looked white and a tad sickly but THATS OK i can pretend that i am white and sick.
and yeah my hair is like COLOUR FAIL i wanna do it again but today i saw a friend and she was like OMGSH I LOVE YOUR HAIR i wanna do it too and i was like :|..... ermmm yeah awesome... (her hair was the same colour as my last dye) BUT YEAH i dyed my hair not only cause of the roots but to get away from like everyone having the same hair colour... but that was a mini fail in itself.

ANYWAYS as this night progresses i think too ease my boredom i will retract from facebook and watch some A-TEAM i love its soundtrack.. SOOO GOOD

and i think i'll leave this blog with a FABULOUS VIDEO

and now a video that is just sooo good

=[

hearts, li-ming

one of THOSE days

2011-04-23T18:07:00.000+10:00

well ok first things first i think i should talk about the BIGGER issue... the facebook fast i did on thursday and friday. well it all started one sunday when i was in the OHP (over head projector) room and one of our pastors were talking about the church wide fast and prayer week for easter, and my friend goes to me what are you fasting? normally i dont fast because i cant do food and well normally theres not much thats worth fasting, so i was like nothing. and then he was like COME ON you have to do something (cause he was fasting food) and then it became the facebook fast... i wanted to do it for one day, but of course i was considered weak so it was extended for two days of my choice.., and in my mind i questioned why did i pick the two days where im the most free. uni ended on thursday (which is a whole different story and will come later) but yeah so i attempted the facebook fast and it was MEGA hard i logged out of facebook and EVERYTHING but i just had the natural reflex to click the facebook icon. so bad i think i'm a true facebook addict/junkie.. i guess its cause its one of those things that you do when you have nothing else to waste your time on. and its not very helpful when nowadays everyone is communicating via facebook and not via phone calls or like text? but i figured in those 2 days i spent almost 50 dollars of credit just texting my friend instead of facebooking her. SO EXPENSIVE. but when the clock struck twelve this morning i couldnt resist but to log on and DISCOVER my 22 notifications. never have i felt so special=]... i think i should do more facebook bans to prevent my addiction.

THURSDAY was day of HAPPINESS and a day of JOY as well as a day of dread and BORING-ness. thursday was the last day of uni for a week.. a week may not seem like much but to us uni kids its a week that we treasure sooo DEAR to our hearts... this is the week we all EAGERLY await for. and it makes us so happy when we reach the final hours of that day. but terribly enough... the last hours involved french, some may say YAY but to us "frenchies" we collapse and slowly die due to the DRAINING capabilities of french... i swear half our group went mentally insane. EVEN VICTORIA THOUGHT SHE WAS BANKSY....

ok fair enough it was a pretty good drawing. she was so proud of herself it made everyone laugh.. i think our french group is pretty awesome i think its the only reason like half of us turn up for french. but yeah its just gonna keep on getting harder and harder.. BUT WE WILL STILL HAVE AN MENTAL INSANITY-ness to pull us through.

ok so 3 days of holidays have gone pass and all ive managed to do is catch up on the usual tv series and sit in the cold (meaning ive done NO HOMEWORK/STUDY) but today a shock, a bolt of lighting travelled through all iphone users and my friend dropped her iphone, resulting in terrible consequences.

all day i just kept my phone close to me or in my bag away from any lurking concrete floors. but the failure of today shone. as i reached home my dad asked me to call my bro so on my bed i took my phone out and laid it on my silky blanket next to my macbook and when my bro picked up i couldnt hear him so i attempted to pick up my phone. THE FAILURE WAS SO GREAT that the slipperiness of my blanket sent my phone soaring on to the edge of my mac and as a result i have a dent on both my mac and my phone... ITS JUST ONE OF THOSE DAYS..

there are a lot of if only-s like if only i used my hand instead of speaker.. if only i bought that iphone case like i planned AND IF ONLY MY DAD CALL MY BROTHER INSTEAD...

MACBOOK PRO vs. IPHONE 4

both dented

not so invincible anymore eyy?

hearts, li-ming

a little more hair dying

2011-04-17T14:35:00.001+10:00

yesterday was a day fill with joy excitement and intense amino acid memory work, as uni has requested that we must know all 20 amino acids which together form polypeptides and folding, domains and resulting in proteins of greatness. but among the fun and excitement of that day, wait lets just start from the absolute beginning.

i awoke nice and early, ready for a day with amanda niu, but as i awoke i felt a strange pain in my wrist i have rsi? i think i dunno what that is it like when you over use your wrist or carry heavy objects... but yeah i didn't get it cause i've been studying really hard but i got it from carrying my bag on my wrist and from constant typing.... HELLO lol more typing. after the pain i took a shower and STUFF to get ready for this outing with amanda. i was ready about 9:20 and i had to go out at like 10 so i was like CHILLIN and RELAXING and then at like 5 to i was like RAWR *pack bag* and then i ran out of my house and i missed the bus by like 10 seconds cause i saw it drive past as i reached the main road so i RAWRED some more and then waited. arriving at shoppo was no ordeal at all, my reasons for going shoppo were to spend my $5 gift card and to return this top i didn't like. i decided with my gift card money thing, ill buy hair dye to return my hair to a colour of reasonable proportions, and more of the long decisions later. we didn't do much in myers. BUT THEN we caught a bus to state library and we were ready for some hard core studying, the fun and excitement of intense studious-ness. but as we emptied the contents of amanda's bag we noticed the absence of her phone, so i went on a mega phone hunt using numbers and my mobile to call and and ask several places. long story short, i found it, it was in priceline.. where we spent several long minutes deciding on a hair colour of perfect shade and price. (by the way AMANDA HAS BLUE-BLACK HAIR= AWEEEEEESOMITY) but yeah i ended up buying a colour totally different to my original.. nice girl-brown hair dye....

so today i decided as i love my before and after photos... i'll do one for you NOW:

before:

DUN

DUN....

(ignore the blue star=])

AND IN THE LIGHT?

YAY its pretty cool and the blonde bit is like PURPLE its soooo multicoloured and i dunno why but yeah its so not my original plan but i'm kinda enjoying the randomness of my colour... just hope it doesn't wash out quickly....

hearts, li-ming

20 amino acids and some positive psych on the side

2011-04-16T16:52:00.001+10:00

"Phenylalanine," she mutters to herself.
Li-ming, wide with inquisitive eyes peers across to her notes for the day as she contemplates over why the word is so retarded in spelling.
BUT IN OTHER NEWS.

PHOTOS BEETCHES!
AND TO END TODAY'S POST. WE HAVE A VIDEO FOR YOU GUYS. BECAUSE WE LOVE YOU GUYS VERY VERY MUCH.
Questions are being raised as to who you guys actually are but we'll deal with that later.

OH. By the way, this is aMANDA.
Yes I have hacked (not really) Li-Ming's blog and will begin to start the end of the middle.
The day started off with my alarm clock going off at around 9.30 in the morning. After coming to the realisation that flailing around in bed wasn't really useful for anything, I got up and started my day.
MY DAY FULL OF STUDYYYY YEAAAHHH.
We even have pictures to prove how studious we were in the state library.
And since pictures are equivalent in value to a thousand words, HERE'S AN ESSAY.
PICTURES WILL COME SHORTLY.

BAI.

well hello my readers... (amanda) well today you have a MEGA SPECIAL TREAT..... which will follow after several empty gaps...

HELLO

the topping to the cake:

hearts, li-ming

things to do

2011-04-12T22:26:00.000+10:00

ahhh everything is sooo stressful!!!!

so i've decided TO SERIOUSLY GIVE UP CHOCOLATE and everything sweet and sugary.... no more cupcakes for me.
no more sweets
no more lollipops
no more chocolate
no more cookies
no more cakes
no more soft drinks (i don't really drink any)
no more ICE CREAM
no more mocha
no more boost:| (ok no im allowed boost) BOOST IS AN EXCEPTION
no more bubble tea
no more egg tarts
no more bakery related items
no more SUGAR

the only exception is a little cake on birthdays=] when i say little i mean a LICK yum yum

some may ask why im doing this.. its cause I EAT TOO MUCH SUGAR!!!!!
and yeah soooo I HOPE I CAN FOLLOW THROUGH

hearts, li-ming

ignorance

2011-04-11T00:32:00.000+10:00

lately the saying "the world is your oyster, so just devour it" has been stuck in my head.. but then i think (as you do) and i'm like... i don't like oysters, so then how can i devour my world??!! maybe it should be "the world is your clam, so treasure it" that sounds cool, why don't we treasure the earth (oh for those who don't get it like clam=pearl) hmmm questions to keep the wondering pondering just don't get too lost now.
well yes nothing new has happened really since yesterday, like i have the urge to go skating and practice my new found excitement in gliding across the ice.. but nothing else.

but i've been wondering... how do people make friends? we all have friends but how do we get them? how do the distant become so close? do we urge it on or does it occur all so naturally? does the ability to create a friend change when there are other factors involved? what if you really want to be a person's friend.... is the push all to much?
well looking back at my friendship history... lol my first real friend was harpreet. she's an example of a friend who was just meant to be. (like a romantic movie) when we first met we just clicked, and that's all there was too that, all the trimmings came later. then there are those that slowly build from a small hello to a continuous conversation full of laughter and excitement. then there are those where the friendship is hard due to the lack of continuous conversing.. the stuff said between two individuals are so limited, but you're still friends cause when you push into a conversation the flow is effortless.. just needs a little push. there are also those types of friends that are established from the word go, although conversations are loud and circular, empty but fun. they are friends to relax with... but they could also lead to disastrous consequences. then there are those, the people who you want to be your friend, so you put in the work, the miles, the effort, and in the end you look clingy and pathetic... most of the time you lose the person you want to befriend because you don't wanna look too desperate now. but then theres the little break throughs? the keys to the key hole that opens the door into a friends life.... my question is how can we get here from so many different ways?

hearts, li-ming

hoping the rain's pink

2011-04-09T19:22:00.001+10:00

i think i shall announce again that i dyed my hair pink=] YES again but i did it like on thursday so its kinda faded now... but i forgot HOW MUCH I MISSED IT, i feel so cool again its like a trademark.. ok well i don't want a trade mark but its like a cool part of me and the looks i get are funny, i think its funnier this time cause my hair isn't punk rock, instead its so normal and then they are like HUH PINK?! but i think people treat you differently when you have random colours in your hair. kinda like HEY OMGSH A PUNK *steers away* or like she thinks she's so cool and you know what I AM=] anyways less rant more pictures

i bet you can feel the coolness seeping through you computer screen right now

today i PASSED my ice skating class with flying colours, and so i have a badge, mmm i shall picture it for you

lol my face looks scary cause my lamp was on

but YAY i can skate one footed and i can STOP LOL, i feel so accomplished!

now for adult 2

oh and today i did a mega shopping spree cause a few weeks ago i couldn't find any tops to wear so my mum was like "i'm so depressed, my son has more clothes than my daughter" so then i was given the ok to shop

and SO i thought ill publicly show some stuff i bought=]

its a ivory tube scarf=] PUFFY

i couldn't take a good photo of this so i was like LOOK LIKE AN IDIOT but its a bardot jumper and like semi transparent crop i like=]

pinkish blouse

lol sorry for the retarded photos and the MESS lol i need to clean my room. but yeah i bought some coolio stuff i was pretty happy with them except from their price tag

anyways i cant wait to wear all my new clothes=]
ill blog properly next TIME

hearts, li-ming

je deteste le cigarettes

2011-04-06T21:01:00.000+10:00

well this blog started off with yesterday andy and i were like OOO NICE DAY south lawn? yes south lawn... and then like BOOM SMOKERS ARRIVED and ruined the fresh air so we moved like to the seats... then BAM ANOTHER SMOKER BLOWING SMOKE IN OUR DIRECTION!!!! what happened to fresh air??? WHAT HAPPENED TO FILLING YOUR LUNGS WITH UN DEADLY NON TOXIC BEAUTIFUL AIR? just because ONE PERSON SMOKE doesn't mean we all HAVE TO BE FORCED TO FILL OUR LUNGS WITH THE LEFT OVER SMOKE YOU EXHALE rawr i don't get it?! like smoking.. like OMGSH everyone is smoking, i mean like everywhere you look someone is lighting up it makes me annoyed it like no non smoker can live smoke free.... we are all being FORCED to breath in this toxic air... i told andy they should make south lawn like SMOKE FREE but of course that would be impossible... i mean like THERE ARE STREAKERS IN UNI, you cant make a lawn smoke free, but when i got home and opened my newspaper.... i found an intriguing article or well two articles.. to show that smoking is still on the agenda... one was about how smoking prevent guys from... OO LALA-ing and stuff which i found pretty funny also the one i was more interested in but i dont remember where the article was but it was about how smoking should be banned from parks and like outdoor eating AREAS and im like YES that sooo true, like they've managed to do it like a state (NSW i think) so why cant they do it here? yes it may defeat the purpose of an outdoors eating area but LIKE YOU HAVE TO RESPECT THOSE WHO WANT HEALTHY LUNGS?
anyways to end the rant and start physiology i went to an ice cream shop and i saw a mum and her daughter eating ice cream outside... it was soo sad cause the mum was smoking in front of her child like it was OMGSH like inflicted lung cancer on a poor child, reminds me of that advert on tv wheres shes like i dont want my children to grow up thinking smoking and dying from it is normal...

hearts, li-ming

there a point in everyones life where a slap to the face is required...

2011-04-03T20:13:00.002+10:00

today was a good day. LOL yes yes it was li-ming

but this is not about today in general i would just like to rant.. yes another one of my infamous rants about everything and literally nothing.
have you ever felt yourself doing something stupid? something you know you shouldnt but you are doing it and you know its stupid but you just cant help yourself? acting like a teenager with no life? and trying to hid the residues of your obsession? hmm yes a little insight a little peep through the key hole. well yes thats what im like now. its like SOO STUPID and i know it is and i feel like the biggest dumbest child yes a child in the whole entire world.. and that is just cause i cannot clear my mind like i once use to. over analysing, i think is a megaly large CHUNK of what is the cause of this constant battering of thoughts cascading through my mind, staining the once clean blank sheet of my subconscious. it cannot be cleaned, because just seconds later like paint balls flying, it just scatters and splatters, coating it in a thick layer of unwantedness. yes that is the current unravelling of li-ming's life. maybe i should go and chase some birds. i remember i had a weird dream last night.. dont remember what it was about but i remember just the usual. you know the weird entirety of it all and i remember trying to charge my phone in my sleep but i didnt cause i couldnt find the power point hole thingos in the dark.. hummmmm one mega awkward dream, but luckily my daily battle hasnt interfered with my night time of peace. anyways new stuff involves the several mid semesters that are slowly arising to come and give me a pie to the face, and all i want to say to them is, i dont like pies. but potatoes are in a whole world of their own. but yes as everyone crams i find myself looking at my mac and violating it with back to the future games, i sorry my dear but i need fun. OH and vegetarian week has reappear with more sugar than i could ever imagine in my whole entire life, i wonder what the world would be like without the sweet calories of sugar? would we be sticks? forced to distinguish our selves from having the same appearance as a twig? but yes as destructiveness settles in with idioticity, i find the deep undying urge to dye my hair, but the figurative view of killing it slowly is weighing out the odds. but well see by the end of the week what will truly happen to the wonders of my hair...
i think thats it for today i must at least attempt to study
ETUDIER cause je suis une etudiante

heart, li-ming

daily light savings in on the horizon

2011-04-03T00:26:00.000+11:00

its winter guys=]
a picture to set the mood?

the only time i'll ever possess both

so today was an interesting day, practically did nothing yet again, except the usual tv. BUT i must announce that i can actually skate!!! LOL AND NOT JSUT SKATE BUT I CAN SKATE ONE FOOTED lol it soo weird cause i used to be like AHHH but now im like WEEEE

anyways on to the confusing part.. SERIOUS BLOGGING actually im kinda too tired and lazy to blog normally so ill just like to say i spent this whole night uploading photos i forgot to on to facebook... ITS PRETTY INTERESTING FOR ALL YOU STALKERS OUT THERE!!!
blog soon

hearts, li-ming

anatomy is hard

2011-03-30T22:39:00.000+11:00

today i saw rows of dead bodies in white bags.... LOL DONT WORRY GUYS it was for anatomy... pretty cool kinda freaky but you know still interesting
well i have an anatomy mid semester on friday and i know nothing like the names of things are not there its all like the same to me in sooo totally confused and im trying to study like RIGHT now much it just failed and instead i took photos with all my photobooth effects... ohh the joys of a MAC THE BEAUTIFUL DISTRACTIONS:

colour pencil

COMIC BOOK

sepia

THERMAL

BLACK and white (grey?)

POP ARt

glow=]

xray

NORMALITY

lol i think personally ive gotten over my old " i must look good" poser face now im just that FREAK=] that looks half dead but i find it fun

hmm today... not feeling accomplished feeling abnormally weird RAWRRRR HIII

hearts, li-ming

what is a big idea?

2011-03-29T23:24:00.000+11:00

the question stands continuously, as weeks pass the big idea one week wont be the same next week, and then where does that leave you? with a partially ok idea? hmmm i dunno CONSULATE someone

picture perfect. the deep blue, without fading, pasted across the sky. distinct clouds scattered the outside edges softening the crisp, harsh glare of the sun. the sun, a ball of fire penetrating deep into the earth, penetrating my skin causing small beads of sweat to form. the soft fresh blades of grass cushioning my head as i laid there, still. the bustle of people meeting and greeting, the sound of feet crushing the innocent blades of grass, the sudden screams of excitement, which were once loud now diminished into a small soft whisper. a whisper that washed over me, leaving a state of serenity from head to toe. a slow tune was building from within, a small indistinct hum was released from my parched lips. a pause. eyes closed, the tune grew deeper in my mind, increase in capacity, increasing in volume. heart pounding, heart racing, breathes changed from long and deep to short and insignificant. frown lines merged across my brow until, freedom, one deep breath, the extending of my diaphragm, the enlargement of my chest, all released in one quick blow, in one quick high pitch screech. the song died down, back to its original quiet indistinct hum, eyes open, once again my body returned to its once serene state.

lol i dunno where i was going with that i havent written a "story" in ages

hearts, li-ming

secrets

2011-03-28T22:01:00.000+11:00

i watched The Sorcerer's Apprentice and the thing the guy did for the girl was MEGA SWEET
also the song was mega awesome ADDICTED
also fun facts HE WAS THE GUY IN HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON

enjoy

hearts, li-ming

FOR THE ONE AND ONLY MICHAEL WUU

2011-03-27T21:56:00.000+11:00

yes instead of physiology and biochem im photowhoring cause michael hasnt seen my TEETH NOW THE WHOLE WORLD WILL SEE MY TEETH AND PHOTOWHORING WAYS

and the blonde streak (the hair is my year 12 hairstyle=])

hearts, li-ming

vendredi le vingt-cinq mars

2011-03-25T01:20:00.000+11:00

c'est un a.m, je suis tres fatigue, mais je ne veux pas dormir

today was a failed day, even more so than yesterday because today i had french and french just totally failed me, well i failed it i knew nothing and still know nothing i have to do some hardcore studies but i can't cause of all the otehr things that i need to do like my gamsat and mid semesters OMGSH GAMSAT IS LIKE mega fail my 2 essays in 1 hour resulted in a third of an essay in 3 hours:|

this was what i came up with

"Faith can be considered blind, as to have faith, it cannot be physically viable to touch, feel or see. Faith is a mixture of trust and a belief in the unknown. As humans we continuously practice believing in what is unknown, whether it is through religion or just believing that we, as ourselves, can do something that we have personally never accomplished before, these show that we trust in that which is unknown. Although faith is considered blind, through the use of technology and science, predictions can be made. Therefore the faith that these predictions are true is already known due to the many years of research and the confidence we accumulate. Blind faith is true faith that causes a change in a person’s circumstances compared to known faith, which just provides already known comfort.

Religion is questioned all over the world, but it is those that believe in a God that experiences blind faith. Christianity is dependant on the belief in something that cannot be seen or physically touched, it is based on the spiritual interactions with a well-known God. We cannot see God, nor can we touch Him but yet there is still belief that He exists. All over the world there are many people worshipping and praising their God, and many of those who do not take part in religion just stand back and observe. They wonder why do people believe in something they cannot prove. But it is this belief that can allow supernatural miracles to occur, changing lives and opening doors. It is belief in the unknown, believing in what cannot be seen that allows such fulfilment in life, and allows people to be changed, and people to be healed. Mother Teresa was a valid member of the catholic community, she was a woman of great faith, she made no contribution to the world’s strong growing science and commerce fields, but yet she is still forever remember by her faith. She brought conflict and peace everywhere she went but the world reflects on her as a historical figure, she was one who changed lives, one who affected and touched those who needed it. Her strong yet simple faith brought joy to many and rendered her one of the world’s most influential persons. Religion and faith are conjoined, together they are able to bring more thank fame, but joy and hope to others.

Personal faith is important in many life ambitions, it is about believing in ones self to be able to accomplish greatness. This faith, although the outcome is fairly visible, the original belief is only a hope, a want on something that is not possible just yet. "

as seen it isnt finished.. nup not at all and on top of all that i dont know why my brain is abnormally crazy i like AHH i dont know all i know is that im excited for my cup cake cake... I JUST HOPE ITS AS COOL I THINK IT IS I WANT PHOTOS... ohhh and my hair

yes the burn in my leg has gone.. ohh the joys of the human body and its repair system although its pain reception is FAILS omgsh i could have had a whole in my leg if i didnt notice the tingling sensation was eating away at my leg. but yeah its still a semi fail. but like looks pretty cool.. ive missed it heaps but i should have done it somewhere else like maybe underneath everything, like when i was in year 10 but i think the streak will do for now until july then well see.. i still think ill be fine but you know if you want to wish the worst one someone then lol you always have hope... ok that was a ad random but on a certain people will get that.

but yeah hair mm im not sure if i should go to the next stage of pink:S? cause its pretty sufficient in its self and looks highly natural but pink is ohh so cool.. but then i have to straighten my hair... THE CHOICES ARE ENDLESS

noted rain makes flat and curly i have like RINGLETS IN MY HAIR so failed since i actually did my hair today like the first time in FOREVER ... but yet i havent brushed my hair since like AGES AGO lol im returning to the pattern of year 11

ok well i think i should sleep cause this rant is just boring but HOPEFULLY ILL DO WELL IN THE GAMSAT..

but right now i need to find my phone

hearts, li-ming

almost burnt my skin with bleach

2011-03-23T22:04:00.003+11:00

today i decided after yesterday's hardcore ice skating session to bleach my hair for the return of the blonde streak... but mishaps occurred resulting in a bleached bed and a slightly burnt/bleached piece of skin.... so therefore it had to be washed earlier than i wanted... which is gonna force me to re-bleach it again sometime in the not to distant future...

ANYWAYS more about the last few days...
i really want to watch winnie the pooh=]
i think i shall start with today making it to the semi almost milestone of monday and there i will stop to allow a discrete finish=]
TODAY:
its already wednesday:| or well wednesday night. SOOOO SCARY everything's FLYING by insane-ness. hmm today was a pretty cool day it was like SUNNY and stuff which was retarded cause im sooo ready for winter.. SO BRING IT ON! but today was pretty normal i have no mood for studying.. i found out today that the gamsat essays ARE TOOO INTELLIGENT FOR ME. i have figured over the last several ... days:|? lol ok over a longer period of time that I'm quite immature and childish and so the issues brought up for gamsat essays are literally IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO ANSWER!! maybe i wasnt made to study:S? but like HOW AM I MEANT TO KNOW ABOUT COMPANIES VS TRADE?
i mean seriously? so ive decided to just sit and wait for the real HARDCORE stuff on saturday to experience the craziness of bad essay writing meets impossibly hard unknown topic:|
TODAY i decided i needed a change so i dyed my hair.. well bleached it but FAILURE as written above, my SKIN had like A HOLE like you know those injection scars? IT LOOKED LIKE THAT and kinda shrivelled BUT WORST OF ALL THERE WAS A HUGE WHITE PATCH ON MY LEG AND I WAS LIKE WHAT THE:|.... i madly washed it with soap so its less obvious and now a tad red but it still has a back stinginess...
also due to my tiredness my contacts were mega fail my eyes are sooo sticky
those were the proceedings of today
YESTERDAY:
yesterday was the day of DRAINAGE, after about 3 hours of sleep i went to uni for the most DRAINED 3 hours of my life, french was crazy and my eyes were retarded. but i proceeded with "GAMSAT" study in the library instead yen and i discussed the STUPIDITY of the gamsat and other various things. i had ice skating lessons and sessions that night i was literally running dry.... i wonder what makes me so high? like hyper its sooo weird maybe i should get tested? BUT YES i was like dead high.. i dont think it was cake.. ANYWAYS i got to drive home, let me tell you no sleep contacts and driving in the dark are ALL very very BAD IDEAS almost had two accidents!!! mannnn how do people DRIVE WHEN THEY ARE DRUNK?!
those were the proceedings of yesterday
oh and I won
MONDAY:
oooo and so we fall on a monday... lol MONDAY was the 21st march, le vingt et un mars, and well some may know it was the day in which i left the magical age of 18 and entered the boring age of 19. we were meant to play a game of hide and seek but mega fail as they had someone on the inside forcing me in their direction so they could find me (they meaning amanda and jz and someone meaning andy) so that wasnt fun BUT ONE DAY WELL DO IT PROPERLY and i will win.
it is true i have high expectations.. when it comes to anything, i think its cause im always organising and thinking about what to get / do for peoples birthday. and i try to out do myself every time trying to make each one more and more personal. BUT NONETHELESS monday was good simple easy laid back=]
i got my backpack and other stuff.. like you know STUFF but love the bag use it all the time now.. i may look like a little kid but at least im a COOL kid. but yeah i actually dressed up for my birthday but we didnt take photos.. lately im not my bum self:O maybe this is a sign of maturing? except the fact im getting more hyperactive more often. but back to monday they got me a cake and everything =] so sweet and like all my friends were there and all the facebook messages=] LOL nah on a serious note:
i just would like to thank everyone who came=] expectedly or unexpectedly and to everyone who bought my bag, your are all so awesome and im grateful that you didnt make me do a speech, but as it wasnt my 18 or anything special i guess i didnt need to but i think to show how grateful i actually am i'll put my speech into a lovely piece of random writing filled with love for you guys....
about 9 years ago i came to a country filled with randomness... it was hard fitting in being abnormally weird and all, but as the years have progressed i find myself making more friends than i ever thought possible and i just thank you all for putting up with me like in every way possible. you're all so individually special to me and i just would like to say without you guys, i would still be that lonely loser, but now im a loser with friends=]. to all my uni based friends (those i made in uni) youre sooo awesome, every since i started uni i hated it, it was considered one of the worse experiences i ever had, but now, lol yes now im starting to enjoy the stress and pain, but this is all because i have so many supportive friends who are there during lectures and tutes making my life fun and making uni more enjoyable. i must do a huge shout out to my environments crew.. jess eric vic dan and all the rest who probs never going to read this. THANK YOU SO MUCH for helping me endure the first semester of uni, i swear without you guys i would have quit and i wouldnt be in science without you guys helping me push through all the hate of uni, i know we dont hang out that much anymore but i will never forget you and everything you've done for me, you guys are truly the best. my edsc friends in melbourne uni? lol what more can i say except you're the best for just still being my friend and at least giving me people i know in melbourne uni, i think without you guys i would be bottled up again and soo not my happy self thank you so much for being friends with me=], i'm just gonna do a quick pin point on amanda, because she doesn't fit in any category. AMANDA i still stand by my saying that you're the most awesomeness person ever, your the definition of a best friend (WE CAN HAVE MORE THAN ONE) and i hope that out friendship with reach near to the equivalent of harps and mine. ever since high school man you're the best i cannot describe how but just know that your friendship means so much to me, and i so grateful to be your friend. to all those outside Melbourne ie xiang and michael... i miss you guys heaps and i hope your safe and come back soon!!!!
ill just end with a message for jz, jz your one of a kind.... your such a good friend and you've helped me through so much, like one of the hardest times of my life and im so very thankful that i have a friend like you to lift my spirits up and take unbearable situations and make them fun, and don't worry babe we'll do breakfast again one day soon STUDY HARD AND MAKE ME PROUD....
and again i must say THANK YOU ALL

a photo of me being 19:

hearts, li-ming

somewhere only we know

2011-03-19T18:20:00.001+11:00

i really want to watch winnie the pooh when it comes out... its been ages since a animated movie has been "hand drawn" i think it look so much better than the digitally drawn 3D looking ones cause they look to fake or too try hard. also i like the trailer its kinda sad but sweet.. something im looking forward too

hearts, li-ming

hi

2011-03-18T00:35:00.001+11:00

normally i dont post like random videos that arent music or tv shows but jz showed me this pretty funny and fun video clip...

wish i was in america

hearts, li-ming

no french talk tonight

2011-03-13T22:30:00.000+11:00

uni is taking its toll already, and its only been two weeks:| with a screwed up gamsat in like 2 or one:| anyways my BIRTHDAY is in the same number of weeks so its like GOODBAD GAY. today i "napped" for 4 hours or more i think more, but yeah i dont know why i am so sleepy.
life catch up? did my anatomy test=] 10/10 need to do physiology and biochem french is important and yeah.

i guess we must acknowledge the natural disaster that occurred in japan, which has not only rock japan but spread across the pacific ocean to the west cost of america. there is a turbulence across the whole of the earth like none before. i mean like even australia is being affected. i'm not just talking about the floods, but lets take a look at this abnormal weather, i mean seriously something wrong/ different. its the beginning of 2011 and stuff already seems so unclean, so crazy. there are speculations, of which im sure many of you have heard, 2012 is the year where the world is going to end, but i can assure you it isnt going to be 2012, as it is written in the bible, that God will come like a thief in the night, stealth and quiet, and when we least expect it. so if the world keeps believing it is the end of the world in 2012, it won't happen because we are "expecting" it. a bit of comfort yeah? but i must say it doesn't stop Him from coming in 2011, i think its a time to really think about ourselves, check ourselves over, I know I'll be because only those ready are going to survive. but yeah a little more about the end of the world, the bible states that when God comes the earth will be shaken, it will experience an earthquake stronger than any other that has occurred since mankind. so if you thought japan was big, i'm pretty sure it will be nothing compared to what is to come.

i guess the key point is to be ready?

but yeah this also points to another thought? things we do in life must have a purpose, i think, like i don't mean DON'T study because the world is ending and studying is just a waste of time. but i mean like don't waste your life on pointless things that are going to drag you down. ok mainly im talking bout relationships, (a tad cynical) but like i think the question before you step into a relationship is why? why are you doing this? why do you want to be in a relationship? and also what are you achieving through this relationship? if it just the response, "cause he's hot" i say no. theres no point if hes just going to bring you down and especially for me, if hes going to affect my relationship with God, i don't think theres a point. there are more important things in life than having a guy in my life.

and now to finish off this blog with a smile, or a song (or some sugar coating)

ohh and i went to see top gear=]

hearts, li-ming

quel est la date d'aujourd'hui?

2011-03-10T23:39:00.000+11:00

LEADERS.... we are not alone! we must balance WORK AND FAMILY
do not burn out- SUSTAINABILITY

ok blog time...
hmmm what do i feel like today?! i feel ok nothing terribly special happened today, just a rubbish tutorial and a crazy french one.
we were learning the exercise: "c'est trop" and the teacher told us to use EMOTIONS and FEELINGS and well me victoria and I took it to a whole new level everyone was like :

"Des etudiants"
"non, un etudiant"
(monotonedly)

VICTORIA AND I:
"DES ETUDIANTS???!!!!" (her expression was so funny it was like an exaggeration of a question)
"laughs so hard"
"(repeats)"
"(among laughter) NON, c'est trop, un ETUDIANT"
but no one could hear me cause everyone was still laughing... but its good

i like my french class a lot
i took videos and sent them to amanda
and they were pretty random

ANYWAYS
shout out to VIVIAN CHAN... happy birthday
i think i need to rest more omgsh i borrowed a textbook from the library for overnight rental but i havent read it yet/ looked at it=|
OR THE GAMSAT??!!!!
time to study
until next time

hearts, li-ming

Le trois Mars

2011-03-03T23:29:00.001+11:00

Bonsoir!
Je commencé classes françaises, il est difficile et je ne comprends pas. mais je vais essayer mon mieux.

anyways lately ive just been talking to amanda and jz and my bro in french, failed french but the fail convo will get posted... now

11:01:27 PM Li-Ming: so omsh

11:01:28 PM Amanda Niu: AWWW

11:01:29 PM Li-Ming: he was like

11:01:37 PM Li-Ming: of all colours you pick bloody pink

11:01:39 PM Li-Ming: and i was like

11:01:41 PM Li-Ming: ooo bloody:>

11:01:46 PM Amanda Niu: i want to meet this man of yours xD

11:01:50 PM Amanda Niu: what's his name!

11:01:52 PM Li-Ming: not my man

11:01:56 PM Amanda Niu: your man to be!

11:01:59 PM Li-Ming: he didnt say bye to me

11:02:03 PM Amanda Niu: saywhuuu

11:02:10 PM Amanda Niu: maybe he was uber late to another class

11:02:13 PM Li-Ming: he said bloody

11:02:15 PM Amanda Niu: BUT IF HE TALKED TO YOU

11:02:15 PM Li-Ming: like

11:02:16 PM Li-Ming: omgsh

11:02:17 PM Amanda Niu: DAh

11:02:20 PM Li-Ming: SOO BRITISH

11:02:23 PM Li-Ming: lol

11:02:26 PM Amanda Niu: HAHAHAH

11:02:28 PM Amanda Niu: duuuuuuude

11:02:30 PM Amanda Niu: name!

11:02:34 PM Li-Ming: amanda niu

11:02:36 PM Li-Ming: e

11:03:13 PM Li-Ming: son nom est?

11:03:26 PM Amanda Niu: his name is?

11:03:37 PM Li-Ming: lol

11:03:37 PM Li-Ming: wow

11:03:38 PM Li-Ming: no

11:03:40 PM Li-Ming: niu

11:03:43 PM Li-Ming: not today

11:03:45 PM Amanda Niu: comment s'appelle?!

11:03:54 PM Amanda Niu: lol

11:03:58 PM Amanda Niu: i actually don't think that's right

11:04:00 PM Amanda Niu: HAAH

11:04:02 PM Amanda Niu: but dude

11:04:02 PM Amanda Niu: Name

11:04:10 PM Li-Ming: it is

11:04:12 PM Li-Ming: roght

11:04:14 PM Li-Ming: right*

11:04:24 PM Amanda Niu: nMAE

11:04:25 PM Amanda Niu: NAME

11:04:57 PM Li-Ming: google translate is failing me

11:05:29 PM Li-Ming: au revoir, a bientot

11:05:59 PM Amanda Niu: non non non!

11:06:01 PM Li-Ming: pas aujourd'hui

11:06:20 PM Amanda Niu: pourquoi pas aujourd'hui?

11:06:56 PM Amanda Niu: tu es vraiment l'aimer

11:07:30 PM Li-Ming: vous souhaitez

11:07:58 PM Amanda Niu: je ne comprends pas

11:08:06 PM Amanda Niu: repetez s'il vous plait

11:08:10 PM Li-Ming: lol

11:08:57 PM Li-Ming: anglis: you wish

11:10:02 PM Amanda Niu: ah oui oui, je souhaite beaaaaaaucoup

11:11:22 PM Li-Ming: je pas parler parce que vous imaginer plus

11:11:26 PM Li-Ming: thank it is

11:11:29 PM Li-Ming: than*

11:13:42 PM Li-Ming: que est

11:14:00 PM Amanda Niu: mmhm

11:14:31 PM Li-Ming: sens

11:14:37 PM Li-Ming: ?

11:14:44 PM Li-Ming: its fob french

11:14:54 PM Amanda Niu: je ne parle pas toi dire parce que vous imaginez trop

11:14:59 PM Amanda Niu: i think

11:15:00 PM Amanda Niu: LOL

11:15:07 PM Amanda Niu: je pense!

11:15:36 PM Li-Ming: je ne comprends pas

11:16:30 PM Li-Ming: lol this convo is fail

11:16:38 PM Amanda Niu: il est quoi tu dis?

11:16:41 PM Li-Ming: i have google translate open lol

11:18:10 PM Li-Ming: i wont tell cause then you think theres more to it then tehre is

11:19:31 PM Amanda Niu: MOI AUSSI

11:19:46 PM Amanda Niu: you never know

11:19:55 PM Amanda Niu: tell meee moree when things unravel KAYY?

11:20:02 PM Amanda Niu: i'm really going to sleep now though

11:20:03 PM Amanda Niu: ahaha

11:20:09 PM Amanda Niu: je suis fatigue

11:20:26 PM Li-Ming: oui

11:20:29 PM Li-Ming: no

11:20:34 PM Amanda Niu: c'est un long jour

11:20:36 PM Li-Ming: de rien

11:20:44 PM Amanda Niu: oui oui

11:20:47 PM Amanda Niu: bonne nuite!

11:20:51 PM Amanda Niu: *nuit?

11:21:06 PM Li-Ming: vous aussi

11:23:44 PM Amanda Niu: DAh

11:24:16 PM Li-Ming: sleep?

11:24:25 PM Amanda Niu: oui

11:24:29 PM Amanda Niu: byebyr

11:24:33 PM Li-Ming: bubyee

and yes there a cool british guy but to make it clear with no double negatives, i do not like him in those ways amanda speaks of, this convo is funny cause of the fail french not cause of the guy...

i want my accent back

hearts, li-ming

FACETIME

2011-03-01T00:14:00.000+11:00

amanda and i have been face timing heaps lately and its been mega FUN FUN FUN. ok that sounded sarcastic but its not I'm being genuine and sincere. lately we've been shopping and stuff but now its like mega face time time. as we ended the latest in the facetime calls, amanda was finishing a blog post and therefore in response to her blog post i will to post my heart away....

NEW STUFF HAS HAPPENED SINCE MY LAST POST.

well the big news is the face that my BRACES ARE NO MORE...
a reminder of the braces face i had to endure:

and now the braces-less FACE:

ok so i dont have a photo but just use your vivid imagination to remove the metal brackets from my teeth and BOOM you have my brace-less face.

what else is new do you ask??? NEW??? ELSE???
uni started... i think that sums up that.

now a bit of sentimentality i took amanda on a trip from current funny pictures of amanda to past funny pictures of amanda and along that journey we discovered the amount of change we undertook the styling the hair and the LARGE AMOUNT OF LENGTH AND HAIR COLOUR OUR HAIR took with us.

from pink to blue from long to short and we must not forget the magical night of 2009

and we shall re-live the days of pink and purple

shhh its a secret

i need a close up picture of amanda=]

YAY

hearts, li-ming

7am on the 14th of the 2nd

2011-02-14T07:24:00.002+11:00

last night we learnt a lot about "valentines" day but this morning i found out that i can wake up for this but not for uni....

HERE GOES

ITS 7 in the MORNING

look at what santa brought durning the night

theres something not quite right with my hair

FOUND A TOWEL

you cant see me!=]

FEATHER TIME

GOODNIGHT AND SEE YOU in the next lifetime

my camera mirrors everything...

THE END

hearts, li-ming

Champion

2011-02-13T21:21:00.000+11:00

england radio:

she kinda looks like my best friends cousin....

i think this song is better than the original personally its not so monotoned

also it makes me want a british accent more than I've ever wanted it. which is stupid cause i am british... to obtain this want all i need to do is to hang around british people for a week or the rest of my life...

anyways CHEM 2 TIME again...

RATE ORDERS

will be back soon with my 7:00am

hearts, li-ming

the early hours of "4:00am"

2011-02-11T04:00:00.001+11:00

CHEMISTRY 2 is draining my life

a third of Ethylenediaminetetraacetic

MY DOGGY

at least he doesn't poop everywhere

protective eyewear

i look so awesome

HC note taking=]

i ran out of space...

OMGSH its out to GET ME

pretty in PURPLE

RAWR

10 out of 10 BOOYA

YOUR TURN AMANDA..

hearts, li-ming

its been a long time

2011-02-07T21:40:00.000+11:00

ok well a long LONG like months ago i decided to make a new blog kinda set apart from this one, it will still depict me but like another side i guess...
after reading my bro's blog today and well in general i guess just the thoughts and decisions and stuff i thought it was about time i make this blog, and hopefully along with my fungus blog i can keep 3 blogs going, although this one is slightly dying but nevertheless its still going slow but surely it will run.

i actually don't fully know what to expect from this blog, i think its a more serious side of me and it will be set apart from all the stuff that i put here. This new blog is to be up and running i think soon but with my laziness and up coming exams and the knowing that i never finished designing this blog i can safely say it will probs not be set up for a while but may have blogs dearly typed into it.

I SHALL BLOG AGAIN SOON

hearts, li-ming

we all like a bit of attention

2011-02-03T15:34:00.000+11:00

I haven't blogged in a while, I guess its a combination of laziness and my undoubted love for tv shows, oh and don't forget my inner need to study for summer school, which may I add is nearly over and I still haven't studied. There's so much that I need to get through this year, and to think about doing it all and doing it all well kinda makes my brain go KABOOM. But I will prevail.

But now to show the results of my studying:

hearts, li-ming

my usual new year blog is still in the making

2011-01-10T01:59:00.001+11:00

its the new year, and im too lazy to finish the usual heart felt messages i normally post but this year ive just been too i dunno away from my computer and in not a writing mood to finish any blog.
but today i have the right mood and something to talk about, well rather something to make me rant about anything that comes to my mind.

i guess i can put a bit of "new year" thinking while writing this blog, involving thoughts that have raced through my mind in the last week plus.

within the last 9 days i was a vegetarian with amanda for a week, i wont say it was hard, cause i didnt miss meat and still dont, its just those random cravings for prawn dumplings or barbecued chicken wings that made it tougher at times. (why is the short form or barbecue BBQ?)

mm a year has past (yes a bit of new years thinking) since the end of high school and technically we are now second years, things have of course changed and thinking bout life its self, these years i guess are the most important, they set the course for the future in a way, the friends you make and keep in uni, in these few years are the ones that will be your closest for life, i guess. Its the time of our lives where we've grown up and now this is like do or die. relationships become serious, there are no high school petty relationships, you dont just go out with someone cause you think it will be fun, but most people that go out at our age are more than likely to stay together for the rest of their lives. It's a scary thought, but sometimes it can be pleasing to know that you wont just end up alone. We have matured to be able to hold on to a relationship, and that relationships are something not to play with. but of course there are those of us who have not matured, those that want to waste the most important years of our life away on good nights and someone to hold, they don't think about the future and that what they live by right here right now will result in consequences in the future, what you sow is what you reap. Me, for me i guess i sound very strict and one sided, and to tell you guys the truth, i guess i am. i was brought up mainly by my mum as a christian and as a Christian i have beliefs, i guess, and well i think I've had enough stupid days, days where I've wasted my life away doing things that i would regret later in the future and i have learnt from them. and just as i said before i have reaped a harden heart, jealousy and a personality trait i once did not have. and all that, although all forgiven, i still carry as a burden because well for all you non christians out there you can just skip over this stuff unless your interested, of satan, who is here to destroy the lives of God's people. I've lost so many of my good friends to the appeal of sin, and because of all the stuff i have gained from past life regrets, I am unable to communicate to them like i once did. every day i find it harder to communicate to the anti christ. anyways thats half my troubles i guess... this blog i guess is more or less a summation of all my feelings plotted into one blog.

this is not to be like emo or anything its just in general terms summing up everything so that people who care will actually know more. i think (I hope im right otherwise ill look like a totally idiot) I'm quite secluded in my feelings to others. I dont express myself and tell others much of what actually goes on in my mind, or all the stuff that actually matters. People normally know that i have two emotions, rage or extreme high/happiness, but I keep more of the personal details to myself. theres a lot people dont know about me and thats the way I like it, but sometimes i guess its always good to get a little of your chest. I should really have a diary but i never find the need to write in one. I guess im not a typical girl, i was once one, maybe, but i dont feel the need to blurt out hot guys or have girl talk in that way to another girl. i dont have the need to scream "IM FAT" to the world, because i know if i am or not, and if i am its not like telling others will help me. just like when i blurt out "I need a job" everyones advice is rendered useless. wow this is a true rant. anyways i think we've established something my grade 5 teacher blurted out about me I'm "weird" her words not mine. but to be honest I'm totally fine with it. I always picture myself as unique and if being weird is what makes me unique then so be it, even if people are influenced by my "weirdness" at least it came from me right?

in everyones life theres always a point where you go "what if....?" and i think the biggest and main what if in my life is What if i didn't leave England? So many thoughts run through my head, and as this is a fairly honest blog, and will still remain with my Christian replies, God has a purpose for all our lives (yet again if your not interested skip over) well thats my belief and I've always wondered why did God bring me to Australia? because life here for me was so hard it provided me with a tougher childhood than i would have had in England, in England my life was set, friendship studies everything was perfect. when i look back on the photos we collected over the years of 1992-2002 life looked perfect, the sun the smiles, compared to the grades, the failure, the troubled life here. Its always been a wonder why did we leave. but going back last year and having the year to think about it I know now why God has brought me to Australia. well to cut the long story really short. Here i was able to grow in Christ and become more than just a spectator but someone who lives for him. Where as in England, my church there was very stagnant. Even thought it was a tougher road to 2011 God had my future and placed me somewhere where i would grow in him, but along the way he had also given me good friends, but i guess its just man's freewill that screwed stuff up.

ok if this is too much for you yeah you can close the window now, and just facebook butI'm still going to ramble on about stuff

My view to combat everything i dislike is to ignore it and i guess it like that thing where if you ignore it the pain just goes away? I guess thats what i do in life, i ignore and avoid a lot of issues, thats because i hate confrontation, and telling people what i have personal thoughts for because that just makes me look selfish and yes im saying im not perfect it is also a sin, which I'm not proud of and all my typing is so screwed up.

so ok here we come to the pro hardcore 2011 future thing.
Theres a lot of stuff we want in life, for me well most of you known the material and the usual study job things. we all have those dreams you know your dream house, ideal partner, ideal car, ideal job and just in general your perfect life. I guess i just like to dream a lot, because i know most of these things will not come to pass. The gamsat is this year and next ( if you want to do it twice) and well everyone is crazily studying and stuff and then theres me, just like the umat I don't want to waste my money on tutors and the such, even though people may say "this is your future" or "this is the most important part its decides what you do from now on" and of the likes, I still think it's a stupid test and a waste of money. And i believe my future is actually already written for my by God and that if it is his will for me to become a dentist he will make it happen and if its not he'll have a better plan for me because he will never forsake me nor will he leave me. so yeah just study hard and trust in him is this years "goal". also maybe i should add sleep early to the list.... this year at church I'm going to be a cell leader so its a huge responsibility and its i guess kinda scary but I'm sure ill be fine, theres more i could say but i don't really have an urging to do so. this year i must remember that giving is greater than receiving.

ok and to end this mega crazy rant blog with stuff most of you don't know.... (sorry jz but this is more situated for amanda)
mmmmm where to start. i guess i can start about that pink bangle that you are complaining about that doesn't "fit" you, which does cause it fits me and your a stick insect. you know what's weird, I've been putting this message off for over 2 weeks now cause i didnt have the guts to say much without sounding weird and yet i can write the above stuff, i guess cause this is the part where i open up and get more personal and you know the nitty gritty stuff. ok so here goes. Well the reason behind that particular bangle, i have like 10 of them... well 9 now but yeah it came into my possession through my mums friend who knew i liked pink, which was pretty cool, but anyways, when i was looking through the ones my dad bought me from pakistan i thought you may like some cause its quirky and different, so i was sorting through them seeing which ones were definitely too big for you and which ones would most like fit you and which ones you would most likely like. by the end of the night i picked the plastic ones and the orange glass ones, as i was about to sleep when i remembered the pink ones and i was like should i give her one? that night before i slept i was thinking about everything, like everything weve done together in high school and now, and the progression of friendship, and that promise i made you at the end of year 12, which was getting harder and harder to keep. then (as written above) I noticed you mainly lose your high school friends, well we are still friends but i mean like the tightness loosens and the distance grows, its been one year and yet it feels like 5 cause we arent that close anymore. and yes its sad to say this but its just a fact as life carries on, as you move on you find other people you have more in common than we do/did and well just as that photo album i gave you last year was a reminder of everything we've done, theres always others that feels them selves as more important especially in the present time so i thought i give you something that represents me not only in colour but also in background (pakistani), and a reminder of you know.. stuff? and in general, just something cool. anyways your an awesome friend, so full of life, but sometimes i just cant talk to you the way we used to, but yeah don't worry we still are friends no matter what just saying the distance is growing, and that I'm sorry i haven made much of an effort to stay close, your just too popular, so many people are wanting your attention.
but you are one of the best friends I've ever had, and one day i will explain why in a less public setting.

You know what funny I didn't even mention anything to do with what set off this need for blogging
anyways i hope that everyone has a good year this year, and don't worry the world won't end in 2012
hope to blog again soon, and less honestly , if your still willing to read my blogs

hearts, li-ming

Thank you Linda Lu

2011-01-01T00:00:00.000+11:00

Happy new year!!!54

my mums addicted to the itouch

2010-12-30T00:05:00.000+11:00

u noe sometimes u think to your self... this year for christmas i am going to get good presents for my mum cause she does a lot keep this family together, and so u go to a different borders everyday for a week to find a book which is so popular that it sells out within a day. but yet u think to ur self, its worth it, shell love this book i just know she will. so you eventually spend 30 dollars for this book which took a lot of time and effort. and in the process of christmas i thought.. hmm maybe ill thrown in the itouch i never opened... and ill get her a case for too.

CHRISTMAS arrives...

and what does my mum do??? SHE tells me that the book was rubbish and that i shouldnt have spent so much money on it but but THE THOUGHT THOUGHT and effort was SOO LARGE
but the itouch... THE ITOUCH
the itouch may have cost more but the thought... the THOUGHT was soo little it was just like extra touch.. hmmm HERE TAKE IT but now its an addictive toy of which mum does not listen to music no instead she plays angry birds over and over again... until the battery dies....

sighs my family has no life except electronics...

hearts, liming

christmas is the time for giving

2010-12-27T11:06:00.001+11:00

-looking freaky on christmas day

ok this blog is a few days late but at least the photo was taken on the actual day... at like 11pm i feel like tea.

mmm i havent blogged in ages so many illl keep this blog specifically to Christmas and boxing day

on Christmas day it was the usual, church, lunch, dinner, movies but this year i was sick so it was more like lazy to the dinner table and collapse on the bean bag, between sections of christmas i managed to stay awake. Also i wondered how the word Christmas came to be, it has Christ in it and it came about cause Christ was born on that day but THE MAS where did the MAS come from?

but thanks to wikipedia, i will forever know

"The word Christmas originated as a compound meaning "Christ's Mass"."

doesnt life make a little more sense?

but anyways it was a good day and at church we learnt bout peace, which i did experience before the above picture was taken so it was all good

boxing day, a day made for retailers came along and SALES i shopped with my bro because i dont have money and we bought heaps of cool and interesting stuff, actually no we didnt i jsut bought nike airs and adidas shoes and bro bought shirts so now we r off to shoppo to attempt round two where i will buy stuff that i need proper clothes and undies.... tehehehehhe MOSSIMO HERE I COME

hearts, li-ming

hearts, liming???

2010-12-22T10:14:00.000+11:00

Oh wow my iPhone lets me blog unlike my touch but I must admit the comp is still the best way to blog but sincE this is an "in the moment" blog it will only be short

RAWR

Boo I can't do my signature sign off so..
hearts, liming

so many things need to be posted but soo lazy

2010-12-13T01:04:00.000+11:00

annoyance...
ok well i kinda get annoyed easily ad at the stupidest things... which normally leads to ranting and stupid obsessive ignorings and isolations.

but yes i will be ranting bout other things as ranting bout the thing that annoys is pointless.

there are things in life that we all want to do. my list is short... well not really... i have a grand list of cars, houses, countries and lifestyles.

CARS...
ok i love top gear, just had to put it out there, top gear lead to my love for cars and want for cars and dreams of a driveway and garage of several cars.
initially i wanted a lime green bug cause it was like "nawwww cute" in the asian tone of voice. but after one year of car observation and other stuff, an old school white bug with a spilt screen seemed kinda cool but WAY TOOO EXPENSIVE. then came my thought of if i want an old school car i need to know manual (no point getting a gd car if its not in manual, also old cars were all manuals). THE I WAS EXPOSED TO THE ITALIAN JOB!!!! minis were the new thing, old or new i didnt care. just as long as it was mine but knowing more bout cars newer one are of course safer and etc. being in england, i decided i wanted a red mini white strips tan leather interior and black hardtop =] YEA that is my dream first car... of course its not gonna happen but we can all dream right?
my car list also included the aston martin and bugatti veyron ohh the love.... and a few others to this small and expensive collection but of course its just a dream but u noe=] we all have our loves and dreams

HOUSES...
do u have those dreams? like u dream bout ur dream house and dream bedroom? i have my rooms awesome and my house was crazy it was like 3 stories with a view but it wasnt a mansion on MEGA PLOTS OF LAND it was just great inside. my bedroom was the bomb. sound proof walls surround sound and my ultimate bed and feature wall.. yet again it will not happen but wat r dreams for if u cant dream? my bedroom had wooden floorboards with a shaggy pink rug. remembering wat it looks like just reminds me of how extreme it was and how cool it all was...

COUNTRIES...
i guess this is the most certain part of my life. u noe the part where there is no dreaming cause its mostly likely , and your more than certain its true. the mega Q AUSTRALIA v. ENGLAND its the ashes all over again (except its still being played currently) verdict is known.. i guess i can say but nothing will change for me until i get my degree and masters and work for one year or 2 just to get me set.

LIFESTYLE...
dentistry
orthodontist
ok i guess ild like to think of my self as unique. ( my chosen career paths are not unique i noe that) but like i mean living life generally, ild like to consider myself as unique. when some one copies, or does the same, or i am compared to some one or CALLED some one else, i dislike (hate) it a lot i get all twitchy and all grrrred and RAWRED at everything to do with the un uniqueness of myself. there are several things ive wanted to do for a while now. but, i guess no one wanted to do them with me cause it wasnt i guess something they wanted to do, but sometimes they go ahead and do it without me is kinda ... yea and i dunno, sometimes i feel like im the only one who knows when u joke around or when to be respectful and seriously. sometimes i feel like others do things inconsiderately... i dunno guess just weve hit the bottom of the deep blue ocean..

busy day 2morrow u noe living my holiday life with no car etc...

i should be grateful for wat is given to me, but sometimes its just sooo hard

hearts, li-ming

ni hao

2010-12-07T00:54:00.000+11:00

amanda called=]
mum loves me=]
bros home=]
new iphone soon=]
lifes good... except the i have nothing to do bit......
so photowhoring to the rescue with my new headphones YAY

my pjs r pink.......

hearts, li-ming

5th december 2010

2010-12-05T23:48:00.000+11:00

showstopper

as am i about to write this ive realised that no one will actually read this as most of my friends r going on a mega road trip and yea well ill be in melbourne donny area alone for a week so LETS GET INTO THIS BLOG.

uni finally ended the dreading feeling of results and uni has ended (actually it ended like a few days ago) its such a relief to noe that everything youve worked for has worked out for the best. but results were pretty expected and i didnt think any different accept for my H1!!!!! IN CHEMISTRY like WOW i was sooo wowed in yr 12 i failed chem and to receive H1 after all my crummy marks it really lightened the mood of result receiving. i was on "cloud nine" as weird people would put it. but yea results came out and im finally relieved of my duties to uni but now SUMMER SCHOOL in JAN

so since "holidays" started my bro went to malaysia and tomorrow he comes back which is pretty exciting and cool well maybe a tad cool but YAY PRESENTS ok no i dont use my bro for presents but i do get presents and yes i am also very excited that his coming home ish... besides the point i get to drive to the airport how cool is that ive already done like 14 hours+ and now i get to bring it higher up to like 15 hours and therefore i will only have 105 hours to go 105 105!!!! its nearly below 100 feels sooo good when i get my 120 i would have accomplish something awesomely great

but the main reason for this blog is because today (written at 11:38pm) it was gabriel ong's birthday, and may i add it was his 20th birthday. and with the small gathering (to which i drove to and experienced steep hills like no other) it was a celebration of his oldness...
ok normally at this point i would write a paragraph or message for that person of a special new age. but as he has a girlfriend, i dont feel like its normal/my duty to write a massively awesome paragraph so ill just write a few sentences.
PIMP G- i actually did not noe this guy from the start, he was just this random guy that i noticed liked my friend of which was blind to tat fact. through the childish games and matchmaking, it brought a few of my more distant friends closer=]. and basically his negativity was all for nothing cause as i said like a year ago (roughly) he was going to get the girl. but guys never listen. anyways it was nice having such a good friend and theres soo many stupid things i remember but as this is meant to be only a few sentences long... happy 20th G.. live long and prosper *spock sign* im awesome=]

and HAVE A GOOD TRIP GUYS

hearts, li-ming

im in love with esty

2010-12-01T10:45:00.000+11:00

remember how i wanted yoshi to eat my apple? well the site i got the idea from was called esty.
its like a a networking site with stores instead of individual people and they have some of the coolest stuff... some stuff is a bit pricey but its sooo pretty nonetheless
a other item to add to my collection of love :

by 3squares

its sooo pretty if i had the money i would have already bought it

MORE ITEMS that were pretty cool:

by woodlandbelle

by charms4you

by molecularmuse

there are two birds outside my window. they are kinda trying to mate i guess... the guy is try but the girl is pushing him away by wildly flapping her wings at him so he cant climb on top.... they should get a room...

hunger

hearts, li-ming

the next door neighbour's dog is soo scary

2010-11-30T22:29:00.001+11:00

after many days of searching and painful hours of sleeplessness due to the lost of my itouch......

isnt it superb and its all mine.....=]

and i only got it for 70 dollars as i traded my old on in for MONEIES and then kmart was selling it cheap etc LONG STORY SHORT its in my hands today

PINK HEADFONES R IN USE

110 i better look after them apparently they r really gd but the photo is really dodgy

ANYWAYS to celebrate the cheap purchase of my touch

i bought it a beautiful case=] to show that i will never lose it nor leave it ever again

isnt it beautiful

I CAN NEVER LOSE MY TOUCH CAUSE ITS TOO PRETTY

anyways new stuff i go to the gym but only for 14 days so far im in pain but I LOVE BODY JAM is soo much fun its like hiphop and EXERCISE its like more intense dancing and its sooo gd its probs the only reason i would buy membership

i love the instructor

tooo bad i only get two classes=[

ANYWAYS that all that new=]

I WILL WRITE AGAIN SOON excited bout kris kringle

hearts, li-ming

was meant ti be uploaded on tues

2010-11-26T00:02:00.001+11:00

teheheh

the return of the emo fringe

hearts, li-ming

exams r over... but y isnt the stress?

2010-11-25T22:29:00.000+11:00

well ok exmas are over (hint hint above). I think i did ok not great but good enough for me to forget bout them without stressing. it was a stupid three weeks of heat tv shows and studies. but im of course GLAD they are over.

BUT although exams are over theres so many things i need to do before i can relax and enjoy my holiday. these things are making me more stressed than before. well as soon as my exams had finished i had to go and do my application for berkeley studies overseas, which was a tad hard but painful as i had to keep going to the uni and i only had 2 days to do it in, but yes i did complete tat today which was good ONE THING DOWN.
but then my bro who is overseas and still telling me to do stuff. told em to go and trade in my itouch for store credit so i can buy a new one... fair enough i guess... BUT BUT THEY SOLD OUT OF ITOUCHES sooo now im touchless and will forever be stranded until more come in stock which will be like never according to they way they do things. with their gay attitudes. so anyways quickly summing up before i carry on. I was forced to finish an application with stressful tiresome trips to the city (btw i ate an elastic) and i am now touchless.

TO ADD to it im jobless and in need for a job so therefore im attempting to apply for one 2morrow which requires early morning wake ups and get ready which i hate as much as any other person and AFVSHIFBG F
IF I WAS IN THE CITY AT LIKE 2 when i was planning on i would have gotten my stupid touch=[ im soooo rawred i want my old touch it was my friend my second baby... but i guess u dont drown a baby in rain water:|...

but yea the life of li-ming is getting more stressed.. AS i need to use up this 14 days free pass to fitness first by starting it on tues and because of this itouch thing i cannot go cause i need to GET THE STUPID ITOUCH
ahhhh life is hard

BUT ON THE BRIGHT SIDE I GOT PINK HEADPHONES... for my non existent music expelling technological system....

sighs
BUT when this week ends it will feel sooooo good=] fluro pink case HERE I COME

hearts, li-ming

15-11-10

2010-11-15T23:01:00.001+11:00

it was a chem study day today....
but instead i watched how to train your dragon A REALLY GOOD MOVIE=] sooo good anyways my fav scene (one of):

I WANT A DRAGON!!!!

ok so maybe i was watching more than i was hcing my chem but but but but LAST EXAM IN A WEEK feels good then i will be FREE
will post hc then

hearts, li-ming

2 days of physics

2010-11-07T23:31:00.000+11:00

felt like a teacher

hearts, li-ming

head-hurt

2010-10-31T22:13:00.000+11:00

EXAMINATIONS in like 7 days dun dun dun i have not studied, but ive attempted to clean my room which is a big start

BUT THEN....

MEGA DISASTER occurs ruining my cleaning abilities on saturday. the RAIN brought a flood to the downstairs of my house and the garage. WHICH WAS STUPID Cause i was standing in like 2 cm deep water in my garage and like 0.5-1cm deep water in my "downstairs rumpus room" the carpet got drenched and so did all our boxes of stuff. luckily i keep all my boxes upstairs cause i was originally intending to unpack them but then laziness got the better of me and therefore i did. HOORAY for laziness, once again it saves my stuff but it doesnt save me from the EXAMINATIONS. i have uni tomorrow=[ and i havent even started to study.
ohh yeah photos of my drowing house, these were taken after the rain eased and after all the cleaning

cant really tell but its really deep and like yea this was like only 10mins after the rain started

and u can see the water above the carpet

wat a way to spend a saturday... cleaning. but then i went driving at night, and theres something about driving at night and in the rain it freaks me out my whole body shakes and i start to chatter. its bad, not only for my teeth but for my driving. but last nights driving (saturday) and todays im finally up to like 8hr and like 30mins=] YAY 111hr and 30mins tO GO im excited in a scared i cant drive way.

maybe i shall start my study... well i kinda did yesterday before i went for my drive i did like 3 or 4 bio questions but i havent actually studied/learnt the material:| i have a pimple on my chin... stress? i THINK NOT i wanna buy movie tickets and get my free uni cup=] IM SOOO EXCITED
OMGSH its halloween!!! i love those makeup tutes on youtube soo fascinating but now i just keep playing plants V. Zombies....
HEAD ACHE gonna rest

hearts, li-ming

ohh the horrors of a monday

2010-10-25T22:38:00.000+11:00

today i had to attend uni and it was my last psych tute. i was thinking so highly of it, i was expecting lollies and happiness but instead we got a lecture=[ and just as i was checking my emails, i received one from myself and my mac REMINDING ME that BIO EXAM IS IN 2 WEEKS!!!! ohhh the sky will drip rubies like sweeny todd's friends

OMGSH THERE WAS A FIREWORK OUTSIDE MY ROOM

anyways off topic completely last night i dreamt about a kitten i found hurt outside my room so i looked after it and i nurtured it back to health and it loved me and followed me everywhere i went and it made e want to get a kitten so much more. but yeah back to real life. today we went to global mobility in our uni which is like a place to go if u wanna like go on exchange and well it reminded me to go and email my lecture for a reference. while thinking about it i remember this reference my VCE coordinators gave me to apply for uni overseas, which highly failed. but i decided i would send it to her so she can have a reference to reference off=] and well i thought i would picture in....

But yeah so i emailed my lecture saying all this stuff, but yeah when i was looking for this reference I was reminded of high school and how incomplete it was. like we wanted to do so much for it but instead we did so little. I was pretty RAWRed anyways back to this morning in psych we did personality test and found out that i was mega extraverted where as everything else was like normal or a bit lower than normal so im semi rounded as nice normal person. it was good lesson. (between pych and my lectures the global mobility thingo occurred) but during chem i was like almost falling asleep and then during bio it was kinda hard to get and then came an hour of break which i was pretty laid back other than being bagged by michael was pretty good and then we had PHYSICS which wasnt tooo bad learnt bout lasiks and stuff which i was considering getting done after my bro cause im too scared. and then HOME TIME we had Lord of the Fries which was ok and then i came home TO SEE ALL MY BOOKS HAD ARRIVED!!!! yayayyayayyay im sooo excited

so i took A PHOTO of the mini pile that was gathering on my bedroom floor.....i need to clean my rooms before exams.

but now i must study physics for my physics prac. which i was too lazy to do when i got home so RAWR time to hc so i may sleep soon ohh sooo tired

this was really random.....

(all you need from this blog were the BOOKS)

hearts, li-ming

Camberwellllllllling

2010-10-24T23:28:00.000+11:00

HELLO my fellow peoples....
exams r sooo colse that if i stuck my tongue out i bet i could taste the bitterness of it all :O and despite that i havent even started to observe or open my books, instead lately ive been very rawr and agro and with very little patience. but yea it doesnt matter because after a day and 1 hour of driving (YEA 7 hours down 113 TO GO) ive decided theres no real point in screaming y head of for stupid people with annoying qualities cause they just dont learn. I keep a lot of real "emotion" inside and rarely do i expressive my true rage. but but but FRIDAY AND SATURDAY was days of pure rage. HOW CAN ADULTS BE SO inconsiderate is my question of the day. but now im ok. the built up of stupid rage has left me and all i have to say is more about the latest haps of my life.

im still waiting for one stupid book parcel and tomorrow should be the day i receive the most expensive parcel of my life. im throughly excited=]. but more of the past and present. well ok we shall start from the earliest i can remember which was thursday night. yes my brain has a 2-3 day memory. but on thursday night i was watching a show on pillows and the dirt and bacteria that grows and manifests in your pillows and the mould and grottiness it produces so that night i went to my bed before i was about to sleep and looked at my pillows (of which i have 3... yes i need three pillows to sleep) and well i thought about them for a second, and considered using my fourth pillow (ok i lied i have 4 pillows but i only sleep with 3 cause the fourth pillow is soooo new and fluffy that i keep it off my bed for observations on how FLUFFY it is) but it was sooo new and fluffy i couldnt bear to use it so i just rotated my flat pillow (the top pillow) to the bottom of my pillow stacks which exposed a fairly new pillow that still had much of its fluff and air. and i slept. yes a lot of consideration went into sleeping that night. but the next day, friday i had a late start so i just lazied around in my room/on my bed in the 29 degree weather (stupid weather cant it just pick what it wants to be? it didnt even thunderstorm that night.) and read my book PRIIDE AND PREJUDICE AND ZOMBIES, which may i add is pretty graphically grotty, and gruesome as i will quote: "As dinner continued in this manner, Elizabeth's eye wad continuously drawn to Charlotte, who hovered over her plate, using a spoon to shovel goose meat and gravy in the general direction of her mouth, with limited success. As did, one of the sores beneath her eye burst, sending a trickle of bloody pus down her cheek and into her mouth. Apparently, she found the added flavour agreeable, for it only increased the frequency of her spoonfuls." anyways when i arrived at uni i was talking to people about the pillow incident i saw on the telly and we were in an uproar at the grottiness and the state of our bed covers, which got me thinking, i should really cange my bed covers. Later that night at church i found out that outside shoppo target they were swapping pillows, and i got excited. so when i got home that night i set my alarm and made it an appointment to rightfully collect my free pillow. which mega-semi-failed as i slept in and only went to shoppo at 12 of which the pillows just ran out so i was carrying A pointless pillow in my bag (i chose the grottiest pillow i had) so i went to observe yen working, they were so busy that it angered me that they didnt want or need my expertise in the whole serving thingo so i texted my bro and asked him to pick me up and take me home, but in doing so i had to retrieve him a boost and soem lindt chocolate, so along my way i came across the pillow handing out area and they were like we may get more pillows so i was like WOOOO but they were like u cannot juts gather in a huge circle so i was like *diva* and then when i came out i saw a line forming and joined it=] I RECEIVED my pillow it was sooo soft and FLUFFY i was like *hugs*
but yea then i got my boosts and stuff and made my to the car and home. that night we went for a drive=] and when my mammy came home i told her of my pillow and showed it to her in all its delight. but i could not just place this new pillow on my bed so i decided i had to change my bed covers and so at 11:10 at night i changed my bed covers and fluffed my pillows and i have pictures to illustrate this event.

my new pillow

puff puff

my new pillow next to the "fourth" one

its puffier=]

anyways after this exciting exchange of bed linen i was planning on sleeping early as i had to wake up at like 6:30 to catch a 7:30 bus to meet amanda so that we could dwell in the experience that was camberwell markets. and cause my bus didnt come any later without being too late. but yeah! CAMBERWELL MARKETS WERE SOOO FUN so much stuff to see but i was like sooo confused on what to buy so i only bought jewellery and patterns to make blazers and stuff... ohh so exciting and i saw this one bag.. THE BAG OF BAGS it was leather and sooo vintage and sooo COOL but it was 65 and i was like..... i cant.. i wont.... but it was soo pretty i regret not trying to haggle for it. but yea AMANDA BOUGHT ME A NECKLACe i love u........!!! sooo cool heart shaped to a picture of teh stuff (jewellery)

and then i went to church and drove home.

battery dying so ill go.. HAVE A GOOD WEEK OF EXAMINATIONS

hearts, li-ming